You guessed it right, I'm still juggling between my geeky & bridezilla modes, hence the lack of update.

Reckon that I'll stay this way until the very last week before the big day.

Work is crashing in, like tidal waves, calm one minute and tsunami during the other. Owh sungguh serabut but I can't complaint, I love being a java programmer, no? I love the mind-blowing struggles, no? I love my flexi job, no? I love being a computer slave with a good paycheque for my impulsive shopping spree, no?

He he. So yea, hafta refrain myself from whining for a bit.

Anyway, a farewell cum birthday party is going to be held for a cousin this weekend & I'm invited but I'm yet to RSVP, kerana...C***'s is planning to drag me back to Malacca to work on the big day stuff as we need to work on it ASAP(kerana time is running out) & juga kerana future MIL adelah agak senggang to help on the related stuff this weekend(yea, C*** is one lucky fella I tell you, his mum handles everything,sungguh relax.he he)

So how now brown cow?

Tsk..well nevermind. Lets think about it over a wonderful bowl of cubed mangoes.

Okay lah, saya nak balik makan mangga( thx love, nanti balik Malacca saya nak banyak2 lagi).

Tata.

WARNING: Another bridezilla entry ahead.

I'm tired. My head is juggling between work and what on earth am I suppose to have for door gifts.

It's exhausting.

Perhaps I'm just fussy and complicated as C*** on the other hand is worry-free, I bet he's hanging out with his bff whilst sipping on coconut shake now since he's still on leave. *pouts*

If you ask me, I would paper-wrap an apple(an apple a day keeps the doc away,no?),then kasi sorang satu. Senang. Hassle free, tapi kalau rasa macam nak menerima pandangan keji - tapi bukan by my loving parents mind you,but the kepochii mekciks - sila la buat. Well, I don't really bother bout the pandangan keji part, tapii......well, nevermind.

Talking bout the door gifts, I'm going to get myself a personalized rubber stamp, with one of those fancy swirls(thx a bunch for the much needed help bro) and all. I hafta start working on it asap.

On a lighter note, I've booked the photog for my 2 days events in Kedah(which I hope gonna be awesome and hassle free) and we're done with our wedding invitation cards,well, almost. :D

We decided to go for something simple and the cards are going to come in 2 batches of different colors. Sparkling dark brown and light gold. Ini adelah kerana saya we couldn't make up our minds so we decided to do both(yea, surprise surprise, it doesn't come in white or pink or peach,kan saya dah cakap theme color tu sangat impulsive). he he.

I'm the most disorganized bridezilla ever. Tsk tsk.

So don't ask me what you should wear to the reception, anything will do(except for those cousins and bff yang awal2 dah tanya nak pakai color ape,sila lah pilih color creame or peach or pale pink or a mix of everything.haha),I'm having a rainbow-themed wedding or maybe not. :P

Well,I'll be spending the weekend with the cousins, it has beeen ages since the last time so yea, have a great weekend. I'll be enjoying mine.

Tata.

I'm back from a week of blissful break and I'm glad to say that I've managed to strike off some of the major items in my to-do list.Such a relief. Haih.

Owh, how I love the productive break, let me count the ways,

1. We are a step closer to the wedding attires, but since we couldn't find anything that we(or should I say, I) like (dan memusnahkan harapan untuk menjadi cheapskate dengan sewa baju yang murah) so we went ahead and booked for a new custom-made wedding dress in off-white(wish literally gonna look like a dress) with pastel peachy-pink beading and a matching attire for C***.
   
   Yea, no baju melayu hang tuah for him tho he still gets to wear the songket and all.he he.
   


2. I am very impulsive, hence the fact that I got myself a garden themed dais. I saw it at one of the bridal boutiques and I'm hooked, padahal saya bukan nak garden wedding pon.Apekah?
   
   Owh well, it's lovely and it's just for cam-whoring sake(yer saya tak bersanding in Kedah, but we gonna have it in full blast in Malacca, the tukar baju like 8 kali and all that), so nevermind.
   


3. Bought a set of lovely fabrics for the bilik pengantin's curtains but yet to think of how to decorate the 4 post bed. Hmpp..drapes kah?


4. Found someone to decorate the staircase with white drapes and white & pale pink roses.


5. Yea, if you're wondering, I'll be having a white, peaches and pink wedding. :P Tetiba dah dapat theme color, I'm spontaneous just like that.

So that about it.

Owh, on a lighter note, we got the wedding ring, mine that is, as C***'s is still out there, somewhere. :P

Let me remind you again on how excruciating it is to ring-hunt for guys as I got mine whilst we were having our weekend stroll in the mall,sungguh mudah sekali dan sangat impulsive, I blame the abg kedai for saying that it looks nice on moi finger,

but fret not, as we got 2 shortlisted jewelers in mind and hope to get a decent one for C*** - kerana ring for guys could be too expensive(yang mungkin mampu beli 10 thn lagi) or too murah sampai rasa macam keji kalau nak beli for wedding, like C*** might gimme the "saya kasi awak ring mahal,ni jer yang awk kasi saya?" he he, but lemme get it straight, C*** wouldn't mind a bit, tak pakai ring lagi dia suka kot? :P

Well,rings aside, we already got our hands on the matching watches at a good bargain, another tick to mark off the hantaran list.

Owh, work is kinda slow today as most of everyone I'm working with is still on cny break,so I'm off for my half day leave, something urgent came up.

So later.

Hellllooww stalkers!

Sorry for the lack of updates, I've been busy with the UAT and it's sucky.

I hate it when it-works-on-my-local-server-but-not-in-uat-server problem happened. The debugging is such a grueling process, especially when there's no blardy error message. Like, kenape takde error tapi tak jalan? Kenapeeee?

Tsk tsk. & the fact that we can't debug the UAT ourselves just worsen the pain. Debug, send to QA team, they would deploy, then you hafta check then if it's still not working, kindly repeat those steps above sampai mati. Thankyouverymuch.

The price you hafta pay for working in a big company, procedure this,procedure that.Bende 2 minit jadi 2 jam. Haih.

Anywaaayy,

job aside, I still haven't ramble bout my productive weekend and I have no mood for that as it deserves a proper post and I ain't got time for that, yet.

Well, I'm off back home today.A week off from work baby! & C*** is heading up north next week to work on the big day stuff.

So yea, have a great CNY break and be safe.

Ciou!

The story I'm about to share is not meant to harm anybody.

I just have the need to express my stand on this, nothing more nothing less.

& since I rarely write about the whole relationship thingy,so this is rather absurd.

So yes, a friend of mine, whom I met sometime during the undergrad years got married last year, to his high school sweethearts(regardless the fact that he's a bad ass player and cheated on her a couple of times ). A few days back, out of the middle of nowhere, he asked

"Babe, you know my story, so whaddaya think on why she's willing to be married to me? Would you do the same if you're in her shoes?"

Like,errr..why are you asking me this kinda question again? he he.(Seriously what were you thinking? I'm no love doctor ya know?)

Since I was busy with my codes and whatnot, I told him that I'll get back to him later as I need to sleep on it, ya know, kena pikir dengan mendalam. :P

So yea, it got me thinking.

Well, if you ask me. I would surely say that she loves him and she's very forgiving(& somehow believe that he'll change for the better).

As I won't do the same. Ape? Kau tipuuu? Kawen? No thank you.

Nasib baek on your car and not your head.he he

If marriage is a gamble, I would at least get into it with someone I love and trust and knowing those stuff that he did, the trust is as good as gone. Nada. Kaput.

& I am not willing to spend my entire life being paranoid over the stuff that the other half did or might do. Like, owh naper dia tetiba kena keja masa weekend? Tapi call tak dapat? Adekah dia pegi berdating? Pegi gua tempurung ke? Maybe I should put a gprs tracking device on his car.

Love without trust just won't work in my book.24/7 asyik risau jer, nanti boleh mati cepat. :P

& I'm an all or nothing at all type of person *control freak alert*.

I want all of loved one or nothing at all as I'm not big on sharing(yer, I know someone who doesn't mind sharing as long as dia tidak diabaikan), but not me, humans are not good in being fair, as much as we would like to think that we are good in equalities, I beg to differ - as human can't run from favoritism.

We bought a new bag, we'll somehow neglect the old one, beli kasut baru,then pakai kasut baru ulang2, kasut lama buat-buat tak nampak, okay that's material, but ya got the drift.

So yea, sharing is not my virtue. Saya memang tamak(when it comes to love and affections) just like that. Sila cari orang lain untuk dikongsi, thankyouverymuch.

That's about it.

Will write about my productive weekend later.

Have a great week.

Ciou.

I noticed the same stalkers(since they would come everyday but never leave a comment/trace except for those ips, yer I stalk the stalkers, I'm a geek just like that) coming in a bunch of time everyday, probably expecting to see a new post(ha ha), excusez moi, I'm just caught up in one of my rarest modes.

I have tonnes to ramble about but I'm just tired.

My body is not, but my mind is.

Maybe I think too much, perhaps I need to pop some chill pills. I dunno.

It's disheartening when you're all warmed up over something and someone would go "what's the fuss?" macam when you're serious about something and tetiba ade orang cakap "hoh, yang kalut2 ni kenapa?".

What the fuss you asked? Wait till I stop to give a blardy rat's ass about everything and you would be sorry.

If I wanna fuss over something, let me be.

That's how my system works, that's how I operate.

I fuss over something to get it over with - as when I'm not, you should be worried.

I'm absurd just like that.

Okayy, rant's over.

Well, I'll be taking a long break during CNY, need to work on some big day stuff back at home. We're yet to confirm on the wedding dress, dais, door gift and whatnot, but since C***'s heading up North sometime during the break, I hope we could sort things out.

Penat ah dok pikiaq hari-hari tapi takkkk settle jugak. Tsk tsk.

On a lighter note, we've found someone who could work on the wedding invitations. Nothing fancy(less if more,no?), none of those hardcover stuff,kerawang2 sampai 4-5 muka surat as we won't splurge on the cards(membazir itu amalan syaitan as nobody would bothers to keep the card anyway,I would rather use the money for another bag),

I would simply buy a 40cents cards if I could, tapi obviously lah tak boleh. :P *cue macik-macik memberi pandangan yang keji*

Owh well, that's about it, I'm off for another series of shopping sprees this weekend with C*** (as someone deserves a serious session of hectoring). Woot!

I'm off now. Have a great weekend.

Ciou.

You hafta listen to this(tetiba jer paksa), I think it's just so freaking cool and comel that it somehow managed to ring again and again in my head like there's an imaginary cd stuck on replay.Betul.

The 1st 20 secs of the song reminded me of candy land with marshmallow trees, chocolate fountains and the sort, ya know, those stuff in Charlie and the chocolate factory, only better. The rest of the song gives me this weird I'm jumping from cloud to cloud feeling which tickles.Well, at least that's how I feel, ya know, somewhat dreamy, or maybe it's just me. :P

Leave my door open just a crack.
Cause I feel like such an insomniac.
Why do I tire of counting sheep?
When I'm far too tired to fall asleep

Well, the weekend was great.

We had fattening food(at a crowded eating-place with our baju kurung and sharply ironed shirt,hah,sungguh out of place) and the kursus was okie, fun and informative tho some of the speakers were sorta hmpp..well, boring, specifically those who laugh at their own jokes,not my favorite.

Sunday was tough as someone was having a hard time to stay awake(it wasn't me :P) so once we're done with everything, I dragged him for a caffeine-fix at the st*buck next door as he still hafta drive me home, so might as well give him some caffeine-boost no? Sleepiness & driving never make good friends.

That's about it, I'm having my Tuesday-blues now.

Owh have a great week.

p/s:I'm yearning for a special dinner, C*** jom! (Darling,anywhere fabulous with squid please :x )

Someone told me that he ain't getting me any new ride(walaupon duit tetiba turun dari langit) unless I start to fix my awesome sense of direction - which I'm not proud of.

I can't help it, I don't give much thought about the directions or the roads or landmarks since I got myself a human-gprs( he he), like whaddaheck aight? Ape? Jalan pegi Maluri? Lemme badger C*** for the directions first(much to his amusement and annoyance). he he.

Truth is, I am not that hopeless lah(no, I'm not being defensive over here) as I could name at least 5 person with super-hopeless-sense-of-directions. Betul saya tak tipu, ade yang siap puji saya terer baca map. ha ha. So should I take that as a compliment? :P(Who would have ever thought a nerd could be this vain?)

Anyway, the root to my problem is, I don't like to drive alone unless my life depends on it, the best example hafta be the long drive to work, I'm doing it coz my life is somewhat depends on it, ya see? I'm not the I'm-driving-alone-senselessly-kerana-hati-lara-dan-kecewa type,

nor the one who would leisurely venture out into the city to find a hidden shortcuts or the sort for the fun of it,unless I'm stuck in the middle of no where, dying for the way out, then only I would be more adventurous to explore the unknown.

Kot tak, saya adelah malas, tak kuasa nak jalan-jalan cari pasal tak bersebab. Yea, pemalas.

So yes, when I'm driving alone I would go for the familiar roads, the one that I've been through for n-th(geek-note: n represent an unknown number) time, the same goes when I'm out with friends, yer la, takkan bawak orang nak test-test jalan pulak kan, sesat nanti camne? Not good.(Unless lah dedua memang hopeless, that would be another story).

Annnddd when I'm not driving at all, specifically when I'm out with C***, I couldn't be bothered bout the directions at all. he he. A wrong attitude, I know.

Tapii.. I just can't help it, going out and about with a pacar who happen to be a great driver with an equally great sense of directions, I need not worry bout the pesky stuff.

I feel safe, tup tup dah sampai. :D

I don't know why I had the sudden urge to ramble bout this,but I just did.

So yea, that's it. :P

Have a great weekend.

An ex-classmate from high school texted me through YM just now,the one that would usually annoy me with his impractical questions, ya know those stuff like "dah menikah belum?". Like whaddaaaa? Menikah? Boleh tak rephrase sikit? You don't even bother to ask how I am doing and out of middle of no where you have the guts to ask me that? Could you at least ask how I'm doing first? Bleh.

& as if it's not bad enough that he's not the one with common courtesy, he recently picked up a new habit, the I-can't-spell-like-a-normal-human-does habit. He would go "buat pew skunk?" instead of the normal "buat ape sekarang?", like c'mmon, skunk= sekarang? Grow up. You're blardy 26 not 6 or even 16. It's not cool even if you're still 16, so go figure lah.

I'm not trying to be sombong or blardy stuck-up but you hafta learn some manners. You don't simply ask someone something personal as if you're their freaking bff when you're not.

It's like how we don't simply go over to our neighbor's house, go through everything in their kitchen, rummage up their fridge's content as if it's ours and senang-senang ambik ape2 yang berkenan and makan.The same concept applies.

Thankyouverymuch.

There, I said it.

Source : Stoodle

I'm in Stoodle! How cool is that? Tho obviously the real picture of me and a runny nose won't be as cool( or pretty or even acceptable), tapi ini adelah cool. Terima kasih daun keladi yer.he he :D.

So how's my productive weekend? Owh well, it's still sorta productive and all that,tetapiii...we didn't managed to catch the kursus kawen as the location was switched to somewhere far(& tak best) and yours truly adelah no likey when she didn't get what she wants.

I want it to be in Damansara so that's where it should be and tak boleh ade orang sesuka hati inform a day before "Cik, kursus esok tukar venue" and expect me to be happy about it, thankyouverymuch.(Yea yea, I'm a control freak just like that).

So yea, we are going for it this weekend. Hopefully they gonna stick with it this time.

Anyway, the kursus asides, the good news is we managed to do a serious ring and watch hunting. It's so fruitful that we managed to book two matching watches. Good for us as we'll get it to be poyo over wearing those matching watches later(the idea is lame tapi saya sokaa :D), good for me as I'll get more watch to wear and good for C*** as he'll get to add up to his ever-growing collection. It's a win-win situation,so all good. :)

What about the ring? Well,tell you what? I never thought ring-hunting could be so exhilarating. When you found the one that you like, the price is waay off(obviously but it's not like I want something as big as a door knob), or the right pattern with the wrong size or cut of diamond, or the right pattern and the right diamond with the wrong type of material.

Apekah? Tsk tsk.

No, I'm not talking bout mine(and don't let me start), am talking about the one that I'm getting for C***. Now I could safely say that ring hunting for guys is a huge pain in the ass, and feet. Seriously.

But..behind every cloud there's a silver lining, as we managed to submit a quotation request for a custom-made ring at Hab*b which gonna take ages(read:min 1 week and anticipation adelah tinggi tapi saya rasa ianya akan jadi mahal) and we found a backup shop with an array of of nice platinum rings(cuma price jer tak nice sangat. he he *cheapskate alert*).

*scratch head*

Well, as materialistic as it sounds,it's all about the money(tidak syak lagi,but this is what happened when my kawin-bawah-pokok idea kena reject & tho it's not like money could buy us happiness or someone to love and love us back but it's rather useful :P ), and I believe with the right other half, the right timing, the right intention, the rezeki would come, insyaAllah.

Fret not(yea,I'm telling myself this over and over again).

Can we do it? Yes we can!

Have a great week.

Ciou.

I'm not going turn this blog into a bridezilla's blog, but more often than not, I would be rambling about the big day - whether others like it or not. It's mine after all,remember?

So yea, as friends and family would sometimes drop me a message or call up to ask about the preparation, I would stutter, lost for words and would come up with "tah,takde buat ape2 pon lagi" answer and some of them would scare me with " hah? your time is running out" feedback - which left me cringing in terror, thankyouverymuch.

But yea, no kidding. I've done pretty much nothing so far. Except for that one particular stuff which we got for hantaran, the lovely fabric that we got for the solemnization & the kursus that we are going to this weekend - others are still floating in mid air, surveys and impian yang bukan-bukan don't count.

If you ask me, I would prefer to skip all the hassles and just get it over with- since it's not like I have anybody to impress with all those fancy wedding stuff pun( as everything that I'll do or get for the wedding is solely for my satisfaction). I just wanna tie the knots, that's it.

Tapi reality bites, obviously lah tak boleh buat macam tu. Mau kena tampar nanti. he he. Apa? Cek nak kawen simple-simple ja bawah pokok? Pang!

So since my kawen bawah pokok wedding is not going to be materialized, so yea, more reason for the control-freak in me to go crazy over the tedious preparations.

Saya nak baju chantek,

nak kasut chantek,

nak wedding invitation chantek,

nak dais chantek,

nak bling-bling chantek,

C***, boleh? he he.

Knowing my C***, his answer going to be "boleh" or the worst case scenario - he would simply gives me the you-gotta-be-kidding-me look, (yes I'm unbelievable sometimes) but more often than not he wouldn't mind a bit.

Provided I made the efforts lah, bukan main order jer as he would go, "Aper? Nak baju ade lip lap lip lap? Jom cari, dia takde kaki nak datang sendiri". He's cool just like that. :P

I hope we could finalized the to-do list by tomorrow and start our engines for the whole wedding thing by next month.

Berusahalah!

Have a great weekend. Woot!

I would be enjoying mine.

Ciou.

As much as I love designer handbags, I detest the hassles it gives me. I hate the fact that not only it would break your bank when you bought it(tapi takper,you hafta reward yourself after all those hard works sometimes), but it would also demands for a rock star treatment as long as it lives.

Like, tak boleh ke kalau cuci dengan sabun cap kapak jer? Nak kena pakai special cleanser bagai,duh.

Owh well, unless I don't mind ruining it (sebab duit dah terlebih banyak macam daun) and it wouldn't be such a big deal to spend half of the paycheque for another bag.

At this point of my life(when I'm supposed to save as much as possible for the big day), those are not my options.

So there goes my dough, I hafta spend hundreds on those ridiculous leather cleaner and conditioner - when I would prefer spending it on a pretty pair of shoes. he he. Err..in the spirit of the wedding, so yea,wedding shoes I mean. :P

Anyway,

I still pretty much sound like a frog, Fran( from the Nanny) and sometimes more of someone in a deep sleep aka suara pemalas budak baru bangun tido, so much so that C*** was like "Are you still in bed?" when he called this morning(apparently untuk bertanya khabar, since when does he do that? :P He's more of what-are-you-doing-dah-makan-ke-belum guy, nampaknya sudah upgrade) .

Lihat lah jari saya, chantek tak?(Okay this is scary)
On a lighter note, I have another production deployment tonite, or should I say re-deployment as I deployed it 2 weeks back but for some unavoidable firewall issues and whatnot(read: big company's various red tapes),we hafta roll back, so yeah, I'm praying for tonite's success with every fiber of my being(like apekah asyik dok buat keja sama 2-3 kali,sungguh tak productive and it's just one freaking file, apekah sungguh menyusahkan hiduppp).

So yea,wish me luck,will ya?

Tata.

I'm down with these sickly tickling sore throat and flu. I detest the latter the most as there's nothing more annoying than a blocked but runny nose along with those urges to sneeze in 5 minutes interval. Tsk tsk.

Not a pretty sight.

Anyway, my weekend was great. Good food as usual. he he. Mum even whipped up a special dish for me on Sunday due to the sore throat. Sore throat or not, the food was yummo!

Owh yes, regardless the sore throat. Managed to visit a bunch of those bridal shops. I hafta say that so far, only one of them fits me. Taste-wise I mean, as I'm not big at the idea of turning myself into a xmas tree during the wedding - walaupon akak dan 'akak' kedai tu mengeleng2 sambil berkata "baju pengantin memang la berkilat2 dik, baru la chantek".

I beg to differ.

Beading is good, elaborate beading is great but heavy beading with blinding sparkles don't amuse me. Like seriously, did I tell ya I don't wanna look like a xmas tree?

I want something simple with moderate amount of white crystal and pearls. Yea pearls. he he.

& believe it or not, we're yet to come up with the theme color, like seriously I have no idea. Hmppp..

Anyway I hafta thank C*** for being wonderful these days.

Me down with sore throat + flu = C*** shall come with food + mineral water(kerana air yang dimasak kat rumah tak sedap,blueh) + 100 plus + panadol.

Isn't he nice? He's sure is ♥. :P

On another note, work is great & I have loads of shopping to do.

Have a great week.

Ciou.

I'm back from my 6 days hiatus. No, I didn't fly off to any of those exotic islands with the super white sandy beaches and the clear, crystal clear water neither.

I just got caught up with work.

Tonnes of them.

It's the same old story,

the users from hell trying to make my life miserable by being dramatic over the most stupid stuff I've ever heard,

and me getting sick of their stupidness(so yea it's true how the boss said that we should always assume that they are stupid coz apparently they are),

they bugging me all day over their critical problems,

I had to go over to fix em(which is when I realized that I'm stuck with a bunch of stupid),

and the rest is history.

Yea, that surely sounds fun.

So fun that I felt like vomiting blood from the sheer excitement of it. Not.

Anyway, let's talk about something really fun for a bit.

Hmpp..well, my Sunday was fun.

C*** came over to pick me up at 11am bearing breakfast courtesy of FMIL, yea, she actually packed a bunch of piping hot cekodok udang for me along with its homemade dips and oranges. Sungguh terharu(yer la, tetiba dapat home-delivary breakfast) and memalukan(I blame C*** for this as he had the guts to tell his mum that I was starving hence the freshly made cekodok) all at the same time.

So after the I'm having my breakfast in the car whilst C***'s watching session, we headed straight to the Gardens to spend the cash vouchers that we got from our last purchase, and we ended up getting a bunch of stuff for C*** and err..a cute water bottle for me(as if I need another one but well,it's cute and overpriced but it's free :P).

Owh yes, we skipped lunch as both of us were not terribly hungry so we decided to have tea after Asar instead as C*** was craving for cakes(which is very rare as I'm the one with all the weird cravings. :P)

So yea, we happily sat down for tea, with three choices of lovely fattening cakes and smoothies. Nyum. I wish we could have more but we have to limit ourselves you see?, an expanding waistline during the big day is fatal,no? :P

Talking about the big day, I'm pretty much no where toward the end of the preparation phase yet. There are loads of stuff to be bought, kursus kawen to attend, cards to design, baju for the solemnization to be tailored and other 1001 stuff.

Like really, the list is endless but I'm going to really start working on it this weekend as I would be back in Kedah to solve the rumah or dewan dilemma(I had already stroke off the hotel as I hate the formality and the hassle) and to decide on the dais and whatnot. Owh we'll see.

Okie, that's about it.

Ciou.

I'm office-alone(aka I hafta stay back since I have a deployment to test and verify tonite) since everyone already gone back home 100 light years ago.

I'm hungry(due to various foodwishes video on youtube) and bored(tho it's not like I have nothing to do, but ya know,petang-petang memang kurang productive), sooo..I just need to let off some steam.

Do you know that the last movie that I watched(at the movie theater not the one that was innocently downloaded or ehem.. bought) was...hmpp..errr..I don't know, it has been soo long(approximately 300 years ago) since the last movie that I honestly couldn't recall which's the last.

Anyway, the fact above is not to prove that I'm lame. he he.

It just a reminder for someone that I wanna catch a movie.(which of coz lah he wouldn't get since he doesn't stalk me anymore, but well..) :P

So yea, moving on. Lets talk about something happy.

Hmpp...owh yea,

• I finally got my hands on the 1st stuff for hantaran. :D 1 down!(Must catch up on the shopping as the buy 1 stuff/month won't work as I'm running out of time.)
  


• I'm going back home next weekend, well next next weekend. Woot!(but yet to decide on the mode of transportation.)
  


• I'm done paying for the last mishap that I bumped into = More money for shopping..err..spend on the wedding I mean.Alhamdulillah.


• Confirmed a date for the big day. Woowee..

So yea that's about it.

Now I hafta get back to work.

Ciou!

C*** came over to ask me out for dinner last night(with buah tangan from his mom, thankyousoverymuch :D) whilst shivering with hunger as he was on leave yesterday and was too malas to go out for food. Kemalasan apekah ini?(Eh wait a sec, how could you go on such diet without me? Saya pon nak kurus jugak.) T_T

Anyway, we went for pizza(so much of a diet), wiped everything clean within an hour and lepak. The 1st real lepak after the whole engagement thing and boy, we had like 100 gazillions of stuff to talk about.

As our lepak was adjourned to a next unknown date(which probably comes this weekend or earlier) when he sent me back home, I was already equipped with a handful of stuff to do for the big day.

First thing first, I need to dig up our almost forgotten to-do-list which we made like 100 years ago and put in some new crucial things, the kursus perkahwinan thingy and a serious series of shopping sprees to name a few, hmpp..well darling,I seriously don't mind the shopping. Esok boleh start? he he.

Anyway, just when I thought we're done with the talking,C*** called and we blabbered away until the clock strike 3a.m.(When will we ever learn? Hari keja sila tido awal,tsk tsk).

So please don't mind me if I look like a walking zombie today, well, mental-state wise not physically mind you. :P

Off for a meeting now. Tata

I haven't venture into the whole freaking out over petty stuff world in the longest time.

Not to say that I have nothing to be insecure about nor that I'm blissfully happy sitting on the top of the world or something, creeps still come and go sometimes, knocking at my door when I least expected.

But well, I've learned a lesson not to go berserk( just yet) coz once I do, it gonna be ugly. Real ugly as I'm never the pretentious kind and wouldn't be the one blowing kisses when all I wanna do is throw a Molotov cocktail to someone's face.

Yea, I'm just plain obvious like that.

Anywaayy,

the 1st weekend of the year was a blissful one. I did nothing but hang out with the cousins, watched gruesome movies(he he,movie genre kegemaran Kakna :P), went out for a rare family outing(he he, kakna bebeh,ya know what I mean) and ate a blardy lot(yer,it defies my new year resolution).

So yea, that's about it.

Have a great week aight?

Ciou.

It's the time of the year again, the time when people would list down their endless resolutions and milestones to mark the end of a year and a beginning of of a new one,

anddd I'm one of those typical bunch. he he.

Ya know lah just in case I forgot what I've achieved and whatnot.

So lets get it on with the milestones, shall we?

1. Managed to keep my owh so flexible job, tho it's not like I'm struggling to avoid myself from being fired or anything but it's great to have a job with an enormous career progress and the fact that I'm enjoying it whilst I'm at it. Heard the news bout the big increment/promotion coming, but lets keep it for later.


2. Learned how to keep my sanity over those uninvited dramas. It's hard to live a life without any interference from those freaks these days, tho your life is pathetic it ain't a good reason to mess with others. 3 words, get a life.


3. Realized that the cure to most of the relationship issues(be it with the pacar and whoevernot) is to blardy communicate. Since we don't have our thoughts written and flashing brightly on top of our head so yea, kindly speak up. The pacar wouldn't know that you're dying for something or you're agitated over something that he did unless you say it out loud(yea, guys, sometimes they are totally blurry just like that. he he :P ).


4. Managed to spend more time with the parents and the beloved sanak-sedara. I made it a point to get back home at least once month. We need to keep the parents happy no?
   


5. Learned a lesson or two about cars. Must. check.on.em.often. Jangan tau bawak jer.(this exact sentence sounds oddly familiar :P)


6. Managed to stay in a relationship for 3 freaking years and finally took one of the big steps toward the tangled in the knots world. Honestly being engaged is funny, I still couldn't stop smirking when people referring to C*** as tunang or finance dan semua yang sewaktu dengannyer. In fact, I still call him pacar or bf. Tunang is just too hmmpp..serious. Well, perhaps it is. Ini serious! :P


7. I planned to go far this year and I did. Not distance wise but on certain things.
   

That's about it, others are too hmpp..private or to bleh to be mentioned. he he.

The resolutions? Again, I'll stick with my ever so wonderful resolution.

Attitude.

To be grateful for the blessed life - attitude.

To respect people - attitude.

To appreciated the loved ones - attitude.

To not be dangerously envious of others - attitude.

It's sorta corny(as I would repeat this year in year out) but I still believe that a good attitude will determine how far one can go in life.

In case it didn't show, I'm truly thankful for everything, be it good or bad. Hikmah sometimes comes in a funny way no?

Alhamdulillah.

So yea, have a great new year.

See you next year.

This is corny, tapiiiii...

I would like to extend my gratitude to those directly and indirectly involved in making my I'm getting there day so blardy awesome and err..hassle free(except for those minor stuff here and there, you know lah, you just couldn't win them all).

The parents for the much needed emotional and ehem, financial support :P( of coz la, programmer cabuk where got money one.Love love), the arrays of helpful aunties(whom willing to spend their time for the hantaran hunting thingy and foodies), beloved cousins for the support(one of the lovely hantaran included) and the much needed cara-cara untuk bersalam dengan mertua practice and last but not least the relatives and friends(yang datang gile jauh) for making it it owh so meriah.

From the bottom on my bottomless heart, I truly thank you. :x

Well, I'm running out of words on how all those stuff changed my life(forever) and how it makes me feel.

So yea, I won't go on with the endless senseless rambling, so let's simplify it, shall we?

1. I like my simple baju. It got the right amount of bling-bling. Just the way I like it.Less is more,no?
Apekah sungguh putih dan scary compared to my real skin(after I managed to rub off the 18 feet thick makeup). Tsk tsk.

2. I sorta hmpp...detest my makeup since I'm not big on those fair and lovely thingy. Like what's the problem people? What's with the perempuan mesti la putih untuk nampak chantik crap. Like cmmon, grow up. I'm thankful to be fair but I don't need to be any fairer so thankyouverymuch.


3. Dad ordered waaaay too much food that I think we could feed the whole kampung with it. That what happened when you got 2 caterers.


4. I'm thankful for a sempoi future PIL. Please God, make em stay that way.


5. I like my hantaran tho I think mum was overcharged for it, shall find a better decorator next year.


6. I love my ring & I'm big on the platinum and diamond thingy so nobody could talk me out of it. Thankyouverymuch.(Yea, I don't mind if the ring tak laku kalau nak digadai so shshh already).


7. I missed all the fun outside the house since I was busy being pemalu inside - plus the weather was crazy, sangat panas. Mana boleh keluar nanti cair makeup I(sila baca dengan nada yang vain).


8. I was starving since I was too nervous to eat but finally managed to gobble down a quater-plateful after Tok's countless reminder. A quater of a plate you ask? Fret not, it was just the beginning, we had abundant of leftovers remember? :P


9. Despite all, I am truly thankful for everything. Alhamdulillah.

Owh yes, the big day is coming within 6 months,so pardon me if I start to go all paranoid and whiny about the wedding thing(as it would be so absurd if I'm not). he he.

Till then, wish me luck.

Ciou.

I'm half way there, we(me & C***) are half way there.

Yea, we finally decided to get married(haha, ayat macam terpaksa, no lah. The time has come).

Hence the news that I'm about to convey,

we're engaged! :P
Rasa macam sudah all grown up. ( I'm supposed to feel that years ago isn't it?)

Well ya, being semi-attached is..hmpp..well, fun(even more reasons to hector him). :P

Honestly, somewhere at the back of my mind, I still couldn't believe we've come this far(tho I'm very much thankful for it) since we're just different(tho we share the same hobby of talking and nagging at each other & insatiable passion for good food).

C***'s pretty simple.

Good-humored(me likey, tho sometimes jokes dia memang rasa macam nak tampar jer),the kinda person who would be ever so ready to laugh at my jokes(or at me specifically when I start to panic like a headless chicken),

never fuss over details(unlike ehem, yours truly which sometimes irritates the hell out of me.Itu bukannya tidak fussy tapi ignorance okeh?)

willing to take some time off only to teach me the easiest route to my friend's wedding(especially when he won't be able to come due to other obligation) so I won't get lost in the middle of nowhere(yea, I have a bad sense of direction, thank God I got myself another half who's vice versa & he's caring just like that. Love love),

nags about my multiple addictions *roll eyes* & ease me of my paranoia-complicated-self pain.

A minus point as he doesn't appreciate the power of retail therapy as much as I do(coz the only shopping that he does is for his cars not himself tapi still kena drag around for my shopping spree all the same) but never the one who would be lack of idea to comment. He would go " I think that color would look better on you, tadi tu color macam busuk". (How is it even possible for a color to be busuk? )

He used(used ke? he he) to be my personal loan-shark once upon a time ago(read: when I just started working and would spend the whole paycheque 2 weeks after I got em(it was heavenly,tapi lepas tuu..owh misery)& too broke to replace my own missing cellphone when it got stolen. he he).

He's the youngest in the family but surprisingly(in a good way) tidak ketegaq(read:degil) unlike me. If I'm a soldier I would be the one who keeps on running toward the enemies whilst firing my gun tho I've been shot 5 times.

I strive for what I believe in - tho it's not like I'm right most of the time, but I'm stubborn & too determined just like that. It would take a hella lot of patience and a heart of steel to cope with me whilst I'm taking the reality in before I'm finally back to my senses.

Anndddddd I hate to admit this, but I'm rather stuck up so my apologies don't come easy, it's like kalau you're not sorry, don't be. It's better than hypocrisy no? Mintak maaf tak ikhlas buat ape. he he.

So yea, being well determined is one thing,but being annoyingly stubborn is another - that's something I need to work on.

Owh well, there's a loong way to go & I hope C***'s patience enough to go thru that, till then, wish me luck.

Tata.

p/s: More stories, pictures & gratitude coming later.