Sorry for the lack of update, I'm sorta caught up in the malas mode(read: I've been busy with a system demo & debugging). Anyway,it has been a while since the last pregnancy-dedicated post.

So let's be random bout it for a bit.

o1. The fetal movements are sorta shocking sometimes. Perhaps the baby is jumping around whilst doing cartwheels as I'd feel a quick punch or jolt one minute and sorta geli-geli-gatal (which unfortunately you can't scratch..argghhh) movements in your tummy on another - yea I'm not good with words. Susah betui nak explain, but it's sorta absurd and wonderful all at the same time.

o2. The baby is sangat, tres, very active during the day - so much so that most of the time I'll be working in the office with a vibrating tummy.

o3. I'm having bigger everything these days - not much on the upper body, most of the fat went straight to moi butt (urgghh!) - minus the bladder which equals to wee-wee trip every few hours or so. It ain't that excruciating during the day as I'm still awake, tapiiiiii...it's such a hassle at night. Imagine this,

me taking good few minutes to drag myself out of the bed,
walking slowly to the bathroom like a nenek (& C*** would be uttering something like "yang, where are you going?", nak pegi jalan-jalan la kan? Takkan nak pegi wee-wee pulak tengah2 malam ni.) :P
take a leek for a few secs(most of the time rasa macam bladder nak pecah, tapi hasilnya adalah tidak memberangsangkan.haha. Ok that's gross.),
walk back to the bed,
getting back to sleep whilst trying to find my comfortable position.

Yes, repeat all the above once, twice or more (depending on the amount of fluid that I take before bed) throughout the night. Sungguh menggumbirakan bukan? :P

o4. Getting comfortable in bed is such a challenge now. I'm feeling hot like all the time. Okay, not the hot mama hot, it's the I'm feeling restless and annoyed hot walaupon rumah di atas bukit. Tsk tsk. Owh,sleeping on my back is getting more and more uncomfortable now, so most of the time I'll be sleeping on my side with tonnes of pillows. Si bedmate terpaksa lah sabar dengan his other half yang agak restless(kejap ke kiri,ke kanan, kejap under the duvet, kejap tak) before finally tertido. he he.

o5. I could tolerate most of everything when it comes to food. No more no-kari-no-santan-and-oily-stuff(which explains why I didn't gain much during my 1st 4 months). Sekarang semua pon makan but I am still eating for one. No, I'm not dieting. It's just that I can't take much food in a sitting, else akan muntah or sengkak yang teramat which is extremely uncomfortable. Perhaps whilst my uterus is expanding, my stomach is shrinking (Does it means that the baby wants a mummy yang kurus? Well baby, ya don't have a skinny mummy to begin with.). he he.

o6. I had my 1st 'kaki kembang' sometime last weekend. It was funny, really - as I'm well known by my darling C*** as the one with the scrawny long toes (they look hideous in some fancy flip flops), so when moi feet looked as if it has been stung by bees and the toes looked all short and marshmallowy ianya adelah sedikit scary juga. Thank God it only lasted overnight and everything was back to normal the next day.

o7. Ever since I had a hard time to consume fresh milk, I hafta put a halt to my milk-and-cereal routines. Sekarang tidak lagi. I could actually finish 2 boxes of cereal every week. Cold milk + cereals are heavenly ya know?

o8. I thank God for C***. He's my must-have. He'd bring me out to hunt for stuff in my craving list, calmly entertained my mood swings, burp me like baby, massage away my tensed back and feet whilst telling me that I'm buncit (cey!). Owh well, thank you baby. :x

o9. Here comes the big news, he he. Well, takde lah big. Drama lebih. InsyaAllah we're having a mini me = a girl! Hurah! - the doc has been saying that the lil precious gonna be a girl since the past 2 checkups. So yea. Girl it is, insyaAllah. A good friend once said, "if you're having a girl, I hope she gonna have your eyes and dimple".

My eyes? Well, nothing to shout about here since mine is not big nor that sepet, but while I was younger/tudung-less people would usually think that I'm a Chinese(I got it from moi dad). At some point, bila pegi kedai Cina, they would talk to me in Chinese and I'd be like "Err...uncle, I'm not Chinese". he he.

If our lil previous gonna inherit the eyes from me, okay lah kot(he he), but if it's a combination of our eyes, me + C***, I think our baby adelah bermata sepet(Unless little sepet + super sepet = big eyes). he he. Ya, my other half looks nothing like a Chinese, tapi adelah bermata sepet yang dasyat. :P

As for the dimples, it would be a nice addition(It's a dominant trait right?). he he. Owh well, the truth it, I just can't imagine the female version of C***. He has the manly version of everything (perhaps his long fingers are not as manly tapi adelah best berjari panjang), so adelah tak dapat imagine the feminine side of him. Tapi I do hope that she gonna be as smart as her daddy (& me lah of coz :P )


Owh yes, I can't wait to get my hands on those cute little dresses (on 2nd thought, I already did, well, just a bit lah) it drives you nuts just by looking at them. Grrrr..

Now that I'm already in my 29th week, I guess it's the right time to really really start the shopping spree - on another 2nd thought, we started it last weekend - whilst having the lets-get-all-the-stuff-in-safe-colors mental note in mind, kerana di hati adelah sedikit takot-takot if the gender is otherwise, ya know, to be in the safe side - tapi nampaknya gagal.

We came back home with gurlish pink, purple and blue clothes - even the towels,changing mat and feeding bottles are pink - tapi in another attempt to stick to our lets-get-all-the-stuff-in-safe-colors mission, we bought tonnes of white newborn clothes, mitten & booties. At least if tetiba dapat a son instead of a daughter, takde lah dia kena pakai baju pink on his 1st day,that's just too gay. :P

Well, the truth is, most of the baby stuff nowadays are gender specific, so it's sorta hard to ignore all those too cute to resist girly stuff & go for the safe selections. Rasanya cukup lah beli baju sikit-sikit. I think we shall move on to another bunch of stuff pulak lah(read:Just realized that dah ade almost 40 pieces of baby clothing.Err..darling, I hope you're not reading this).

Rasa seperti hoarders, tetiba jer dah banyak. *mode insaf*

Err..I blame the hormones and err..C***? :P

p/s: Malam ni please get me the grill microwave oven pulak yer? The one with the mirror door please. Heeeee...thanks love. Kiss kiss.

There's no better way to kill(not literally) the high-spirited yours truly on a Monday morning - when she's all dressed-up and pumped up for work - other that the fact that the car refused to start up.

Like yea, way to go lah kan? What a day for the car battery to finally die on me. Tsk tsk.

After a quick call to the Kurnia Auto Assist, almost 30 minutes of waiting. The KAA guy finally came to the rescue. He jump-started the car, check the battery and declared its ma'am-ya-better-get-yourself-a-new-battery condition and told me not to turn off the engine else I'm going no where. he he.

Next, I called the engineer-husband for a shoulder to cry on (still not literally,else it would be awesome). He went

"Why don't you take my car to work instead?"

Ya say what? Your car? The one that I hafta navigate down 2 floors before reaching the exit? The one that I hafta drive through the exit driveways( for each floor) yang keciiiiiik? No thank you. I'll manage if it's a normal sedan or moi 4wd, but the idea of driving his car throughout the basement parking adelah scary. Yea, I'm a ruthless driver, tapi driving someone else's car(especially if it's a huge one) with 0.9 possibility that I'll leave a dent on em, adelah a big NO.

So yea, I drove my car to work and the other half promised to come over to moi office later to replace the battery(as once I turn off the engine, haruslah tak dapat nak start balik) and asked me to stop whining and drive my already-lazy butt to work already.he he.

I reached the office an hour late - which is bleh tapi sabar jer lah. Sabar itu,separuh daripada iman, kaaan?

Owh, moi car is doing fine now. A new batt = a poorer owner (or should I say, the other half of the owner). he he.

Thanks love, I love you. Kiss kiss. :x

Yea, it's time to get me that new ride already. White please. Mariiiiii!!

My day in the office usually started off by texting C*** to tell him that I'm already in the office together with a cheesy loving phrase or two( he already did his part 2 hours earlier, he reached his office around 8 and I reached mine sometime before 10). he he.

After checking the office mail and started working on the unfinished codes and whatnot, I'd usually text him again to either tell him what I want for dinner which equals to eating out (thanks to my endless cravings) or ask him what he'd like to have for dinner (otherwise means that I'll have to cook for dinner, ya he loves my cooking that much).

So last night, he requested for curry(again). I thought he was kidding bout his love for curry, tapi nampaknya tidak. We had like an endless array of curries over the weekend - thanks to the kenduri & mummy(her curry is to die for, especially fish curry lah.he he) - and the 1st thing that came out of his head for dinner last night was still curry. So yea,curry it is.

Who would have thought that I'll get a husband yang gila kari kan? he he.

Owh, did ya know that I've never been to the Planetarium? Heehoo. Yea, I am that pathetic. So when we saw a documentary about it I went

Me : " How come you never take me to the Planetarium?"
C*** :"Laa..tak penah pegi lagi ke, I thought you've been there before"
Me : " Mana ada." *pouts*
C*** : " Nanti kita bawak anak kita pegi okie yang."

Errr..hello darling, I was talking about me. It that his way of saying that I'll get there in the next 3-4 years? Or is it possible to take a newborn to a planetarium? Hmpphh..never mind. At least I'm not getting the same answer each time I wanted to go to the malls. he he. Planetarium tak pegi pon tak pa, that's surely something I could live with.

Owh, we used to go to all those corny touristy places whilst we're dating,the museum, art gallery and whatnot. he he. Tempat yang bosan pon kadang-kadang adelah rasa best juga, ya should try to visit those places sometimes.

Bought myself a coupon for red velvet cake online (Impulsive + credit card = bad). Yea, it was a good buy and the cake adelah sungguh tempting. I'm yet to place my order as I still have a wee bit more than a month before the coupon expires and I just don't feel like having it yet. Simpan dulu buat backup, nanti tetiba mengidam, takde lah meroyan nak cari red velvet cake. :P

My baby bump is getting more and more obvious each day and I'm starting to waddle a bit especially in the morning - when all the muscles and joints are yet to warm up. Getting up from the bed each morning is a struggle, I'd usually take a good few minutes to get on my feet. Macam nenek-nenek.

Besides the nenek-nenek part, last night I actually felt like a turtle yang terbalik and tak reti to turn myself over. Hoh. Well, we're watching a movie last night whilst I was lying down on the sofa with my head on C***'s lap (& he was patting my head like I'm a cat) when I had the sudden urge to wee wee,so I tried to lift myself up, tapi apekah tak boleeeh? It sounds so illogical but it's true - so much so that C*** had to help me to sit up. T_T

Haih, anything for you lah baby. Ya better be good for mummy. he he.

Owh later.

Let's be random for a bit.

o1. I had too much oily fattening food over the weekend - we went to moi cousins' wedding and engagement - which left me with an uneasy feeling in moi tummy for the past few days, not good.

o2. The PIL followed us back to Kedah. They were worried that they'd be too much trouble for moi family and we (me & C***) were worried that they'd be bored and whatnot - which ended up to be unnecessary since semua orang had fun dan happy-happy - dad had someone to borak-borak with and mum and MIL even had a masak-masak session. :P

o3. C*** and PIL went to Langkawi on Friday to visit a relative. It was a quick day trip and C*** decided that I should just stay home to avoid all the CNY-Public-Holiday crowd and my unnecessary whining kerana kepenatan. he he.

o4. Brought PIL to visit the grandparents and introduced them to gedung cak. Well, it's not a store(Gedung as in gedung membeli belah, geddit?), it's some kind of kuih. Not my favourite( mine would be a specific kind of lepat liat.ha ha.Lepat liat what? :P) tapi it's interesting to introduce them to a kind of local kuih yang pelik. he he.

o5. Our usual Kedah - KL 4-5 hours trip was elongated to 10 freaking hours. No thanks to the extraordinary traffic + a bunch of stupid drivers who love the emergency lane. Memang bongok.

o6. I think my spine is like temporary crooked from the long trip and my legs hurt, but thank God for the love of my life C*** and his awesome foot rubs. Thanks love. Kiss kiss.

o7. Yet to schedule another test drive. Blurggh..

o8. I need some nice table cloth, seat cushions for the dining table and new curtains! A home decor store will be a nice place to start with.

o9. We are going to start with some serious shopping spree for the little precious like sooon. he he. It does get easier to shop once ya know the gender ey? Owh giddy.

Have a great week.

Tata.

Right now, I'm already back home in Kedah, stuffing my face with mummy's home cooked food. Yes, this is a scheduled post. he he.

Let's blabber something bout the weekend, shall we?

The weekend had been a blissful one for me.

We reached Malacca sometimes after midnite since we stopped by at BIL's place and all of us went to have dinner together - at an eatery which looks promising tapi adelah gagal since I was served with honey dew cordial drink when I ordered for honey dew juice.(& they don't even have the courtesy to highlight the different when we're ordering. Lain kali cakap la siang siang, sape nak bayar 4 bucks for a freaking glass of cordial drink? I'd rather go for sky juice. Sungguh menipu.) T_T

Saya adelah emo seperti biasa (it's the hormone ya see? Plus I could only tolerate sirap, Ribena and sunquick's when it comes to cordial), I pushed it aside whilst saying there's no way on earth anybody could ever drink it kerana ianya adelah sungguh sucky, so I ended up with a glass of hot barley - which was equally sucky. Owh well, nevermind lah.

On Saturday morning, had plates of yummy home made nasi lemak, watched CSI, went for a 'test drive' (it's not really a test drive since the test drive unit is MIA due to something, dang! Tapi...even before the test drive, I'm torn between the one in red or white. he he)

and later went out with C*** and the PIL for a kenduri and a quick shopping spree as MIL wanna get another rice cooker, so we made a quick stop at the mall tapi when both of us, me and MIL (C*** and FIL waited for us in the car) came out of the store, we ended up with a new rice cooker and stainless kettle for MIL and a stainless steel trash can for me! - much to C***'s and FIL's amusement lah kan?

Cakap nak rice cooker, ended up bende lain pon beli sekali. Yes, shopping is fun. Ya should see the look on C***'s face when I told him that I actually spent 50 bucks on a trash can. Ok what? It's stainless steel lah darling, easy to clean, it won't rust plus it was on discount summore. Mak pon cakap it's a good buy. he he.

Our shopping spree didn't end there, we later went to Tesco for some groceries - the crowd was unbelievable. Seperti biasa orang-orang di Malaysia membeli seperti the country is running out of food supply, oleh it harus lah membeli dengan banyak dan tamak. Tsk tsk.

Much later in the evening, we had sukun fritters and cubed mangoes for tea. Yummo! - going back to our hometowns sememangnya tak akan penah kelaparan. Bertambah kecomelan adelah. he he.


After maghrib, after a light dinner, C*** dragged me out to the nearby mall as I need to stock on some stuff. He even got himself a casual pants and after a bit of jalan-jalan, we.. or should I say, I decided to go for ice cream (it was already 10pm and it was raining outside, tapi ya could never say no to a pregnant lady, yes?) To my defend, it's not really ice cream lah, it was frozen yogurt, the heavenly taste of ice cream minus most of the fat - itu pun if the 99% fat free claim is true. he he. :P

On Sunday, a wee bit after subuh, C*** went to the fish market together with the PIL but I was directed to stay at home since it was raining and the already wet wet market gonna be even wetter and slippery. So yea, not really a place for me and my condition I guess, so saya tido. he he. Only to be waken up by the fishy smelly C*** an hour later.(Yes, now I have a well-stocked freezer. Yey!)

The rest of the day was being spent dengan bermalasan as it was raining all day long.

That's about it, now I'm about to have another blissful long weekend.

Have a safe trip balik kampung, Happy CNY.

Tata.

Cooked dinner for C*** last night (ini selepas si chenta hati complained that I rarely cook these days. Ampun darling. Tapi saya masak sedap tak? he he.).

Well, honestly, it's not that I'm having any of those kitchen-nausea or malas-ness. It's just that I'm feeling pretty tired these days - rasa macam jadi buruh ke apa, tho I just sit in front of my work station all day, perhaps I'm mentally tired.

My brain would send me the you-are-freaking-tired signals each time I reach home from work - so much so that I'd feel like skipping dinner and just lay on the bed watching tv with C*** - tapi harus lah tak boleh skip dinner, C***'s pretty strict bout my eating schedule now. Either he loves me to much and couldn't bear to watch me suffer or dia takot anak dia kebuluran. he he.


Well,did ya know that I'm not allowed to eat any sort of fast food(besides pizza, provided it has an array of healthy toppings) nowadays? I swear my 1st (and probably last) fast food that I ate in the span of 7 months (and months to come) was the prosperity burger. he he. I got it after much begging and pleading and endless muka kesian. Owh yea, the burger came together with orange juice instead of coke. he he. I've told ya my darling C*** is ever so loving. :P

On a lighter note, we're going back to Malacca tonight. It has been quite sometime since the last time, jadi marilah balik kg dan bergembira. We even managed to book a test drive tomorrow. So let's see if the current-dream-car-kerana-sedar-diri suits me else we'll have to move on to the next option which is ermm..yet to be figured.

Hmpp... better get back home early today as I need to sort the laundry,iron C***'s uniforms and finish up some house chores.

On a lighter note, we're 3 days past 7 months already! he he. Thanks for being an awesome other half darling. I love you and always will. Kiss kiss. Esok sila belanja saya ice cream okay? :P

Have a great weekend people.

Ciou.

Work has been piling up like ya wouldn't believe these days but life's as blissful as ever.

So let's be random, as usual.

o1. We found the last two must-have furniture for our crib.Like FINALLY! Furniture hunting is tough especially when when you're fussy. Nak solid wood la, dark colored la, ape la. Hoh, thank God we found em before I got too tired to even walk.

o2. We already booked our stroller and car seat. Woot! Yes, quite early for such a big purchase but I think we found what we need (tough and sporty travel system) and both of us decided to go for it after much deliberation (read: After C*** agreed to be in charge of everything, they are freaking heavy I tell ya. Fine, I'm exaggerating. Well, at least heavier compared to the lightweight Graco that I preciously wanted).

The truth is, it's tiring to gawk at every sort of strollers and car seat in the market - it's not helping when we're sorta clueless in this department even after all those endless googling and whatnot.

There are like tonnes of em - it makes your head spins just by thinking of em and as long as you don't fix your mind at something, you'll ended up spending every waking second thinking of it.

So yea, let's just get it over with lah kan, plus I think it would be a good purchase as both could be used until the lil precious is 4 yrs old and it won't cost us an arm or a leg - unless lah the daddy tetiba nak recaro travel system pulak. Sabaq yer daddy, tahun-tahun depan, we'll get it for you..err..the baby I mean. :P

03. Bought 2 pairs of maternity pants over the weekend. Yes, my 1st purchase in the maternity department (after much nagging from C*** and moi mummy, takot baby terhimpit if I keep on wearing my normal jeans, I finally gave in) which is sorta hilarious. I mean, it comes with pouch-like belly bands and no zippers at all - the comfy grip sometimes makes it feels like you are wearing an awfully low-rise pant and boleh londeh anytime. That ain't gonna be pretty. Tsk tsk.

o4. I want a white baby cot to match our bedroom set. Period. he he.

o5. I'm torn between Medela Swing or Medela FS. Hmppp..we'll see how generous or cheapskate I'm feeling later la eh? :P

o6. We're going for another test drive this weekend, but this time around, it's for moi ride!Yey! - tho we're yet to be in the 2nd half of the year, the chenta hati adelah bersemangat to start off the hunt (he loves em cars, so yea, no wonder). Yes, berusahalah (untuk menabung)!

o7. All is well during our 4th checkup. Alhamdulillah. Our lil precious is a wee bit more than 600g now but the doc was like

"Dear, I think you're looking a bit kurus from the last time, semua berat kasi baby yer?"

Owh, kurusss keee? Or is she trying to flatter me? Now that I have a baby bump in the size of a small melon pon kurus lagi ke? he he. I've gained like 2 freaking kilo in a month and approximately 4kg throughout my 6 months of pregnancy. Well, nevermind me - as long as the baby is healthy, we're good.

08. Just sent another list of pictures to be framed and printed for our 2nd wedding album. Yer, selepas 10 kurun baru rajin nak hantar list of pics to the OP. Going through thousands of pics is ain't easy I tell ya. Rasa macam nak muntah 10 kali.

09. The parcel for my recent online shopping spree is MIA. Grrrrrrrreat!

10. Now that Dad is going to work in Langkawi(again), I think I'm going to drag C*** to the island for quick getaway. We could always ask dad to help with the hotel or we'd just stay at dad's place as he's getting a villa to stay soon.Yer darling, mari lah pergiiiiii...mari lah mariii...I wanna see buffalo and learn how to make kerbau's cheeseee.(I always wonder how it feels like to pat a buffalo.Adekah rasa geli-geli?)

11. Yet to find anything nice to wear for my cousins' receptions. If I actually showed up in my normal clothes, adekah akan dipandang keji? :P Fine, let's scratch that. C***, jom shopping (lagi) please.

Well, enough randomness for a day.

Lunch time's over.

Tata.

I had a dream of a good friend last night.

The entire dream is sorta vague for me now but I could somehow remember clearly bout how happy we were back then - back in the good old days.

Owh well, sometimes, something gotta give eh?

On a lighter note, I've wrote a blardy lengthy post yesterday - after coming back from our 4th checkup and whilst waiting for our new furniture to arrive - tapi the connection went crazy on me and blogger only managed to auto-save half of em. Fret not, I got the entire post copied into a notepad - tapi adelah lupa to save em in my thumbdrive - so yea, the lengthy post hafta wait.

On another lighter note, it's funny when someone is struggling to mess with others happiness. I mean, sila lah get a life. I know it sucks being you, tapi refraining yourself from messing with others is the least you could do. Allah is all knowing and fair ya see? You just won't get away from your crazy acts for free(hey, it rhymes!).

It's also funny when you hafta deal with a psychotic, sometimes it doesn't work for you to be all sane and normal with em - kena lah jadi equally psycho and dramatic jugak. Hoh. I don't know bout you but happiness gained from others misery are just plain sick and unworthy. I also think ya need to get your head check, like seriouuuuusly.

Owh,C*** surprised me with one of his jiwang gesture this morning. I mean he's been good in the romantic department since we're married but still, walaupon dah ala-ala biasa tapi adelah terkejut jugak - demam ape la dia pagi ni kan? he he.

Ooo..cek sayang saya macam tu sekali ka? Awat tak habaq awai2? Owh you did? :P

p/s: Got myself another bottle of vitamin to be swallowed - the gigantic fishoil vegecap. Owh yummy.Blurghh.

It's Friday and I'm already in the midst of my long weekend. :)

Let's be random for a bit

o1. Someone is back to haunt us with her so-called explanation(like whaddaheck?). I just can't gauge her real intention but after all that you've done, it would be nice if you could just stay out of our life. I'd be very thankful for that. Like seriously.

o2. I don't know whether it's too early for this, but my 1st purchase for our lil precious are two pairs of cute rompers. he he.Baby stuff are too cute to resist - so much so that I actually spent hundreds on the cute and colorful baby stuff during my 2nd purchase yesterday. :P Owh, I dragged a lil cousin together with me on the shopping spree and not C***(as he was working yesterday). Kot tak mesti dia tak kasi beliiii (especially when the wife actually bought an unnecessary soother just because it's too cute). :P

o3. I got my eyes on a Graco stroller. he he. Hafta drag C*** to have a 'test drive' later.

o4. 2011 has been loaded with career-related good news. Besides the bonus and promotion, we're actually getting a generous salary adjustment. Alhamdulillah. Rezeki anak, yes? he he. :)

o5. Think that I hafta hunt for something decent to wear during the cousins' wedding next month as most my baju kurung telah mengecil. Huuuuu..

o6. Experienced my 2nd leg cramp last night. It was so excruciating that I actually groaned in pain in the middle of my sleep and the groaning actually woke C*** up. he he. - but the chenta hati was as efficient as ever(even tho he's half asleep) as the next thing I know, he was already sitting up with my left foot in his hands - massaging away. Thanks love. Iloveyousoverymuch.

o7. Ermm..err..I actually feel like eating a bowl of shark fin soup with crab meat. Tsk tsk. Apekah craving yang sungguh tak environment friendly???? Gosh, perhaps I'd just go for crab meat soup instead. It's the crab meat that I'm salivating for.

08. Can't wait for our 4th checkup on Tuesday.

o9. Weekend = Shopping spree. (^_^)

That's about it.

Have a great weekend okie?

A lot has happened in 2 weeks and I'm still digesting bits and pieces of everything.

On 8th January, a beloved uncle, the father of my dearest cousin passed away. It came to me as a gigantic shock, as the last time I met him. He was very much alive and talking. No thanks to my childish inner-self, I always hope that grandparents, parents, uncles and aunt will stick around to watch all of us grow, have a family on our own and kids to nurture.

Yes, way too childish for my own good.

But, jodoh, ajal and maut di tangan Tuhan no? To Allah we belong and to Him we return. God knows when it's our turn.

Truthfully, I feel awful. I can't simply say I know how it feels, it would be a lie and I'm not the one to go for corny dramatic words. It's just ill-fitting. I just can't say things for the sake of saying.

So dear cousin, I'm honestly sorry for the lack of better words, I suck in the comforting department, but I hope that the whole family would be able to pull through the pain and continue living.

Al-Fatihah.

We were watching 360 last night - which loaded with those missing kids stories and the horrifying tragedy behind em.

I hafta admit that I was squirming restlessly whilst watching it when chenta hati went

"So nanti, when both of us at work. Who gonna pick up our kid from school? Nanti whilst waiting for us to come back from work, dia nak duduk mana pulak?"


"Dear, that's like too much of forward thinking, tu at least 6 years lagi. Let's not go there yet"


"Ya know, I'm just wondering"


"Well, within that 6 years, if you could earn enough for me to stop working, then I'll be a SAHM lah, okay?"


"Hmppp.."

He he. Apekah chenta hati begitu maju kehadapan? :P

Well, now I'm beginning to doubt my SAHM idea. I mean, even if C*** does earns enough dough for me to stop working (which I have no doubt of) and stay at home and be pretty taking care of the kids, I sorta doubt that I will.

The real definition of enough for me is when we're able to live with financial freedom,he he. Bukan cukup-cukup makan.(Sekarang terlebih makan sebab it's just the two of us, dah tiga nanti mungkin cukup-cukup.)Yer, saya memang vain, but we ain't working our ass off for nothing kan?

Making sacrifices biarlah yang berpada, I wouldn't want to do something that I'll regret later. Especially since the price of everything's hiking up like every freaking month tapi the paycheque adelah sometimes stagnant or going up at the speed of a siput.

I want us be able to spend time with the family whilst providing the best for em.

Yea, sounding a wee bit selfish over here, but ya see, I love what I'm doing unless lah I turned into an OCD mummy later - the one who couldn't bear being away from the kids and think others but myself are doing a sucky job in taking care of em. he he.

Maybe masa tu boleh jadi SAHM whilst doing a freelance job, online business jual tempe ke ape.

Until then, I'll stick with my job and do what I know best. Fret not, when the time comes, Allah will show us the way.

Yes?

I've been worried sick since last night.

Why?

Kerana since last night I couldn't feel any fetal movement, but being me - it's sorta expected as I freaked out a whole blardy lot. Tsk tsk. I'm way too paranoid for my own good (but gimme a break la kan, it's my 1st time.)

So yea, all is well now. Alhamdulillah. This morning after a mug of horlicks and biscuits, the baby is kicking and jumping around like nobody's business. Mungkin dia overdose makanan semalam, as I actually had a foot long Subway's subway melt and a plate of sizzling noodles shared with C***- I initially wanted to eat Subway's tapi chenta hati gatal mulut pegi menyebut sizzling noodles which sounded equally tempting, so we had both.

Yea, we ate a lot, I ate a lot - tho I wasn't that hungry to begin with. Nafsu semata-mata.

He he. Fret not, I'm still watching what I eat, there's no such thing as eating for two for me, kerana later, there's no such thing as the-misery-of-losing-weight-for-two either,saya yang kena menangung sorang-sorang. So yea, let's eat healthily walaupon sometimes terbabas. :P

So let's ramble about the 3rd checkup for a bit.

Well, our 3rd checkup marked the start of our long weekend as it was scheduled on Thursday at 3pm.

Went in to see the doc and went through the usual test(I only gained like 1kg yey! Compared to 300g last time. he he.Tapi kenapakah I feel heavy?). After the series of the usual stuff, we proceed with the ultrasound - for another peek of the lil precious. The doc did the normal measuring of the head, the length of the femur( and whatnot) and let us listen to the heartbeat.

The baby's approximately 500g now. Growing steadily and healthily. Alhamdulillah. I hope everything stays that way.


Owh yes, we're almost 100% sure of the gender now, but let's not let it out in the open just yet. he he.

On a lighter note, I think I should write something bout placenta previa(Placenta previa what? Google it!) as I was diagnosed with it during my 2nd checkup(which freaked the hell outta me). I was being told to watch for any sort of bleeding and it was scary - tho the doc did tell me that it's sorta normal to have a low lying placenta during the early pregnancy as most of the time the problem will cure itself - as the placenta will be 'dragged' upward together with the baby as the baby grows and the uterus expends - TAPI haruslah takot okeh, since if it stays that way, there's no way on earth for the mother to go for a normal birth.

Sooo..my condition did cure itself as the placenta is already moving upward and in a normal position. Alhamdulillah. God knows how worried I was over this. C*** had to remind me everyday not to worry too much. Tsk tsk.

Yea, this whole pregnancy thing is truly exhilarating and distressing all at the same time.

Well, the doc gave us another image of the lil precious for keepsake. I hafta say the baby's looking more human this time around - the big head is already gone and the limbs are all nicely proportioned. We could even see the cute nose by now.(Adelah orang tu cakap the baby got the nose from me. My nose is okie what? hehe)

I'll post the picture later, now I'm a bit too lazy for that.

Lunch's time over, it's time to eat some ubat.

Tata.

Here I am at work - whilst C***'s at home relaxing away - as the entire kilang got a day off aka cuti-untuk-menghantar-anak-ke-sekolah kerana today's the 1st day of school for the kiddies.

Ini tidak adil!

Moving on.

Well,I'm sorta late to conclude my 2010 - but it has been a blissful year for me so I'm still going to ramble about it.


o1. I spent 6 long months as someone's fiance and survived the whole cobaan-semasa-bertunang and the dreadful bridezilla phase. I remembered how I was mostly in my let's-get-it-over-it mode, penat saya dok meroyan selalu.

o2. Whilst going nuts over the wedding preparation, I was blessed with another handsome increment in the salary - which helped to ease the craziness for a bit.


03. I started a new life as a Mrs by Jun 25th, for the 1st few days, I was totally in daze. Like, God, I'm married? - but married life has been truly wonderful for me so far - except for one brief period when a psycho came knocking on our marriage just a few days after our reception(hoh, the drama), like yea, if you ask me, I'd kill to get rid of those pest for good(but of coz I didn't, kot tak I'd be in prison by now). Yea who would have thought it could be that dramatic? He he. I could ramble bout this for days, but let's not go there, the psycho can die a slow painful death for all I care.


o4. We got pregnant approximately 1 month after the wedding. It's sorta fast, I know - but I'm externally thankful for the rezeki. I mean, it's not like we're planning not to turn three within a few years or whatnot and it's good to know that we're normal enough to conceive - this bit has been bugging me for years, seriously( manusia yang tidak mengamalkan pemakanan dan gaya hidup yang sihat dengan bersenam memang suka paranoid. he he).

05. Went through my 1st Ramadhan and EID as a wife - which was sorta different in a way but wonderful all the same.


o6. I came to realize that juggling between work and marriage is sorta tough - like yea, programming codes and house chores just don't click together - so I'm determined to excel in both and am forever thankful for the ever-so-understanding other half.

o7. Received another great news from the boss in Dec - of another increment and a long awaited promotion in 2011. Alhamdulillah, the rezeki gonna come.

o8. Feel like I've lost a good friend for some kind of reason. Not something I'm proud of, but when a good friend couldn't find the guts to spill his/her dissatisfaction on your face after all those shared blood, sweat and tears , perhaps that's the end of it. I'd go a thousand miles for the sake of friendship, but I guess it's a bit too naive to expect for the same.

So that's about it, the sharable bits. I've been someone's fiance in the 1st half of 2010. C***'s wife and a mummy-to-be in the next half. It's one hell of a journey - be it career-wise or personally. Alhamdulillah.

This year,

I resolve to be a better wife, daughter, sister and muslimah.

I resolve to try not to whine too much.(Bolehkah?)

I resolve to learn more about programming - as much as my 26 years old brain can handles. (Ini adelah punca rezeki, haruslah terus maju kehadapan).

I resolve to get myself a new ride - which probably sometime in the 2nd half of the year as a gift to myself(tapi kalau C*** nak support boleh jugeeee.he he).

& I can't wait for us to turn three - having a mini us just a month before the 1st anniversary would be perfect. :)

So here's to another great year in 2011, InsyaAllah.

p/s: Will write about our 3rd checkup later. :P

Going back to work after a long weekend adelah malas and I'm still sorta tired from the long trip - this whole pregnancy thing makes me feel like a nenek, belum apa-apa dah sakit pinggang. Owh well, anything for you precious.

So let's be random for a bit

o1. Thanks to moi lil bro, I got to eat mum's curry puff(Thank you mummy! I love youuu.Sedaappp, sampai makan sambil duduk dlm bilik.ha ha) together with kueh lopes. Yea, apparently the lil brother is one of my not-so-mysterious stalkers - so he told mum *gasp* bout my craving(I decided not to call mum and tell her bout my karipap craving, super mengada la nak order memacam) and my blog. So yea, nantikan tulisan-tulisan yang berbaur kesopanan dan kesusilan sahaja di masa hadapan(not!). :P

o2. Went for a round of steamboat dinner on Saturday with the family which came together with a fire show - as in the was a gas leakage on the portable stove lalu kebabom mengeluarkan fire. It was terrifying to see some of the staff in charge yang cuba melakukan aksi meniup api as if the fire adelah birthday candles. Yey them for such a 'smart' act. I hafta say that they are not well trained for such incident, gelabah ayam lebih tho eventually someone finally got some sense blown into him and was reminded of something called fire extinguisher. Like, yea, finally.

Tsk tsk. Owh, dad was sorta unhappy about it, knowing my dad, I could tell lah(walaupon externally adelah senyum-senyum and cracking jokes) - after all it happened in one of those hotels under his corp.

o3. Went to a wedding on Sunday and came back home only to be told that moi uncle was admitted to the hospital due to Leptospirosis so we headed to Alor Setar for a visit. As we went in to see him, he talked as he normally does tho his breathing seems sorta labored. Today, he's in a stable condition tho he still needs to be monitored and I wish him a speedy recovery - as looking at your close relatives yang sakit adelah kesedihan. Please pray for him okay?

o4. Got myself a haircut on Monday, went out around 11 together with C*** and he had to wait for an hour for me. he he. Previously the hair was too long for my liking and now it's a wee bit too short! Haih, never mind. Hair grows.

o5. Headed back to KL around 6pm yesterday after visiting moi grandparents. Yan is looking well and still as good humored as ever. Tok didn't let us leave before eating a plateful of kueh lompang and she even gave me a jarful of home-made instant kuah kacang which would be wonderful with cucur udang. Haih, terharu macam nak nangis jugak.

o6. Adik tagged along during our trip back to KL. He's going for a week long road trip together with his university buddies. I dropped him off to the nearest train station earlier this morning after a quick breakfast as he's heading to Seremban to his best friend's place before driving to Malacca and JB later. Jalan elok-elok nooo, jangan dok syok sangat.


o7. I feel like eating Subway's steak & cheese sandwich. Hmppp..

o8. Our next checkup gonna be on the 30th(which is like a week late due to our work constraints and whatnot). Honestly, I just can't wait to have another peek at our lil precious as I've been having the fluttery feeling(as if something is bouncing around and tugging at your tummy) for quite sometime now - which is rather subtle(so C*** can't see/feel it yet) but then again,powerful enough for me to notice. Cepat-cepat la besaq okay cek.

09. I'm tired, I need more sleeeep.

That's about it. Have a great week.

It has been 3 days since C*** left for his work trip. Sob sob.

It has been 3 days since I decided to turn on my workaholic-mode - hence the 9.30am -8pm office hour - the workload helped to ease the boredom and loneliness a bit. Takde lah balik rumah awal and meroyan sebab home alone. he he. Given my circumstances, benda kecik-kecik pon rasa macam nak buat aksi drama. :P

So yea, for the past few days, I would reach home feeling tired which equals to lesser time for me to mob around the house feeling sorry for myself before bedtime.

It's funny really, funny bout how I couldn't be bothered bout the whole being-home-alone thing before, sekarang, upon receiving the news that C*** gonna be off somewhere for a few days broke my heart a little. ha ha. Emosi yang tak tahan. Apekah tulis ni pon rasa nak nangis? Yea, I can't believe myself sometime.

Owh well, if you ask me, this whole sadness thing is just absurd. Macam la kena tinggai sebulan(if sebulan or berbulan-bulan, ikot please? he he), and it has been quite sometime that C*** managed to excuse himself from being away for such work trip(whilst using me as an excuse la kan?). Tho C***'s around pon, it's not like I'd cling to him like a baby monkey ke ape. It's just that having him around make me feel safe, happy even(kalau dah start rasa tak happy tu, it would be another story. he he).

Yea, the sort of happiness that only the other half could bring. Happiness of a different kind, but crucial for survival - my survival at least.

Enough of whining, he'll be back tonite, so yey! :D (Yea, there's a reason why I didn't whine about him not being around earlier, nanti bertambah sedih. ha ha)

Let's ramble bout my cravings for a bit.

Yea, tho my cravings are easy, tapi it won't be as easy when you're fussy.

I mean, I've been wanting to eat karipap for weeks now but most of those store-bought variety adelah bleh. The filling is either too mediocre for my liking, the pastry is either too thin, not crispy enough or the karipap itu too hollow or worse, dibuat menggunakan the curry puff mould - sungguh la tak authentic.

I want my mum's curry puff, the delicate handmade puff stuffed with tonnes of potatoes and beef(the more beef, the better). Owh..*salivates*

Better call up my mum and tell her to ditch the kueh lopes, nak karipap lah this weekend. (Yea, this craving baby told her mummy that she wants kueh lopes earlier, tetiba teringat her mum's karipap adelah lebih sedap. he he)

On a lighter note, a dear colleagues bought a pack of karipap pusing for me this morning. Sob sob. Terharu.

That's about it. I hafta go for another round of stress test later this afternoon. Hope I could make it home before C***.

Tata.

How's the weekend? Mine was a lazy and blissful one. he he.

It started off with a fun sight-seeing on Friday's night.

We went for a kenduri on Friday's night and whilst we're on our way back home, C*** suddenly went

"I don't feel like going home yet."

"Me neither."

"Jom jalan-jalan!"

Well, the good thing about being married, you could just nod your agreement without thinking when the other half's about to drag you for a jalan-jalan when it's already 30 minutes before midnite. he he. The sweet freedom.

Where did we go? The Ampang look-out point! :P

It's my 1st time(tho it's just like few mins from our place) and I hafta say the road adelah sorta spooky - not exactly my kinda place to go for a date, dah kawin lain cerita, pi mana pon saya ikot.

It was drizzling when we were driving up to the look-out point so we didn't expect the place to be crowded, but boy, we're wrong.

It was crowded and I hafta say that looking at all those cars lined up along the street, adelah membuatkan seseorang itu merasa fishy. Since most of the hot spots along the street were taken, we decided to park our car on the other side of the road which still allows us to have a good view of the city (& thank God we brought my 4wd instead of C***'s lowered mpv, kot tak memang nampak keta sebelah je lah. he he).

Owh, something funny happened.

Since we parked our ride across the hot spots of look-out point, we're actually parked next to this one particular car lah(tho bukan lah sebelah menyebelah,as the car was on the other side of the road, but then again, still close enough for you to see the passengers) and in order to enjoy the scenery, it would look like we're staring at the car as the car was directly in front of us, geddit?

Well, there was this young couple in it and we reckoned that they were doing something fishy, kerana adelah few times the guy was looking at us dengan muka tak puas ati - as if a way of saying "Apehal kau park keta sebelah aku ni?", padahal we had no intention to spy on them pon.

Ya know how people always feel that they are being watched when they are guilty? Rasa macam everyone is looking at you, tapi sebenarnya perasaan semata-mata. I think the same goes for the couple kot. he he. Tu la, lain kali, get a room or get married. :P

Well,we stayed long enough to see KLCC turned off its lights and whatnot and later drove back home to watch tv.

The next day, I cooked for lunch(yea, curry again as requested by C***),changed the bedsheet and quilt cover, washed the laundry, watched a Hindi movie(with C***, sejak bila dia layan hindustan pon cek tak tau laaa) and later decided to go out for a movie after Maghrib.

Let me tell ya that it has been ages since the last movie, so we headed to the nearest TGV only to find out all the movies available adelah bosan. So we walked around for a bit and the mak buyung later dragged C*** to the Cold Storage and made him pay for tubs of Ben & Jerry's and later headed to Subway for dinner(kerana tergoda dengan the smell of the freshly baked bread).

So we had a foot-long sandwich and a tub of Ben & Jerry's for dinner at 10pm. Mana lah tak comel jadinya.

Our Sunday was more or less the same, it's just that we went out sometime after Asar to stock up on yogurt drinks, fruits and get ourselves a new jar rice cooker - since the one that we bought earlier was a tad too big for two of us(bila masak nasi adelah rasa kesian sebab macam sikit sangat, then kerak jer berlebih kerana luas permukaan yang besar :P), so we decided to get a smaller one.

That's about it. We are yet to go on a shopping spree kerana malas(beli periuk nasi adelah tidak dikira sebagai shopping). I sorta detest the idea of going out to crowded places these days(walaupon ade sedikit craving nak Ikea's meatballs, told ya my cravings are easy).

Can't wait for the weekend as we're heading up for a wedding in Taiping and later spend a long weekend in Kedah. Woot! Lamanya tak balik, homesick homesick.

Have a great week people.

Ciou.

Yea, I should be punished for not updating, or maybe not.

Well, I've been having a wee bit of stress-test induced stress.(Confuse much?)

He he. It's just that I'm having a hard time with the stress test. Too much monitoring, tuning and after-working-hours stuff to be done. It's very tiring, yes. But what choice do I have?

Owh well, let's not whine too much when you've been showered with good news. he he. Good news what?

o1. I'm getting the 90 days maternity leave which equals to more bonding time with the family. Yey to the beloved company. he he. Let's see if the semi-workaholic me could stand the 3 months off from programming. Mungkin boleh dilakukan dengan mudah. he he. I'm such a genius when it comes to sit around doing nothing sometimes.

o2. The Boss came in for our appraisals today and brought along a very very good news for moi. Insyaallah, I'll get my long-awaited promotion this year(2 years and a half adalah a long wait. I was considered 'new' last year), together with another handsome increment. Alhamdulillah. More rezeki for us and the lil precious. :D

Gosh.Does it mean that I'll finally get to own a new ride next year? he he. Cey, lum ape-ape, but yea, I've talked about it with C***, he's still sorta firm with his idea that I should get a compact car and nothing else - kerana now we already owned an mpv, a compact car and a small 4wd - so if I got myself a sedan or the sort, his big car gonna be neglected big time. Sekarang pon we only take it for a spin during the weekends and long trips back to our hometowns - most of the time kereta besaq itu adelah menjadi tukun di basement parking, kesian. he he.

Which car gonna be replaced? Not the mpv, and absolutely not the compact car(it's C***'s so called experimental car) - which left us with the 4wd. Yup, 4wd gonna be replaced. Replace ke? Since it's not really mine on papers to begin with.

The truth is,I never paid a dime for it(the loan I mean which I'm not proud of) except for the scheduled maintenance(sendiri pakai sendiri maintain okie?), the accident related stuff(yea yea, takkan nak suh ayah bayar jugak yer dak?) and road tax and insurance(itu pon sekali jer. Sungguh keji).

Well, the car's a gift from moi dad(which explains why I paid almost nothing for it) and we're planning to send it back to Kedah if I ever get myself a new ride. Nak jual sayang. It has been goood to me so far(except for minor stuff here and there lah dan aksi terjun masuk longkang yang dilakukan oleh adek terchenta).

So yea, what to buy? What to buy? I won't go for something extraordinarily lavish as it's just a car for me to drive myself to work and back(which is like 45km everyday,dekat ya amat) and perhaps run some errands but nothing more than that. Takkan Golf gti kot? ha ha. I wish. I'd absolutely get it bila dah terlebih duit, now that we're having a mini us, priority changes.(Terasa sungguh grown up, no kidding.I've stopped salivating over designer handbags since I'm pregnant, is that a good sign or what? he he)

Owh,on a lighter note. Please stop telling me to get a myvi. Tsk tsk. (Pesanan ini ditujukan kepada moi family terchenta). Yes, I know darling C*** works for the automotive company which produces that particular ride and it would be easy peasy(& cheap) to maintain it later since C***'s an expert. Tapi apekah? Sungguh lah tidak berkembang maju. he he.

Nevermind, we'll figure it out later, for now let's just be thankful for everything. :)

Owh yes, here are the images of the lil precious as promised(sorry la for the delay bebeh).

If there's one thing that I hafta admit is the fact that I (used) to be ignorance bout how to cook curry.

I mean, it's not something that you eat like everyday kan? UNLESS you're a big fan of nasi kandaq or the sort, then yea, that's another story.

Well, sometime during the weekend, I opened the door to moi freezer in search of stuff to cook for lunch. I noticed this huge head of ikan bawal staring longingly at me - whilst screaming (not literally else I'll run out of the kitchen and swear not to cook for a month, he he)

"Take me! Take me! Masak laaa saya, masakkk laa".

I stared back at it while mouthing

"Errr..nak masak apa? Goreng ka? You'll be good for a fish head curry, but I dunno how to make gulai you see?"

(Yes, I talked to the imaginary soul of the ikan bawal's head)

Not to disappoint the (head of) ikan bawal or moi-self(for being hopeless in the curry department), I called mummy for help. he he.

Mum, being my wonderful mum, was delighted to shed some light on the recipe, instructions and whatnot, BUT(yes, there's a but) not before giving me the usual tu-la-mama-selalu-dok-masak-dulu-but-you-never-bothered-to-watch-and-learn talk.

Aiseh, who would have thought that I'll marry someone who would actually bought a huge fish head kan? Alasan. he he.

So yea, there I was. In the kitchen at.9.30am, on the phone with moi mummy talking about how to masak gulai. he he.

Owh, what happened next? Well, with all the courage that I could muster I actually did it - much to C***'s amusement as he directly came to kitchen and went "I thought you don't do curry" upon looking at the dish on the top of the stove.

Cey, don't be little me okie? Tho yes, It's my 1st time but I'm not that hopeless in cooking so masih la boleh execute the instructions and whatnot. he he. Yes, the curry turned out to be good (ini adelah kenyataan from C***, I took the compliment seriously kerana nak dapat puji adelah susah okay? Tho he'd eat most of everything.) Mummy, aren't you proud of me?

Still on the subject, apparently C***'s not the only one being amused by my sudden will to learn how to cook curry as dad called up last night and the 1st thing he asked

"Soo..mum told me baby masak gulai,jadi ka masak gulai? ha ha ha"

(Yes, apparently mum told the whole kampung about it. tsk tsk. Yes, my dad still calls me baby - walaupon dah tua bangka, but hey I'm his 1st baby. he he.)

"Jadiiiii..."


"Nanti balik boleh masak untuk ayah pulak"


"Boleh-boleh, no problem. Dah terer skrang. he he"


"Baguih baguih....nanti boleh try recipe yada yada yada"

Yes, apart from the compliment, moi dad actually showered me with 1001 recipes. Yes, tho mum is the master chef of the house, dad's an awesome cook too. I always love his cooking, kerana tho most of it seems like a spontaneous recipes, tapi adelah sodap(but the spontaneous part makes it hard to copy his cooking, ish ish).

Yea, that's about it. My successful mission, which I'm sorta proud of since I'm not big in cooking when it involves coconut milk - since if you didn't do it right, it's just plain sucky.

Yea, go on, laugh at me.

At least sekarang dah terer masak kari. La la la la...