♥of.broke.&.me.♥

I'm broke but I'm happy
I'm poor but I'm kind
I'm short but I'm healthy, yeah
I'm high but I'm grounded
I'm sane but I'm overwhelmed
I'm lost but I'm hopeful baby

- Alanis Morissette - Hand In My Pocket

Broke?

Yea,I'm this close *showing fingers that are being put closely together* to be broke. No thanks to my inefficiency to manage my hard earned money(I'm a total contradiction of myself sometimes) and her.

Seriously, my financial stability started to go haywire from here. There are like loads of stuff to be replaced,yes the bag was my treasure chest. Someone was even surprised about the amount of treasure that I kept in it. Things that are crucial and a must have, for me - to an extend that I almost(almost je la) sure that I could survive on an isolated island for days(yes,I'm very optimistic) with nothing but that particular bag.

C*** warned me bout the replacing rules - one at a time, just one at a time.

"Rome was not built in a day, so is your abundant treasure chest - it looked like a lifetime collection to me,sikit-sikit la beli balik dear" but of course,the ignorance in me simply gave it a clueless,blank stare.What rule? Owh well, the price to pay for not heeding the words of the elder-ly(:P), but at least I know that he'll always be there for me.(Owkay,the line is getting a wee bit corny here,so what? I like corny.Owh perhaps not much of corny,I like corn actually, the food - the buttered corn specifically.Oh nyum!)

Lets rejoice in that too good to be true fact. * Natasha Bedingfield - Love like this, playing in the background *

So yea,I'm (almost)broke but I'm happy. (^_^)

♥of.hectic.&.me.

Life's hectic. Tres hectic and it seems like I've been reduced to an update/week - tho it's not as hectic, I fret that my current workload is not too interesting to write about either. What could be so interesting about doing the routine system maintenance and brain splattering programming? Sometimes I feel like a robot that needs to be reprogrammed once in while myself - ya know, to re-defined the algo, undefined index, variables in life and whatnot.

Occay,workload aside - lets not be depressed on Monday shall we?

Now,on the brighter side. I had a good 1/2 weekend(read:Fun Saturday and fairly boring Sunday since C*** had to work & me being dateless again.).

So,we spent the entire Saturday in Kajang for C***'s i-entrepreneur thingy. While he was busy hunting down the prospects, I was busy hunting for a new pair of sandal - coz my expensive pretty peep toe wedge was killing me, I almost ended up with a new batch of blisters. Sangat miserable, you simply can't look and feel pretty,wonderful and whatnot when your feet are burning. So yea, I managed to get my hands on a pretty decent sandal and C*** was amazed at how efficient I am when it comes to shopping,as always. :P

Besides shopping & bullying C***,weekend wouldn't be as fun without the fattening food, and being in Kajang, the we are famous for our satay therefore you hafta have it before leaving town, my mind was totally wiped clean from any other food crave of the weekend thought.

C***:"What's for dinner dear?Ape best kat Kajang ni?"
Me:"Err..satay kajang?"

After a few pounds heavier & dangerously higher in calories. We got back home,stuffed and happy.Perhaps not too happy for C*** since he hafta sacrifice his precious weekend and got himself back to Rawang to entertain his workload on the next day, while I stayed at home doing nothing,until I was utterly bored and decided to go for another spring cleaning(again). Well,yea it helps. You just need to have all the cleaning tools and a bunch of imagination. Imagination? What for you might ask.Well, you could simply imagine that you are scrubbing the _____(the name of the hateful person here)'s face instead of your toilet,sink or something. The power of imagination you see?

Thank God for imagination, at least I'm not feeling miserable but quite content and happy. :P

♥of.blardy.weekend.&.me.♥

3 words for the weekend. SUCKS BIG TIME.

Even the crappy weekend during the good old days in Jurassic Park seems to be load of fun.

*sighs*

This is what happened when you ended up staying at home through the entire blardy weekend with nobody to go out with ( owh,going out with the darlings is not an option if you don't plan a week ahead - this is mandatory ever since they got themselves involved) & the only person who was kind enough to ask you out is like the person that you could never say yes to, no matter how dreadful, sad, lonely, pathetic, bored you are - due to unavoidable reasons (read:How is it possible to go out with someone who clearly keen of being more than friends - regardless of your current attachment - and God knows what the frustration, loneliness and anger feeling might lead you to,I could already see a HUGE red warning sign with 'NO,DON'T GET YOURSELF INTO IT' written on it - so yea no backup plan for me. Tempting, but I just can't.Kebodohan apekah ini?)

Pathetic.Utterly pathetic.

Perhaps I should start looking for a new bunch of single & you can count on me for a last minute date friends.

Benefits:

o1: So I won't be budged to have the ultimate urge to strangle the other half when he got things to do and somehow didn't show up when he said he would - but later didn't cause he 'kindly' asked me whether he should come or not when I was at the brink of my patience and couldn't be bothered about being nice anymore - but dare to casually ask me about my tormented wonderful weekend and told me that he's sorry. Are you really?

o2:So I won't be suffering from the massive headache of confusion and boredom.

o3:So I won't be feeling stupid for waiting and angry for not having other things to do. Bodoh piang. Tersangat. Even worst than the feeling that I felt when I stared blankly and failed to solve my com graphic calculation question crap during the midterm test light years ago.

I don't know whether it's me being overly-sensitive or him being unthoughtful, but the strike is on.

p/s: Sometimes it's best not to care too much.

♥of.26.&.me.♥

Tuesday blues.

My week off ended today,so yeah I'm feeling pretty blue & green - with envy.

2 of my friends just got engaged. 1 of them used to be the lelaki idaman malaya,the I do nothing but crush gurls' hearts into pieces kinda guy and the other is a sis that I used hang out with during my undergrad years. I'm happy for them,really - tho,the news came to me like a huge tidal wave. Dragging me to a weird realization that someday,somehow I'll be there too,tied up in the exact situation - regardless of how inscrutable, weird, funny, ganas, lorat, horrifying I am.

Surely someone was created with me in mind right? At least C*** seems to fit the mold,so far. :P

Owh,few days back.While I was busy stuffing myself up while having my daily dose of cartoons.Mum came over, sat next to me and we started talking and somehow, the I don't wanna say much about it aka marriage topic, got into the conversation and mum casually added "Anak,tell that bf of yours that you hafta get married before you turn 26".

& being the don't argue with your mum else akan menjadi si Tanggang and I am too busy getting fat while enjoying my cartoons me, I simply replied,"Owh,okie." - (5 minutes later,it's like, what was I thinking? Pbbtt!)

Well Mummy,I already told him that,yesterday. He said "26?Owh boleh boleh" - while nodding his head and flashing his signature smirk.

Sangat menyakinkan bukan?

Yea right,before 26 it is. :P

♥of.padi.&.me.♥

Someone just found her padi, it has been one hell of a journey eh darling? I'm glad everything turned out to be fine for you. Wishing you a lifetime of happiness.

Yea,perhaps we should celebrate - but not until I sort things out with my padi, you know how I hate being like this. It's like being happy and sad,fluctuating between love and hate. A mixed feeling and it's miserable. I loath the thought of feeling clingy and miserable, at least not when I should be feeling out of the world for you,but somehow you'll ended up listening to my pathetic stories instead. Sangat menyedihkan.

Well,no matter how pathetic I'm feeling right now,just so ya know.I'm very happy for you darling.Seriously.

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I'm going back to KL tomorrow.

p/s:I hate feeling like this,no thx to you.

♥of.holiday.&.me.♥

Brief update.

I'm going back home tomorrow,will need to apply for a half day leave - so I'll be able to blast off to KLIA in time to catch my flight at 5.10 p.m.

A week off from work & KL! I can't wait!

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Owh yea, managed to get a replacement sim card for my Maxis - which is an utter bliss - & thx to C*** for being the saya sangat sabar orangnye walaupon anda banyak songeh darling. What would I do without you,again. :P The ultimate mon cher cum loan shark ever. Teehee...

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I need to drop by the Silk Street for a quest later after work - not for myself but for my mum since I've promised her that I'll help her to buy a suit or two.

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My baby brother's flight to Europe is within few hours. Saya sangat la sedih kerana tidak dapat ikot.Sob sob. The price to pay for having a job.
So, lepas ni bila seseorang tu dah kaya,boleh ke saya tanak keja? :P

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Back to work.

Need to fill up the application for leave form ASAP.

Owh, HAPPY CNY. Do mail/bank-in/money transfer my ang pau. Contact me for details. :P

Tata.

♥of.adventures.&.me.♥

Last Sunday,my handbag(my fav XOXO,sob!) was stolen, and I was stripped of any evidence of my identity (myKad / license / cell phone/bank cards etc). Everything happened in a blink of an eye. No, it was not being snatched away from me while I was shopping, walking and whatnot. In fact, it happened to disappeared while I was taking my wuduk at a surau. Pathetic thief? I know. Perhaps I was the one to be blamed for being careless but the bag was merely 3 steps away from me. *sighs*

No, I didn't cry. I was rather shocked since it happened to be gone just like that. I did manage to perform my prayer and walked out of the surau to C*** & gave him the okie dear,guess what am I lacking of? look. He looked at me and said "Why? Tudung ke? Why don't you go to the ladies and fix it". I gave him my wide-eyed look "Handbag orang hilang" and the rest is history.

Yea, we went to lodge police report. I called the banks to block all my bank cards & the beloved mon cher hafta supply me with some dough so that I won't face death from starvation. Teehee..what would I do without you? So yea,you passed the mon cher's efficiency test with flying colors.(I'm sure you won't be reading this,at least not for a very very long time.)

Long story short,I took an emergency leave yesterday to reissue everything. 1st thing 1st, my MyKad + license and today I'm going to proceed with the rest.

& yeah, thanks to the culprit, I'll be adding more stuff into my things to buy and definitely have list.

*sighs*

There's always a hikmah for everything that happened right?

Time to move on,to bigger and better things!(I hope, Amin.)

p/s:Must.replace.my.Dior.eyeliner.ASAP.Sob!

♥of.Friday.&.me.♥

Friday!Penghulu segala hari,marking the end of my weekdays. Bliss.

Alhamdulillah.

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I just spend another handful of my hard earned cash(note the my,I'm actually and finally earning it myself.yey me?) on stuff that I don't really need. Another bottle of body polish & shower cream (dah berlonggok kat rumah,nampaknya boleh memulakan hobby mengumpul shower cream), few packs of face and ehem,foot mask and a tube of OXY(yes this is an essential,tho the zits only pop up once in a while & this particular drug-store brand happened to be the only one that works for me).

Lucky me,C***'s not around to witness me going haywire over the excessive SALE signs in MV, else he'll knock me over with his fav habitual statement "Ni lah pompuan.." along with his signature smug. Owh well.. :P

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I AM GOING TO CATCH A MOVIE TOMORROW! At last. *sob*

I'm sooo into Tim Burton's, I've told C*** that this is my ultimate must watch movie and being him,the it's okay with me,whatever you wish dear person, he agreed to be dragged along (tho I'm like 99% sure bahawa dia akan kebosanan tatkala melihat movie itu nanti).So I've booked a couple of tickets to catch Sweeney Todd tomorrow.

Creepy + black & white atmosphere + music + blood(?) = I can't wait. It's oozing with excitement you see. Teehee.. hopefully it's exciting enough to keep mon cher awake throughout the movie, else I hafta face a cranky or a very very bored mon cher at the end of the show. Perhaps I should stuff him up before the show, a well fed mon cher is always a happy one. Trust me. I know. :D

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Owh, need to finish up the coding and debug the system - else I'm not going to be able enjoy my weekend (coz the thought of it will keeps on nagging me,erks!) & the project manager will keeps on bugging me like a fly. Oii!Saya stress la macam ni, kalau reti buat sendiri la,boleh? Ape? Tak? Finee..

I'm off.

Happy weekend!

♥of.book.&.me.♥

I always wanted to have someone who understand me to the bones. My habits,be it good or bad. My sometimes rather twisted complicated thoughts. My passions for weird and crappy thing. My frickle-minded self. My dead sensitive over crappy and silly lil stuff self. Long story short, my everything.

But what happened if you (would actually like to think that you) finally found him?

The one who reads you like a dog-eared open book?

Would you be happy? Would you be glad? Thankful even?

Or scared?

Now how am I supposed to pose with I'm blardy okay attitude(when I'm feeling vice versa) without him knowing it?

Hmpp..

So how now brown cow?

p/s: How scared should I be?

♥of.new.year.&.me.♥

Happy Maal Hijrah 1429

Hoping for a better year & a better me. :D

InsyaAllah

♥of.37.&.me.♥

Those 37 things.

o1. The phone rings. Who do you want it to be?
- My parents or C***(coz it usually means that he's coming over and I'll get to bully him.yey!) or my darling partner in crime.Teehee..

o2. When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your trolley?
- Yes, I actually do. I loathe all those stupid morons who left their trolleys beside,in front or behind someone's car.

o3. 4 names in your hp inbox?
- C***, darling Mun, Zue & Ziqri.

o4. what did you do at 12 last night?
- Lying on the bed while listening to my endless playlist.

o5. when and who was the last person you went out with? where?
- My colleagues, to the CTO's wedding.

o6. If abandoned alone in the wilderness, would you survive?
- I doubt it. I would be a very delectable dinner for the mountain lions or whatnot.

o7. Do you like tongue rings?
- Urgh no. It's just terrifying. Something that I shall never learn to appreciate.

o8. Did you ever go to camp as a kid?
- Well,NO.Never. Pathetic? Yes.Very.

o9. Could you ever date someone with different religious beliefs?
- It could be very interesting,but no.

1o. The color of your bedroom?
- Beige walls with black-red drapes and bed cover.Teehee..

11. what will you do this weekend?
- Probably out with a darling for another quest.

12. what did you have for your dinner last night?
- Mandarin oranges + hot choc + biscuits.

13. Are u a ghost or human?
- I'm a friendly ghost. :P

14. Do you know how to shoot a gun?
- No but I'd love to learn so that I could shoot all the stupidheads who spat & sometimes peed in the elevator.

15. If your house was on fire what would u save first?
- My loved ones and my lappie.

16. Who were the last 3 people you shared a bed with?
- My mom, my cousin and my adopted cat.

17. Last time you got your hair cut?
- Ages ago.Like..hmpp..3-4 months back.

18. Do you think there's some models/people out there that should gain a couple pounds?
- Yea,Posh Spice sure looks like she need some fat.She's all skin and bones.

19. What colour is your hair?
- Black. I'd love it to be blue-black. :P

20. If your doctor said you were pregnant, what would you say?
- If I'm married, then it's gonna be a perfect time for a serious craving.Hah!

21. Do you trust all of your friends?
- Honestly.No.

22. Have you ever taken pictures in a photo booth?
- No.I'm lame,just like that.

23. When was the last time you were at the mall?
- Like,15 mins ago.I work 20 steps away from the mall.

24. Is the love for your pets same as the love for your family?
- Well,nope. It has been ages since my last pet died and I couldn't recall how the love feels anymore.

25. Have you ever been trapped in an elevator?
- Yea,for a good 5 minutes. Thank God someone came to the rescue before I ran out of oxygen.

26. What do you do all the time in a car?
- Sing to myself and no one will ever complaint.

27. Do you prefer to sleep or eat?
- Both. I like them equally.

28. Can you do the splits?
- Not anymore. I got less flexible day by day. Damn the fat.

29. Do you wear your seatbelt?
- Yes. Most of the time.

30. Do you like your hair straight or curly?
- I like it straight,just the way it is.

31. Is it chico time?
- Chico what?

32. Do you like funny or serious people better?
- I like those funny people who knows how to be serious whenever necessary.

33. Do you like the rain?
- Yes, I truly do. The sounds of the rain, a hot cup of choc/milo, a blanket and a good book are a great combination.

34. Ocean or pool?
- Ocean. The sound of the waves and the salty breeze.Simply wonderful.

35. What's your favourite drink?
- I've to say Juicework's Lychee Paradise & hot choc.

36. Are you easy to get along with?
- I would like to think so. :P

37. Do you like PINK?
- Nope,but I have nothing against it.

♥of.job.&.me.♥

I've turned down a couple of job interviews so far, &

I D O N ' T K N O W W H Y ?

Perhaps I'm just getting too comfortable with the current job.Perhaps my quest for the new job with the thicker dough and good looking colleagues ultimate career growth is starting to dim.

Someone has been asking why I'm fussing over this stuff when I seems to be doing well. Darlings,there are loads of reasons why I should. Seriously.

o1. I hate office politics & it suffocates me, more than our local political issues do and I'm having a blardy heated one over here.
o2. Overworked, underpaid(?) and unappreciated.
o3. With the dough that I'm getting,how on earth am I going to get myself THIS.

Perhaps I should wait for C*** to get it and sell it to me for a price of a Kancil.Teehee..boleh? :P

♥of.prankster.&.me.♥

I was abruptly awaken from my sleep last nite by a desperate wailing,screaming for help. I thought I was dreaming or something. Glanced at the clock,it was 3.46am. Again,the wailing resurfaced along with those it sounded like it was somewhere blardy near running footsteps. I flicked my blind open,peeked through my window but I couldn't see anybody at the 4th floor playground or the 3rd floor parking bays, tho the voice sounded so near. I kept on looking around until the voice faded. I finally told myself that I was hallucinating - due to the excessive Chinese food that I consumed earlier at a wedding. I got up from bed,reached for my water bottle and decided to fetch some water from the kitchen. The moment I swang my bedroom door open, two of my housemates were standing there with the freaked out looks on their faces.

A:"Dd,dengar tak tadi?Orang jerit-jerit?"
Me:"Dengar,diorg jerit main-main ke ape pagi-pagi ni?"
I:"Tak,tadi A dengan I nampak ada pompuan kena kejar kat parking bay 3rd floor tu"
Me:"Hah?Nampak pompuan tu?Dah tu mane dia pegi?Tetiba diam dah"
I:"Tatau mana pegi,dah pegi belah block belakang kot."

Suddenly,the wailing could be heard again,it sounded quite far this time. A decided that we should alert the guards - but since none of us have their numbers, A decided to call the police instead. The obviously shaken A placed a call,trying hard to explain with her trembling voice and amid all those fear in hear voice,the person on the other end of the line has the guts to say

P:"Orang menjerit2 camtu mintak tolong?Ish ish..takot tu cik."

Phbbtttt!!!Owh please,did she sound like she's trying to make a joke or something? Could you please be more considerate and SERIOUS? Perhaps the person on the other end of the line thought that she's just one of those usual stupid pranksters BUT little did he know that someone's life could be at stake.Perhaps he just couldn't be bothered.

Gosh.Who's to blame?

Damn you blardy pranksters?

p/s:Am not feeling safe.Tsk tsk.Owh yes,it's depressing and C*** thinks it's funny.

♥of.celebration.&.me.♥


Someone asked whether I had a romantic new year celebration thingy with the dinner,fireworks and whatnot like someone did. *ehem*

Well...no.(Note:Please read it without the frustration tone coz I'm not frustrated.Teeehee..)

My new year celebration consist of nasi kerabu(which happened to be yummy sebab lama tak makan tho C*** did warn me bout the possibility of me getting all pening + mabuk + sleepy over it.) + sitting by the tasik - sambil meneman C*** mencuci mata + watched the black hot air balloon that was floating merely 40 meters off the ground + sudden downpour + a tiny wee bit of fireworks(coz we were in the car and our sights were blocked by the trees,building,etc etc) + an hour worth of traffic jam + hours of my excited talking (again,C*** warned me to slow down a lil. :P)

So yea,again,a new formula for a happy me.

Good food + good company + good talk + a wee bit of entertainment here and there = me happy

Gosh, I'm easy to please.

Someone hafta be lucky. Tsk tsk.

♥of.conclude.&.me.♥

2007 is ending in few hours.

So lemme just briefly conclude my 2007.

o1.Academic - I graduated. I'm done with my degree and managed to squeeze my brain for a pro.certificate. What's next? We shall wait and see.

o2.Financially - I earned my own dough for the past few months - tho my dad's duit kesian is much appreciated.he he.

o3.Physically - My relatives mentioned that I shrunk(possible?) a lil. I truly hope that I shrunk a lot. But it's a far cry from the reality since I'm pretty sure that I didn't lose any much weight. Sob.

o4.Love life - Owh,need I say more darlings? *winks*

o5.Emotionally - I would say that I'm emotionally stable now. I gained my confidence. I discovered my virtues. I found my padi. Enough said.

o6.Family - Being away from em make me cherish and love them even more. Distance makes the heart grow fonder eh? So I thought.

I'm off!

Happy New Year.Hope we'll have a blessed one

p/s: Going to bully C***. Yey!

♥of.anniversary.&.me.♥

Happy 4th anniversary my dear escapism.

You've been a darling to me.

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2007 is ending(already?) in few days.I hafta admit that this year is truly loaded with I didn't see it coming personal growths. I nailed my 1st & 2nd job. I graduated. I've been tremendously maju in some aspect of life which is unbelievable to name a few.

I'm thankful. Very.

Alhamdulillah.

♥of.dilemma.&.me.♥

Owh..

I think that I actually missed talking to someone. *sighs*

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Well,hope that it's not too late for me to wish all of you a Happy EID Adha. Did you have a great one? I sure do. I ate a lot, like nobody's business - like I didn't bother bout all the fat that I'm consuming,like mon cher didn't actually poke at my tummy saying that I'm fat,tho I'm yet to develop any love handles and whatnot - well darling,it's a lil bit too late to complaint. What you see is absolutely what you'll get and I've seen enough of what I'm getting.At least I'm 25kg lighter. yey me! :P

Owh yea,I'm still at home whilst most of everybody at work gonna be start working tomorrow. I'm just taking my chances(of getting fired?) - especially when it's rare for you to have a long break from work and it only gets better when your dear cousin is a doc. See the connection? Brilliant.

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On a lighter note, dad is actually offering something.Something that's supposedly hard,tremendously hard to resist. Something that I've been waiting for like..forever? - or since I've learned that Europe exists, but somehow I think that it just popped at the wrong moment. I hate to be hasty,especially for something that I've been craving for.Something that I truly madly deeply want - besides the new car,lappy and whatnot. *sighs*

Dilemma, and all I need now is a decision.

Decision. Decision.

Ya Allah please,shed some light.Aidez moi

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& I still missed talking to someone. *sob*

♥of.cleanliness.&.me.♥

I believed that I'm someone that's easy to live with. Tho I'm not particularly categorized as the neat freak,(note: programmers are bound to be a lil bit messy sometimes,especially during the I feel like pulling all my hair off phases.Ya know whut I mean?)but I would consider myself to be pretty okie since I don't actually left a pile of dirty laundry at the back of the bedroom door(I truly know someone who does) or things like that.

So,with that note in mind, here comes the main story of my post. I just REALIZED that I'm living with 32 years old unmarried neat freak.Owh lucky! I'm not disturbed with the fact that she really appreciates cleanliness, but to leave a note on the white board(that's placed inside the bathroom,ehem!) to remind you that you hafta do this and that is a lil bit phbbbtt for me & to jot down the date when she actually cleansed and re-cleansed the sink? Haih, I scrub the sink every time I'm done with my morning ritual(gosok gigi,basuh muka & whatnot) cause I hate to have a tooth-paste/cream cleanser stained sink,so does it mean that I hafta jot it down too? Just to let her know that I did it? *shrugs*

Well,all in all. It's better to live in such state rather than living with the we only talk behind your back bunch. It's a breath of fresh (or is it the Dettol antiseptic I smell?) air.

*inhaling*

I'm truly glad that I'm not sharing the room with anybody. At least there's enough space for messy-ness individuality. :P

Don't ya agree?

♥of.donut.&.me.♥

How inconsiderate of me,being too swept away in my crabby-ness(such word?) thus forgetting the good food part of the weekend. Just like my stubbornness and C***'s kemengadaan that go hand in hand, the same goes to my weekend and fattening food. They just clicked together.

So what's my menu for the weekend? Hmmpp..let's see,nothing fancy.Just loads of fast foods and half a dozen of J.Co donuts - and mind you,we waited in a loooooong queue which seemed to go on forever - for a good 45 minutes(for donuts?Yes,we are THAT crazy sometimes) just to get em. Pity C***, I bet he wouldn't be bothered to be in such hassle if his cherie(yang terkenal dengan keloratannyer(?)) wasn't that curious and whatnot. he he.

Well,tho we got home that nite with an aching feet - due to excessive walking + queuing, at least we got a bunch of wonderful donuts.Right?

So dearest, mind for another queue? :P

♥of.ultimate.&.me.♥

We finally had it(& it's not like I asked for it),the ultimate one so far. Not much of the heated argument thingy. It's more of him asking me why and me being ME, will stick to my it's nothing automated response like my life depends on it.Duh!

Yer saya sememangnye degil ditambah pula dgn kemengadaan anda.See?We are so for each other.ha ha ha.

But tell ya what darling, I'm sorry if I made you lose it. Can't promise that it won't happen again, but I will truly try to go easy on my automated response.

Well,moi heart you still.