♥of.lucky.&.me.♥


Do you hear me,
I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm trying
Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair
though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday


Jason Mraz Feat Colbie Caillat - Lucky.

Lucky indeed.;)

p/s: What a way to start a great week!Wowee..

♥of.whiny.&.me.♥

Someone put a knife on my throat and threaten told me to update. So yea, I'm updating - for the sake of updating coz I have nothing much to whine, shout, ramble about. Thanks to the towering amount of work.

Well, it's only my 36th day here and I already worked on 3 different modules, how blardy fantastic is that? No, I'm not complaining. I like the programming thingy, it runs in the blood you see? Yea my blood that it and no matter how sickening it is, I'm sticking to it for now - unless someone's willing to spare me the trouble and pays for everything (the **k Ptptn debts included) whilst I'm sitting around looking pretty.

On the 2nd thought, I do have loads to whine about and it's somehow related to the ever so mithali C***. Yea he hasn't caused me too much trouble so far(except for the occasional makan hati which he's surely not aware of),he's been a great petit ami when it comes to how to deal with the utterly lorat me.He's been a great help. I'm thankful really, it's just that his ignorance bites and unquestionably annoying.

*sighs*

Perhaps it's just me, the overly sensitive tak tentu pasal me. I have this humongous issue with ignorance you see? I can't stand people who claimed to care about me but at the same time act like I don't fucking exist. Like HELLO, it excruciating(how dramatic) enough to just be able to see/bully each other mostly during the weekend (coz we're still miles apart tho not world apart anymore) and now you gonna start to wait for the weekend before checking on me to see whether I'm still alive or dead? Great. So yea, it's annoying with a capital A, as simple as that.

So much of terasa amat disayangi.Ceh.

p/s:The emotional junkie.Tsk.

♥of.choosing.&.me.♥

We were having lunch yesterday when one of the guys casually came up with a scenario

You are into 2 guys, namely A and B, A likes you but he sorta jual mahal aka playing hard to get and B is the I'll do everything and swim the deepest ocean for you kind.BUT all in all, you love A more.

He then asked me about who will I choose.

I simply gave him the "The key to success, always go for someone who loves you more,B it is but then again it depends on the age, if I have the time for the chase, yea perhaps I'll go for the A guy.".

"So you would just drop the 1st guy and go for someone who loves you more, aren't you lying to yourself?" he added.

Then yea, it got me thinking. Being the practical and realistic me, I would surely jump into the I'm feeling so secure coz he loves me wagon with the B guy - perhaps it's my 23++ years old brain talking,it might as well be vice versa if I'm 18, but the thing is - I'm never keen on the lets try it out and see how far we gonna go thingy. I detest uncertainties, it triggers my sickening paranoia.

But come to think of it, perhaps I'm not that realistic of a person that I think I am. After all, I did go for someone that I like (which I happened to meet in such a peculiar way since we were thousands miles apart back then) - I just got myself lucky cause he somehow (tricked) into liking me and later he was convinced enough to make the 1st move - which according to him took a humongous amount of guts since he's not used to the 1st move ritual crap (read:The gurls in his previous relationships/flings were the one responsible for it, not him.).ha ha.

Yea,it's been 5 years since the 1st hello and 2++ years since our 1st I'm showering you with the corniest words on earth so please don't puke session. There's still a long way to go,lets hope for the best,shall we?

p/s: Yes, I was 19 when we 1st met, perhaps that's why I was not being realistic. :P

♥of.buses.&.me.♥

Something happened yesterday, which successfully deepen my hatred towards the public transportation(PT) (read:the rapidKL buses, rapid ey? you should change it to dahlaSlowMenyusahkanOrangSoNotRapid instead.Pbhhttt!!). This is obviously not working for me - tho it's only my 3rd lets get acquainted with the buses week and someone conveniently told me that I should try to bear it since it's only a 30 mins ride/day but tell you what? Me had enough,so please don't try to pull the naik pengangkutan awam itu memudahkan dan pantas crap on me anymore, else you'll be sorry. Seriously.

If it sounds like I'm being snobbish,so what?I'm not keen of the idea of wasting 30 mins on waiting + another 15 mins for the buss to finally reach the train station and not to forget the 35 mins train ride. It's just plain tiring.

*sighs*


Owh well,thanks to the ever so efficient PT, it seems like I'll be burning a hole in my wallet soon - hmmpp..on the bright side,at least I won't go crazy ranting over the ever so stupid bus. Right?

♥of.can't.wait.&.me.♥

Dad is 54 years old this year, I called to wish him a happy birthday last Monday only to be reminded of how I miss home,my parents & the pesty lil bro like crazy.So yea, I'm going back home this weekend tho my plan was this near (showing 2 fingers being placed closely together) from being canceled cause I'm supposed to stay overnight for my first(wohoo!!) production deployment.Well,the deployment was scheduled for Thursday's nite but somehow it got postponed to Friday's nite(yea the day that I'm going to pack up my bag and leave,owh goodie),somehow being the lucky person that I am (Alhamdulillah) ,a colleague offered to cover it up for me.Tres merci.

So it seems like I'll get to spend the weekend in Kedah after all.

Perhaps I'll be able to wish my dad a happy Father's day in person.
Perhaps I'll be able to go on a shopping spree with my mum.
Perhaps I'll be able to visit my grandparents and catch up with my fav aunt.
Perhaps I'll be able to make use of my decaying cooking skills to prepare something for our ritual I'll cook whatever I feel like eating dinner.
Perhaps someone gonna miss me more this week :P.

I can't wait.

p/s: I need a longer weekend.

♥of.7.&.me.♥

Well okie, I've been tagged by my lil cousin.

So here goes nothing.

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7 Facts About me

o1. I'm a daughter of a coffee-addict, my father that is. I spent half of my life being the most sought after coffee maker in the household. I love to wake up and smell the coffee. The Owh so refreshing aroma, but apparently coffee gives me mind-numbing, brain-splattering headache. Urghh..so no more coffee-drinking, I'm going for coffee-scrubbing instead.

o2. I turned into a computer geek when I was 13 and majoring in Info. System Engineering during my undergrad years just made it worst. Besides the excessively burned brain cells and bad eyesight - at least now I'm able to congratulate myself for being a well-paid computer geek. Yey me!

o3. When I was a kid, I used to have loads of toys since my dad used to travel abroad a lot. I would wait for him to come back coz it means more toys and chocolates for me. I used to have this huge parrot toy thingy that could actually talk back to you and being the 4 years old that I was, it's like soooo blardy cool lah. Utterly amusing but somehow I lost it when we moved to a new place.

o4. Again, when I was younger. I used to go to 7 different schools since we hafta move every now and then. It's like living a life of a Nomad - minus the desert,camel, makeshift tents and whatnot. It was tedious and hard, but given another chance, I won't change it for the world.

o5. I hate, okie hate is a strong word. I don't like sharing, especially when it comes to certain I consider it private and solely for myself things - tho I'm big on all those toleration thingy, since I'm the eldest with the ever suke mengambil barang2 aku sesuka hatinya lil brother.:P

o6. I'm just plain sarcastic, some people would find it hard to cope with me. Period.

o7. I'm a hopelessly romantic geek - but I only started to really fall for someone (instead of the high tech gadgets and whatnot) 2-3 years back.How lame.But I'll kill him if he happened to waste my time for nothing.hahaha

What scares me

o1. Thoughts of losing the loved ones.
o2. Cockroaches and all those creatures with the tiny, sharp hairy legs.
o3. Weird looking pets and people who own them.
o4. Having to grow old alone. How pathetic.
o5. The inability to be a good daughter for my parents.
o6. The possibility of having a troublesome in-laws.hahaha
o7. Betrayal.

7 current songs

o1. Meet Uncle Hussain - Hanya khayal
o2. Jason Mraz - I'm Yours.
o3. Natasha Bedingfield - Pocketful of sunshine.
o4. David Cook - Always Be my Baby
o5. WilliAM - Heartbreaker.
o6. Andra & The Backbone - Sempurna.
o7. Chris Brown - Forever

7 fav words/ phrases

o1. Owh okie - which sometimes annoys people.
o2. Fine - when I had enough arguing.
o3. Sooo? - when something deserves an explanation.
o4. --
o5. Sudah malas berpikir.hahaha
o6. --
o7. --

7 most treasured stuff/person

o1. My beloved family and friends, obviously.
o2. My job, else I won't be having any fat paycheque every month to be spent.
o3. My cellphone. Can't live without one.
o4. My lappie.
o5. The Elmo, a token of a fabulous story of life ever.
o6. The blog, it's my escapism you see?
o7. My 10 years old iron-Swatch.

7 - first time in life

o1. Being away from home when I was 18. It was hard but it sure is a true eye-opener.
o2. Being ever so close of being broke. Yea, I was blinded by the paycheque and spent it like there's no tomorrow.
o3. Had my 1st car when I was 20. My blood-sucking baby. Now it ended up being a tukun at home.
o4. Got my 1st pc when I was 12. It was hugeee Dell pc and expensive for sure. I managed to screw it up within a year.heh.
o5. Had my 1st real pet when I was in form 4. A bunch of cute hammies that eventually died on me due to the excessive sun-bathing.My bad.
o6. Got my 1st laptop when I was 19. It went kaput 2 years later, and I'm with my 4th now.
o7. Having a mon petit ami that loves to make me feel like choking him from time to time. How entertaining.

The end. Fin.

♥of.awkward.&.me.♥


hanya khayalan
dalam sejuta bayangan
sehangat pelukmu, selembut belaimu

yang mampu ku pinta
hanya senyuman
dalam kelembutannya
lama tertanya
ke mana hilangnya naluri

sepatutnya kubisa
memelukmu seerat hati
kerna apa yang kuingin
kan berlalu pergi

mainan jiwa hati
tiada satu pun yang mampu
mencabar kemarahan ini
hanya kamu kekasih..

Meet Uncle Hussein - Hanya Khayal

The song is plain catchy. Simple but soothingly catchy.

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I got up from my seat, tailing C*** to meet up with the groom when I of his friends introduced herself to me and asked my name. She even wondered whether we (me & C***) are colleagues and how long I've known him. Rase seperti di-investigate.(cue X-files theme song playing at the back).I flashed her a smile and the usual it's been a while instead of the actual owh lamer dah kenal, almost 5 years now answer.

Owh, to add up to the fun,his ex was there at the wedding too, he gave me the "dear,if you wanna know,thats my ex,there in that car". I nodded and pretended that I was looking,sebenarnye tak pon. I couldn't be bothered. I don't wanna know. I must say that I had this absurd feeling seeping into me,but it's not jealously. Seriously,why should I blardy care? It won't change anything unless he goes on doing any unthinkable things.She's the ex,so fine, the ex. Nothing to do with me tho I could obviously tell that he was feeling kinda awkward when she unexpectedly showed up. Owh well, it's not like I have to get up on a stage and sing Don't Mess With My Man song or something. So no biggie, a wee bit awkward but it's fine,still fine.

Enough said.

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Despite the killer sore throat and the mild cough that I caught from C***,the weekend was joyously filled with the ever so fattening food. We ate mango for breakfast, had a dose of you know how oily it is nasi minyak at a wedding, heavily buttered roti john and a huge bowl of ABC for tea, home-made pasta and Secret Recipe's cakes for dinner - to top it all up,I ended up waking up at 2am with an upset stomach.

Greeeeeat.

Not.

♥of.Friday.&.me.♥

I'm feeling quite under the weather,it's like waking up on the wrong side of the bed.Thanks to the my throat's closing in and my head is spinning feeling that I picked up yesterday while I was on my way back from work.I blamed it on the 35 mins train rides and the 7 mins hellish bus ride,yea specifically the bus ride. I whined about it to C*** and he suggested for me to walk instead.Ceh. No thank you, I'll take the cab instead.

*sighs*

This is what happened when you left your car back home and being left with no choice but the ever so wonderful public transportations.Owh well, at least I'll spend less money on the transportation which means more money to indulge myself with my favourite shopping spree and whatnot.Yea right,konon hikmah disebaliknye lah tu.

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Anyway, something went wrong with the centralized air-con here in the office yesterday. The guys were all restless since they are a bunch of thick-skinned guys and just can't live without the I'm freezing to death temperature.They lodged a report to the FM but as for me, I secretly thankful for the malfunction and hope that it will last for a bit - at least it won't be as freezing as usual and when I told one of my colleagues bout how freaking cold the office is, he just laughed it off saying that it's normal and perhaps he's the kind of guy who should live abroad where it's cold and gloomy. Right.

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On the lighter and happier note.

Thank God it's Friday, now I'll get to scare the living daylight out of C*** and spend my hard-earned cash on something crappy and cute.

I can't blardy wait.

♥of.weekend,job.&.me.♥

The weekend was great. C*** and good food just clicked together. I'm blessed.Spent a fortune on the facial cleanser and toner. It better be good else I hafta spend another fortune on a new batch.*sighs* When on earth the hormones gonna leave me in peace,I seriously don't need the pimpled adolescence's look at this age. So tacky.

On the lighter note, got myself a bunch of new tops. Thanks to C*** for the QA inspection - this is what happened when you got a QA engineer for a bf, he'll kindly inspect everything for you from your choice of detergent to clothes. He'll make sure it's economic, not too sheer,not too tight, smells and look good and whatnot. Yea,I'm lucky,just like that. :P

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The new job seems to be great so far.The flexible working hours and ikot suka hati kau la nak pakai ape asalkan proper dress code are the plus points for me. I'll even get to lengang-lengang to work at 9.30am when everyone else is already half done with their morning routines. Utterly fabulous.

But owh,did I tell you that I'm the ONLY female here? SO yea, no office gossip for me since geeky guys don't gossip and my only lunch-mates (so far) consist of (ceh!macam bahan masakan pulak) an intern from UIA and a senior from my undergrad years - which surprisingly I never bump into tho we were in the same campus for a few years.

Well,to add up to the fun, all of us are wearing black today so we'll be looking like a bunch of boria during our lunch-break later.

How hmpp...interesting.

♥of.fiesta.&.me.♥

I guess a new job with the fat paycheque comes with a luvly package for me.

Stress? Not much (yet) but I'm in the midst of the marvelous zits fiesta over here. I have a whole bunch of those tiny red dots thing on my face,sangat annoying - even C*** seemed to notice bout it.

C***:"Dear, what happened to your face?"
Me:"Hmmpp? It's the hormones. Now stop staring at my face"

Tsk tsk.

Owkay now I'm starting to sound blardy vain.

Owh later.

♥of.clotty.&.me.♥

I'm supposed to read up on something, for work - but I just couldn't be bothered. Malas. It must be the fatty food that I've been shoving down my throat for the last 2 days. It's making its way up to my brain, clotting the pathways of my logical mind. You evil yummylicous fatty bum-plumping food. Bad. Very bad I tell ya.

Owh well the bad mind clotting evil wins,the boring stuff hafta wait. I am truly not in the geeky mood, at least not until I'm back at work and the project manager threatened to chop my head off and turn it into cat food for being so helplessly slow with the coding or ......(put any bad traits of a programmer here).So yea, since I'm no where near to those situations mentioned above, there's no way in hell I'm going to read the owh so boring thingy.

Case closed.

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I'm going back to KL tomorrow. How sad. I wish the Wesak day gonna last for the next 5 days or make it a week like the EID & CNY, the looonger the better. Right?

Hmp..

On the lighter note,perhaps I'll get to bully C*** soon.I miss him already.

*sighs*

Nitey nite.

♥of.job,truth.&.me.♥

The Bank finally decided that they just couldn't wait for 3 blardy months before dragging me into the development team - so yea, no more dinasours for me, I'm jumping right into java instead. Java? God! Java? Berape lama tak buat java I'm doomed. How delightful.

Well,the truth is - I don't mind tho I'll be soo lifeless and as good as dead,as long as I'll get my fat paycheque. Yes,the paycheque - after all this is what the brain splattering job is all about - besides the personal/career growth, self-satisfaction and whatnot. No? You wish.

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Hmpp...

Lemme tell you something. If there's one thing that I've learnt about relationship - it's the fact that it has the ability to push you up high to cloud nine while having the utter quality of being plain menyakitkan hati.

Yea, as simple/complicated as that.

Gosh.

♥of.last.&.me.♥

It's my LAST day at work.Thank God.

I must say that it has been one hell of a journey for me. It's not all bad,tapi banyak jugak la yang tak best sebenarnye.ha ha.(Note: Kita digalakkan untuk tidak mengutuk company yang akan ditinggalkan.)

Well,I've gained loads of useful knowledges while I'm here and the akak-akak dan abang-abang are truly good to me.

But it's time to move on eh? For a better career,new skills, experiences & perhaps gain more money to satisfy my insatiable need of shoes, exquisite food and whatnot.

I gonna miss the sesuka hati kau je la keluar pukul 11 for lunch sessions, the I'm doing this blardy program at my own pace coz I'm the only one who knows how to do it moments and the pegi Midvalley jap nak cari something breaks.

I ain't gonna start to be all melodramatic here, so..enough said.

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Owh yes on the brighter note, the bank(read:the new employer) gonna put me into one of those 3 months off-the-job training. We gonna learn about dinosaurs. Yipeee!! Dinosaurs? Yes,that's Cobol/mainframe programming to me,so within the next 3 months - do drop by and say hi to the new extra-geeky me and yea I'll have to travel to Shah Alam everyBlardyday for the next 3 months before I'm back in Bkt.Damansara. Err..yippee?

Hmpp...

I'm off to clean up my junk in this pc.

Till then,wish me lucky.

Okie?

p/s:Yes,I'm very thankful and happy.

♥of.gratitude.&.me.♥

Alhamdulillah.

One step closer to a (hopefully) brighter future.

Cheers to a fabulous career growth.Teehee.. :D

♥of.cars.&.me.♥

I finally went through my 1st let's learn how to drive a manual transmission car again session last Saturday - courtesy of C***, he turned out to be one hell of a teacher. A MEAN one. He made me drove the car around and refused to tell me what I did wrong when I put the car to a sudden halt - much to my dismays but the minute we switched places, he profusely apologized and turned all I'm a sweet mon petit ami so please don't be mad at me again.

Hmmpp....all forgiven dearest.

Err..where was I? Owh well, it felt rather weird to actually drive one of those manual cars after gazillions years and I really sux at it, big time. It's awkward to use both legs when you are too accustomed to automatic cars. I just can't see myself being good at it soon. I need a hundred sessions more before I could swiftly drive one of those and not having the urge to look at the gearshift while shifting into the next gear. Pathetic. I should learn to be good at it before my beloved instructor being sent off somewhere for a training and return only in 6 months.

Sob.

Back to work.

♥of.refuse.&.me.♥

Lemme tell you something..

I'm truly demotivated right now hence the towering amount of workload.Tre, sangat kurang rajin.

It's like my shitty mind, owkay fine. It's actually me. I somehow refuse to think about anything else (especially the workload) but..

o1.: The weekend. The good food. C***. The paycheque and more shoes (& the unnecessary accessories, clothes ) hunting.

o2.: The looong weekend next week, okie it's not THAT loooong but I'll be able to spend 4 days at home(read:K.E.D.A.H.home sweet home and blardy good home-cooked food.) - which is twice as long compared to the normal weekend right? Right. How come? Go figure. :P

o3.: There's a nagging pain & kesengalan at the wrist. I've developed CTS(CTS what? google it) or what? Hmmppp...(mental note:I need to replace the battery of my fav watch. I've been watch-less for a week now just because it feels rather absurd to wear the other watches. Favoritism.)

o4.: More shoes and I need a batch of new tudung for.... hmmpp..nothing.

o5.: Going for dates hunting. No. Not the "I love dating" dates. It's the dates, the fruit of the date palm dates. Geddit? Owkay, dad seems to love those stuff nowadays - mostly due to his gastric and I'm going to get him every type of dates that I could get my hands on.

o6.: Another trip of silk hunting at the silk road (read:Jalan TAR). Mummy gonna love a suit or two.

Owh well,I'm off.

Better try to get some work done now.

Tata.

♥of.ruined.&.me.♥

Everything just went down the drain.

Ruined. Destroyed. Kaput. Nada. None.

Well, sometimes you just cannot hope too much.

Now I have to plan out yet another thing or two for the weekend.

Sangat malas dan menyedihkan.

*sighs*

Whatcha gonna do?

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Mon petit ami apologized profusely (like 10 000 millions times along with his one million dollar question that I, for once failed to answer).

I'm not blaming him really, he's truly sorry - torn between his promises and obligations. It's just that I couldn’t help but feel a teeny weeny bit of melancholy dan bahasa bakunya kesedihan (dan yer saya marah).ha ha. I'm easily frustrated, just like that.

Owh well,I'll get over it,like..soon?

♥of.catching-up.&.me.♥

It has been ages since the last time we chatted,so I was delighted when we managed to catch up with each other yesterday - tho I'm supposed to catch up with my tight deadlines tapi masih sempat lagi berborak, sangat mithali.

Owh,I'm talking bout my pet bro, not an ex or an old flame. Sheesh!Ingat nak ke borak dengan the ex? Kirim salam. Nama dia pon dah pura-pura tak ingat.

Anyway, it's funny about how our topics that used to range from subjects sem ni susah nak mati, lecturer ni memang tak best macam lecturer from hell, makan ape yang best, nanti dah grad nak keje kat mane to I just went for an interview kt yada yada, nak kena bayar balik scholar, keje sekarang tak best, my next career move and relationships.

Owh!Talking bout the relationships,rasa sangat lah grown-up. Ehem!Well...he whined bout how hard it is to meet up with his other half since they are states-apart and whatnot.

Pet bro:"Jumpe once in a blue moon je,kesian kan?"
Me:"Owh,been there done that,biasa la tu."
Pet bro:"How come sis?"
Me:"How come whut?"
Pet bro:"How come jarang jumpe? Bukan ke people in love supposely jumpa like every minute of everyday?"
Me:"I'm too lorat,unpredictable and weird all at the same time,so if tetiap hari jumpa he might as well jadi gila, turn gay and run away with a jambu guy.Sekarang pon dah ada ciri-ciri."
Pet bro:"Owh *speechless* "

Hmmpphh...

Isn't it lucky to have a mon cher who (jokingly) claimed to swing both ways and love to crack a gay joke when we're out on a date?

How err...amusing.Am I lucky or what?

♥of.great.&.me.♥

I had a great weekend Saturday. Met up with Mun for lunch. Had a series of good laughs that almost made me choke on my generous portion of fattening lunch. We even had cendol under the rain, well okie we were taking cover under the huge umbrella while sipping on our cendol - but my skirt was half soaked anyway, so no point. Yes darling, I blardy love the rain. I somehow hoped that we're somewhere else, a place with a vast open field - so I could just kick off my shoes and run on bare feet. How idyllic.

On the other note, someone actually left me feeling bitter throughout Sunday. How ironic.

Phbbbttt!!

Owh,I'm still waiting for the GOOOOOD news.

♥of.hope.&.me.♥

The "talk" was great.

He even walked me out of the office, opened the door for me and casually said

"I'll see you soon."

There must be hope aight?

Owh,God please.Aidez moi.

p/s: Happy weekend darlings. I truly hope to enjoy mine.