♥of.kiddiesly sick.&.me.♥

bro_mes: bila finals? this year ke next?
bro_mes:hmm i remember u were still kiddies when i first spoke to u
me: 2 sems more to go
me: then im done
me: cest fini
me: kiddies eh?bile eh tu?
bro_mes: tak ingat aaa
bro_mes: x silap first yr or something like that
me: perhaps when i was in my foundation year kot
bro_mes:really?
bro_mes: itu b4 ke after first year?
me: b4
bro_mes: hmm ok
me: right after my spm
bro_mes: ah...has it been that long ka? how long ago was that?
me: since 2002?
bro_mes: wow
bro_mes: before i transfer to mid east,so skrng dah x kiddies sangat la

Yes,perhaps Im less kiddies than before.

He's my online personal tutor.I envy his super-smart brain that managed to solve all those programming problems,he made it seemed so simple like makan kuaci sambil tgk movie.Yes,he's that smart and he's not even a real programmer for God's sake.Grrr..

Neway,he's the 3rd person to realize that he actually knew me since I was a WHOLE LOT "kiddies-er" than the way that I am now.

I just can't help it.Childish-ness is somethin that I'll always have within me.Blame it to the fact that Im the only daughter or perhaps, those kiddish nicknames that my parents religiously use to call me,their 1st born and only daughter.Owh,did I mentioned the only daughter twice?haha! :P Seems like the 'only daughter' thingy is really gettin into me - thx to my parents for repeatin it each time they gimme a call.

"When r u comin home?Ma dah rindu la dgn anak perempuan dia yg sorang tu"
"Dah makan belum?Nanti kurus lak baby ayah yg sorang ni"

Yes,Im the only daughter.I hafta eat well,sleep well.STUDY well.(mental note:Heed more on the STUDY-well thingy)

Why on earth am I crappin bout these?

Im just sick,plain sick.

HOMESICK. T_T

♥of.mood swing.&.me.♥

Please dont mind my previous post,sometimes I could be weirdly sensitive.

*shugs*

Neway,had a good time 2 days back.Thanks,merci,gracias to Sis Rudy and Sis Bee for the makan-makan sempena merdeka.hihi!

Tons of assignments to be done and Im gettin old in 14 days. *hint hint*

:P

Owh,this is really amusing.



Happy weekend. :P

♥of.God knows whut.&.me.♥

I've been ignored,betrayed.Period.

| | |.of.cousins.&.me.| | |

Congratulate me (again)...

For being able to go through the most deadly week ever,last week.

& congratulation to Kak Long for her long awaited engagement yesterday.Im so blardy happy for you,but please,choose the right date for the wedding ya?Me truly-madly-deeply wanna be there on your wedding day :D

Well,since the engagement thingy went well yesterday,and mummy actually told me that it already looked and felt like a lil wedding. Im lookin forward to a major wedding at the end of this year.Can't wait. :P

Btw,3 cousins gettin married in Nov & Dec.Yey for them!

Hmmmpp..

Talkin bout cousins,they could really love you in a very weird way.

Case 01:
My utter failure of not being able to sleep over at to their place every weekend like I used to,only triggered their speculation senses.They actually told my parents that,probably, Ive been too busy going out with my boyfriend during the weekend,thus I failed to hang out with them like usual.

Simply wonderful. :P

I just didnt realise that they actually love me that much.*sob sob*

Terharunye saya.

I need some tissues.Lots of them.

♥of.10,000.&.me.♥

Congratulate me.

I actually managed to brutally forced a bunch of innocent and kind people to read my craps for 10,000 times.Muahaha! :P Yes,Im celebrating my 10,000th hits(my counter already stated 11,565,but what the hell).Terima kasih,merci,gracias

Well,10,000 or so hits within 21 months,it means that my bloggie has been visited and (hopefully) being read at least 10,000 times or those people whom I had brutally forced to read my blog have been reading this bloggie for at least 15 times a day - in that case - me luv you much darlings.hihi! =P

Owh,Thx to Bro Polt for having my utterly-glamourous-name in his recent post.Wah,it was being underlined too.*sob sob* Im touched. =P Don't forget to take a glimpse of our beloved Mars later this week okies? :P

Once again,thanks for sharing the lil space of my escapism ya darlingS? *hugs*

"Human are designed for everything,but loneliness is not one of them"

| | |.of.wonders.&.me.| | |

I just had 1 of those slaps-on-the-face thingy last nite.Perhaps I should be more sensitive bout people around me,coz to-date,there are too many things that Ive overlooked.

Too many hopes that Ive belittled.

Too many feeling that Ive ignored.

Anyway,being alone can be so educating sometimes.Those thoughts that went in and out of my mind for the past 2 days were sorta soothing rather than sickening though I surely prefer to be around my loved one.Well,2 weeks ago,when I was alone in the train to the airport,a sight of a lil one clinging to her mother warmed my heart.I once saw a lil boy cutely running around with a glasses within his grasp while his father was runnin after him.I wonder if I had ever given my father such thrill,such happiness.

I wonder whether my existent actually mean somethin to people around me.

I wonder if I had ever made them feel better,happier.

*shrugs*

p/s:& I wonder why Im actually writing bout these.

| | |.of.stuff.&.me.| | |

Im done,well,almost done with the shopping.Bought a bunch of cool tshirts and a book(duh!book,finally).Im still not that broke - so I'll be available for the next shopping spree.Darlings,call me. :P

Bumped into Muaz with someone.hihi!And no,plz dont get any funny idea bout me going out with Bro Kecik. We were just having our usual kakak & adek outing thingy.

Hmmphh..

Whats new?

Got a call from my mum earlier today,my older cousin is gettin engaged - at last.Woowee,Im happy for you sis.Glad that everythin is okie dokie after all those stuff that happened.Tidak syak lagi,usaha itu tangga kejayaan :)

Whoaa,3 older cousins actually got engaged within 3 months.Interestin.

Eh Kakna,when's yours?hehe! :P

p/s:Im gettin better,thx for askin. *roll eyes*

| | |.of.haze.love.&.me.| | |

For some weird reasons,I just feel so LOVED today,thx to the err..haze?Within 3 hours or so,I actually received 8 phone calls.

Owh,the bad-and-it-makes-me-feel-like-faintin haze actually reminded them of me.How sweet is that?

Perhaps it should always be hazy.

*grins*

Maybe not.

Hmppp..

Love,much like haze(or life) - you just can't tell when its goin to end.

:P

| | |.of.(blank).&.me.| | |

Back in KEDAH!

Wohoo.. :P

Time to fatten up the already-blardy-fat-self.

Neway,the nite out with the teratorians(last Saturday) which filled with the sinfully good sate kajang - credit to Sis Neena - was a good one.

I actually realized that it has been quite sometime since our last meetin and sorry to the bro-on-the-15th-rank,saya seriously tak ingat siapa anda - but its nice meetin you.

Thx to Bro Kecik & Kewl for the ride.Merci.

Ghee..I had so much fun til my muscles ached. T_T

Owh,I need to get a hair-cut.Hafta remind myself bout that.

Get a hair-cut.Get a hair-cut.Get a hair-cut.*chants*

p/s: Happy August!!

| | |.of.weird.&.me.| | |

Mid term BREAK!!!!

Goin back home tomorrow,off to Kedah on the 1st flight out. :)

Miss my parents.Miss the homely-feeling and I surely miss bullyin my baby bro.

(mental note:Dont get too carried away over the temp. relief.I still have to study.Hafta study.Hafta study.Hafta study. *chants*)

Well,Ive been feelin a lil weird lately - a lil bit too weird than the usual.Comin to an extend where I actually went clueless and speechless though my extremely-talkactive-and-excited-over-nothin mode was turned on. Talkin like there's no tomorrow now and feelin all out-of-words the next min.Mon dieu,how did I manage that?

Sometimes I tried to think bout how I really feel and why,but of coz - I always stumbled into the dead end.No clear answers to satisfy the curiosity of my own feelin.So I might as well stop thinkin about it before I go haywire.

God,this is gettin weird.Im feelin weird over the fact that Im weird?How weird is that?

WARNING:Weirdo on the loose

Hmpp..

Darlings,thx for copin up with me aight?You surely have no idea bout how thankful I am now.

Terima kasih.Thank you.Mucho gracias.Merci.

p/s:How did I get so off-topic?Im supposed to talk bout the fun midterm break,dammit.

| | |.of.love.is.only.a.feelin.&.me.| | |

Love is only a feeling (Drifting away)
And we've got to stop ourselves believing (It's here to stay)
'Cos love is only a feeling
Anyway.

The Darkness - Love is only a feeling

A friend of mine just couldnt stop singin to that song everytime he called since a week back.

I used to wonder why,but not anymore.I finally got to know what happened - I pressed him for the details and apparently he just been cheated by his gf. They were together for 3 freakin years.Phew! 3 years gone down the drain.So being the friend that I am - I tried to tell him that he'll find someone better, he deserves someone better.

I tried, thats all that I could do anyway - since its not like my non-existant love life is any better than what he's goin through right now.

Well,at least Im not heart broken.

Hmmpp..

Love is surely just a feelin,a weird one.

Dont you think?

| | |.of.new.layout.&.me.| | |

NEW layout - at last!!

Ive been dying to change the layout since God-knows-when but I was BB-less before - so the urge hafta be blocked/delayed for a lil while.

Owh well,its finally done.Alhamdulillah.

Nothin fancy,nothin to shout about - coz Im runnin out of the creative juices and its not like Im that creative anyway.

Do gimme some feedback aight?

Hope that it wont sore up your eyes. ;)

| | |.of.life.&.me.| | |

Done with another I-feel-like-jumpin-from-the-5th floor week.

Lots of stuff happened since the last few days and I fairly hate all the headache that it had given me.

Well,I started off the week with a major disappointment.

My bf gave up on me though it has been fixed a month ago and I just hate the squeaky sounds that it makes everytime I steer the steering wheel.Grrrr!Hafta fix it up soon - but thx to Bro Shazuan :P for the help with the fuse thingy.Yea,bukan senang nak dpt mechanic delivary aight?hehe!Much appreciated.Mucho gracias.Merci.

Over and done with Maths 2,French and TRM test.

Went out to catch a movie with Bro Kecik on Thursday which made possible by skipping the French class,the Fantastic 4.Its quite okie I guess - since Im not really a big fan of heroes in costumes,Im childish but heroes in costumes are a lil bit too childish for me. =P

Well,right after the movie,met up with Muaz and Bro Shahar for dinner.Muaz bebeh,enjoy your summer break and keep on stuffin yourself aight?Owh yea,your cousin's surely a lil bit different than what Ive expected and isnt he a lil bit too old for the malu-malu kucing thingy?hihi!Cakap jer lebih kan?

Tons of assignments comin up and Im supposed to be all hectic and miserable but somehow,none of em really bothers me much.

Perhaps Ive turned into stone,emotionally.

Hmmmp..

Enough rambling,I hafta go and pay up the bills or we wont be havin any water supply later

Ive turned in a stone and I surely dont need to turn into a goat.

Tata.

| | |.of.wishes.&.me.| | |

I wish that the thought had never come to me.

I wish none of this had ever happened.

Mon dieu,help me.

| | |.of.promises.&.me.| | |

Everything burns
While everyone screams
Burning their lies
Burning my dreams
All of this faith
And all of this pain
I'll burn it all done
As my anger reigns

Dear,I appreciate your good will but always is too strong a word for you.So enough with all those promises aight?

I'll live,promise.

| | |.of.21.&.me.| | |

Well,happy birthday sweet 21 to Munie dearie.

Hope that everythin gonna be okie dokie for you darlin & thx for being such a great friend aight? Me luv you much. *hugs*

| | |.of.today.&.me.| | |

Tak perlu seribu bintang
Yang bertaburan dilangit sana
'Tuk malam-malam mu
Ku ada disini

Tak perlu seribu sahabat
Dengan senyum sapa dan hangat cinta
Cukup satu alasan indah
Ku ada disini

Saat semua lelahmu
Tak terbuangkan lagi
Usah kau simpan sendiri
Ku ada disini

Saat semua cintamu
Pergi dan tak kembali
Usah kau tangisi lagi
Ku ada disini

Rio Febrian - Ku ada disini

Simple and sweet,dont ya think? Neway,its just a part of the song,full lyric?Carik sendiri :P

Thx to the darlings for playin this song in an ended loop since few days back - now I just cant get it outta my head.Poor me.

Haih.. *sighs*

I crave for a major rainy-peaceful-curling-in-the-mid-of-the-bed day or I might as well be prepared for another nose-bleed-like-there's-no-tomorrow day to gimme a visit again soon.

Whats new?

Well,lots of stuff happened since few days back, 2nd thought - I have nothin to do with them,directly - but somehow, Im trapped within those massive circle of disasters which are pretty depressing.

I wanna break free,but I cant - or I wont?

Enough said bout all those depressing thought.

I had a tiring day today,feelin kinda gloomy and so were the darlings, so we had a super-heavy dinner - consist of three unknown-mispronounced-weird-lookin Iranian food.They're suprisingly good,sinfully good - with all those beef,creamy mayo and all.

Now Im feelin blary fat!

Hee..Im off to burn the xtra calories. =P

| | |.of.BB-LESS.&.me.| | |

A cute lil bird actually died on the mid of my parkin bay.Tsk..tsk..poor lil birdy and poor me coz its rottin away with the sickening smell.urgghhh

But Im still alive though.Miss me?Hee..guess not.

Im still BB-less,so do pray for me aight?

| | |.of.the.last.day.&.me.| | |

Goin back to Jurassic Park tomorrow,and SADLY - I wont be able to get online until further notice.

Why? Dont ask me why. *roll eyes*

*sighs*

So miss me not aight?I know you wont

Be good.

Wish me luck for the new sem okies?

Tata.

| | |.of.the.last.week.&.me.| | |

I had a loooong weekend and my week's pretty normal except for the added taste of nasi minyak.hehe! I actually went to my uncle's wedding (without my baju kurung.Gah gah).Not my uncle as in uncle uncle but due to some too-complicated-to-be-explained reasons,he can be considered as an uncle.The event was like a family gathering,close and extended relatives can be seen everywhere.
Spotted some of the familiar faces that I used to visit during EID but couldnt quite remember their names and some of the other guests looked vaguely familiar.Hmmpp..
How's the wedding?The weather was great,the food was okie (xcept for the fact that I couldnt eat that much due tu some unknown reasons),the groom-uncle looked quite
nervous and out of place while the bride-aunty looked yellow.I mean she looked wonderful in her yellow dress - with her fair complextion and all.Okie,I lied.She look pretty okie.I mean,sweet.Whatever.

Well,weddings.What about weddings eh?I always like weddings,the food the excitement,preparation and of coz the guests - especially the cute guys in baju melayu women that gonna look as if they are gettin married instead of the bride - but somehow since the past 2 years or so ago,attending the weddings
(especially when the bride or groom is one of the close relatives) could be rather scary - due to the endless stream of 'cepu emas' questions from the beloved aunties.Gah gah.
When are you gettin married?Dah ada boyfriend?Anak bila pulak?Dah nak bis study kan?Tak lama lagi sampai la turn tu.
Yada yada.Owh,wait a sec, its more like ask-a-question-and-answer-it-urself-ASAP session.They gonna literally shower the unfortunate victim with deadly questions and before you can even blink an eye they gonna blurt out all of their answers-cum-speculations.Hee..most of the time I'll just try to play safe - do nothin but keep on flashing the angelic smilee as long as possible while prayin hard with every fiber of my being - hopin that they gonna leave me alone in peace.

Talkin bout the match-makin thingy,it brought back memories, a hilarious one to be exact. An incident that happened almost 4 years ago.I was at my older couz wedding when a macik seriously asked my aunt bout me - for her nephew.Gah gah,it was flattering,weird, funny rolling into one and I felt like rolling on the floor myself .

How did I know?I was at a hearing distant but the macik couldnt spot me coz I was in my invisible mode.(Owh,thats when I discovered that I can switch between few modes.)Ghee..I was just 17. *roll eyes* Im still blardy childish nowadays and God knows how I was back then. No wonder nobody can bear me.

Okie.Forget bout me.All these stuff are surely not for me until I bumped into THE ONE - which is still nowhere to be seen or perhaps he's right in front of my
nose all along,waitin to be discovered.Either way its still too early to tell, unless there's an extremely drastic changes that may drag me toward these rather complicated stuff faster than I expected.

An arranged-force marriage perhaps? *shivers*

Okie,lets not get carried away.

Enough said bout me,now Im waiting for my older cousins to tie the knot - which is very very interestin to think of. *grins*
(note:Not because Im waitin for my turn mind you,its just that its fun to see someone - that used to jump around and play masak-masak with you when you were younger - finally gettin married and lookin all grown-up.Its a weird magical feelin I tell ya.)

Abg Jimmy,Kak Long,Abg Daus,Kak Lyn,Kak Na,Abg E,Abir,do me a favour will ya? Pleasseee..cepat la kawen! =P

Ghee..askin someone else to get married surely seems easy enough. hehe!

Time's up.Im off.

Tata.

p/s: Goin back to CJ this Sat.Uwaaaa.