Cooked dinner for C*** last night (ini selepas si chenta hati complained that I rarely cook these days. Ampun darling. Tapi saya masak sedap tak? he he.).

Well, honestly, it's not that I'm having any of those kitchen-nausea or malas-ness. It's just that I'm feeling pretty tired these days - rasa macam jadi buruh ke apa, tho I just sit in front of my work station all day, perhaps I'm mentally tired.

My brain would send me the you-are-freaking-tired signals each time I reach home from work - so much so that I'd feel like skipping dinner and just lay on the bed watching tv with C*** - tapi harus lah tak boleh skip dinner, C***'s pretty strict bout my eating schedule now. Either he loves me to much and couldn't bear to watch me suffer or dia takot anak dia kebuluran. he he.


Well,did ya know that I'm not allowed to eat any sort of fast food(besides pizza, provided it has an array of healthy toppings) nowadays? I swear my 1st (and probably last) fast food that I ate in the span of 7 months (and months to come) was the prosperity burger. he he. I got it after much begging and pleading and endless muka kesian. Owh yea, the burger came together with orange juice instead of coke. he he. I've told ya my darling C*** is ever so loving. :P

On a lighter note, we're going back to Malacca tonight. It has been quite sometime since the last time, jadi marilah balik kg dan bergembira. We even managed to book a test drive tomorrow. So let's see if the current-dream-car-kerana-sedar-diri suits me else we'll have to move on to the next option which is ermm..yet to be figured.

Hmpp... better get back home early today as I need to sort the laundry,iron C***'s uniforms and finish up some house chores.

On a lighter note, we're 3 days past 7 months already! he he. Thanks for being an awesome other half darling. I love you and always will. Kiss kiss. Esok sila belanja saya ice cream okay? :P

Have a great weekend people.

Ciou.

Work has been piling up like ya wouldn't believe these days but life's as blissful as ever.

So let's be random, as usual.

o1. We found the last two must-have furniture for our crib.Like FINALLY! Furniture hunting is tough especially when when you're fussy. Nak solid wood la, dark colored la, ape la. Hoh, thank God we found em before I got too tired to even walk.

o2. We already booked our stroller and car seat. Woot! Yes, quite early for such a big purchase but I think we found what we need (tough and sporty travel system) and both of us decided to go for it after much deliberation (read: After C*** agreed to be in charge of everything, they are freaking heavy I tell ya. Fine, I'm exaggerating. Well, at least heavier compared to the lightweight Graco that I preciously wanted).

The truth is, it's tiring to gawk at every sort of strollers and car seat in the market - it's not helping when we're sorta clueless in this department even after all those endless googling and whatnot.

There are like tonnes of em - it makes your head spins just by thinking of em and as long as you don't fix your mind at something, you'll ended up spending every waking second thinking of it.

So yea, let's just get it over with lah kan, plus I think it would be a good purchase as both could be used until the lil precious is 4 yrs old and it won't cost us an arm or a leg - unless lah the daddy tetiba nak recaro travel system pulak. Sabaq yer daddy, tahun-tahun depan, we'll get it for you..err..the baby I mean. :P

03. Bought 2 pairs of maternity pants over the weekend. Yes, my 1st purchase in the maternity department (after much nagging from C*** and moi mummy, takot baby terhimpit if I keep on wearing my normal jeans, I finally gave in) which is sorta hilarious. I mean, it comes with pouch-like belly bands and no zippers at all - the comfy grip sometimes makes it feels like you are wearing an awfully low-rise pant and boleh londeh anytime. That ain't gonna be pretty. Tsk tsk.

o4. I want a white baby cot to match our bedroom set. Period. he he.

o5. I'm torn between Medela Swing or Medela FS. Hmppp..we'll see how generous or cheapskate I'm feeling later la eh? :P

o6. We're going for another test drive this weekend, but this time around, it's for moi ride!Yey! - tho we're yet to be in the 2nd half of the year, the chenta hati adelah bersemangat to start off the hunt (he loves em cars, so yea, no wonder). Yes, berusahalah (untuk menabung)!

o7. All is well during our 4th checkup. Alhamdulillah. Our lil precious is a wee bit more than 600g now but the doc was like

"Dear, I think you're looking a bit kurus from the last time, semua berat kasi baby yer?"

Owh, kurusss keee? Or is she trying to flatter me? Now that I have a baby bump in the size of a small melon pon kurus lagi ke? he he. I've gained like 2 freaking kilo in a month and approximately 4kg throughout my 6 months of pregnancy. Well, nevermind me - as long as the baby is healthy, we're good.

08. Just sent another list of pictures to be framed and printed for our 2nd wedding album. Yer, selepas 10 kurun baru rajin nak hantar list of pics to the OP. Going through thousands of pics is ain't easy I tell ya. Rasa macam nak muntah 10 kali.

09. The parcel for my recent online shopping spree is MIA. Grrrrrrrreat!

10. Now that Dad is going to work in Langkawi(again), I think I'm going to drag C*** to the island for quick getaway. We could always ask dad to help with the hotel or we'd just stay at dad's place as he's getting a villa to stay soon.Yer darling, mari lah pergiiiiii...mari lah mariii...I wanna see buffalo and learn how to make kerbau's cheeseee.(I always wonder how it feels like to pat a buffalo.Adekah rasa geli-geli?)

11. Yet to find anything nice to wear for my cousins' receptions. If I actually showed up in my normal clothes, adekah akan dipandang keji? :P Fine, let's scratch that. C***, jom shopping (lagi) please.

Well, enough randomness for a day.

Lunch time's over.

Tata.

I had a dream of a good friend last night.

The entire dream is sorta vague for me now but I could somehow remember clearly bout how happy we were back then - back in the good old days.

Owh well, sometimes, something gotta give eh?

On a lighter note, I've wrote a blardy lengthy post yesterday - after coming back from our 4th checkup and whilst waiting for our new furniture to arrive - tapi the connection went crazy on me and blogger only managed to auto-save half of em. Fret not, I got the entire post copied into a notepad - tapi adelah lupa to save em in my thumbdrive - so yea, the lengthy post hafta wait.

On another lighter note, it's funny when someone is struggling to mess with others happiness. I mean, sila lah get a life. I know it sucks being you, tapi refraining yourself from messing with others is the least you could do. Allah is all knowing and fair ya see? You just won't get away from your crazy acts for free(hey, it rhymes!).

It's also funny when you hafta deal with a psychotic, sometimes it doesn't work for you to be all sane and normal with em - kena lah jadi equally psycho and dramatic jugak. Hoh. I don't know bout you but happiness gained from others misery are just plain sick and unworthy. I also think ya need to get your head check, like seriouuuuusly.

Owh,C*** surprised me with one of his jiwang gesture this morning. I mean he's been good in the romantic department since we're married but still, walaupon dah ala-ala biasa tapi adelah terkejut jugak - demam ape la dia pagi ni kan? he he.

Ooo..cek sayang saya macam tu sekali ka? Awat tak habaq awai2? Owh you did? :P

p/s: Got myself another bottle of vitamin to be swallowed - the gigantic fishoil vegecap. Owh yummy.Blurghh.

It's Friday and I'm already in the midst of my long weekend. :)

Let's be random for a bit

o1. Someone is back to haunt us with her so-called explanation(like whaddaheck?). I just can't gauge her real intention but after all that you've done, it would be nice if you could just stay out of our life. I'd be very thankful for that. Like seriously.

o2. I don't know whether it's too early for this, but my 1st purchase for our lil precious are two pairs of cute rompers. he he.Baby stuff are too cute to resist - so much so that I actually spent hundreds on the cute and colorful baby stuff during my 2nd purchase yesterday. :P Owh, I dragged a lil cousin together with me on the shopping spree and not C***(as he was working yesterday). Kot tak mesti dia tak kasi beliiii (especially when the wife actually bought an unnecessary soother just because it's too cute). :P

o3. I got my eyes on a Graco stroller. he he. Hafta drag C*** to have a 'test drive' later.

o4. 2011 has been loaded with career-related good news. Besides the bonus and promotion, we're actually getting a generous salary adjustment. Alhamdulillah. Rezeki anak, yes? he he. :)

o5. Think that I hafta hunt for something decent to wear during the cousins' wedding next month as most my baju kurung telah mengecil. Huuuuu..

o6. Experienced my 2nd leg cramp last night. It was so excruciating that I actually groaned in pain in the middle of my sleep and the groaning actually woke C*** up. he he. - but the chenta hati was as efficient as ever(even tho he's half asleep) as the next thing I know, he was already sitting up with my left foot in his hands - massaging away. Thanks love. Iloveyousoverymuch.

o7. Ermm..err..I actually feel like eating a bowl of shark fin soup with crab meat. Tsk tsk. Apekah craving yang sungguh tak environment friendly???? Gosh, perhaps I'd just go for crab meat soup instead. It's the crab meat that I'm salivating for.

08. Can't wait for our 4th checkup on Tuesday.

o9. Weekend = Shopping spree. (^_^)

That's about it.

Have a great weekend okie?

A lot has happened in 2 weeks and I'm still digesting bits and pieces of everything.

On 8th January, a beloved uncle, the father of my dearest cousin passed away. It came to me as a gigantic shock, as the last time I met him. He was very much alive and talking. No thanks to my childish inner-self, I always hope that grandparents, parents, uncles and aunt will stick around to watch all of us grow, have a family on our own and kids to nurture.

Yes, way too childish for my own good.

But, jodoh, ajal and maut di tangan Tuhan no? To Allah we belong and to Him we return. God knows when it's our turn.

Truthfully, I feel awful. I can't simply say I know how it feels, it would be a lie and I'm not the one to go for corny dramatic words. It's just ill-fitting. I just can't say things for the sake of saying.

So dear cousin, I'm honestly sorry for the lack of better words, I suck in the comforting department, but I hope that the whole family would be able to pull through the pain and continue living.

Al-Fatihah.

We were watching 360 last night - which loaded with those missing kids stories and the horrifying tragedy behind em.

I hafta admit that I was squirming restlessly whilst watching it when chenta hati went

"So nanti, when both of us at work. Who gonna pick up our kid from school? Nanti whilst waiting for us to come back from work, dia nak duduk mana pulak?"


"Dear, that's like too much of forward thinking, tu at least 6 years lagi. Let's not go there yet"


"Ya know, I'm just wondering"


"Well, within that 6 years, if you could earn enough for me to stop working, then I'll be a SAHM lah, okay?"


"Hmppp.."

He he. Apekah chenta hati begitu maju kehadapan? :P

Well, now I'm beginning to doubt my SAHM idea. I mean, even if C*** does earns enough dough for me to stop working (which I have no doubt of) and stay at home and be pretty taking care of the kids, I sorta doubt that I will.

The real definition of enough for me is when we're able to live with financial freedom,he he. Bukan cukup-cukup makan.(Sekarang terlebih makan sebab it's just the two of us, dah tiga nanti mungkin cukup-cukup.)Yer, saya memang vain, but we ain't working our ass off for nothing kan?

Making sacrifices biarlah yang berpada, I wouldn't want to do something that I'll regret later. Especially since the price of everything's hiking up like every freaking month tapi the paycheque adelah sometimes stagnant or going up at the speed of a siput.

I want us be able to spend time with the family whilst providing the best for em.

Yea, sounding a wee bit selfish over here, but ya see, I love what I'm doing unless lah I turned into an OCD mummy later - the one who couldn't bear being away from the kids and think others but myself are doing a sucky job in taking care of em. he he.

Maybe masa tu boleh jadi SAHM whilst doing a freelance job, online business jual tempe ke ape.

Until then, I'll stick with my job and do what I know best. Fret not, when the time comes, Allah will show us the way.

Yes?

I've been worried sick since last night.

Why?

Kerana since last night I couldn't feel any fetal movement, but being me - it's sorta expected as I freaked out a whole blardy lot. Tsk tsk. I'm way too paranoid for my own good (but gimme a break la kan, it's my 1st time.)

So yea, all is well now. Alhamdulillah. This morning after a mug of horlicks and biscuits, the baby is kicking and jumping around like nobody's business. Mungkin dia overdose makanan semalam, as I actually had a foot long Subway's subway melt and a plate of sizzling noodles shared with C***- I initially wanted to eat Subway's tapi chenta hati gatal mulut pegi menyebut sizzling noodles which sounded equally tempting, so we had both.

Yea, we ate a lot, I ate a lot - tho I wasn't that hungry to begin with. Nafsu semata-mata.

He he. Fret not, I'm still watching what I eat, there's no such thing as eating for two for me, kerana later, there's no such thing as the-misery-of-losing-weight-for-two either,saya yang kena menangung sorang-sorang. So yea, let's eat healthily walaupon sometimes terbabas. :P

So let's ramble about the 3rd checkup for a bit.

Well, our 3rd checkup marked the start of our long weekend as it was scheduled on Thursday at 3pm.

Went in to see the doc and went through the usual test(I only gained like 1kg yey! Compared to 300g last time. he he.Tapi kenapakah I feel heavy?). After the series of the usual stuff, we proceed with the ultrasound - for another peek of the lil precious. The doc did the normal measuring of the head, the length of the femur( and whatnot) and let us listen to the heartbeat.

The baby's approximately 500g now. Growing steadily and healthily. Alhamdulillah. I hope everything stays that way.


Owh yes, we're almost 100% sure of the gender now, but let's not let it out in the open just yet. he he.

On a lighter note, I think I should write something bout placenta previa(Placenta previa what? Google it!) as I was diagnosed with it during my 2nd checkup(which freaked the hell outta me). I was being told to watch for any sort of bleeding and it was scary - tho the doc did tell me that it's sorta normal to have a low lying placenta during the early pregnancy as most of the time the problem will cure itself - as the placenta will be 'dragged' upward together with the baby as the baby grows and the uterus expends - TAPI haruslah takot okeh, since if it stays that way, there's no way on earth for the mother to go for a normal birth.

Sooo..my condition did cure itself as the placenta is already moving upward and in a normal position. Alhamdulillah. God knows how worried I was over this. C*** had to remind me everyday not to worry too much. Tsk tsk.

Yea, this whole pregnancy thing is truly exhilarating and distressing all at the same time.

Well, the doc gave us another image of the lil precious for keepsake. I hafta say the baby's looking more human this time around - the big head is already gone and the limbs are all nicely proportioned. We could even see the cute nose by now.(Adelah orang tu cakap the baby got the nose from me. My nose is okie what? hehe)

I'll post the picture later, now I'm a bit too lazy for that.

Lunch's time over, it's time to eat some ubat.

Tata.

Here I am at work - whilst C***'s at home relaxing away - as the entire kilang got a day off aka cuti-untuk-menghantar-anak-ke-sekolah kerana today's the 1st day of school for the kiddies.

Ini tidak adil!

Moving on.

Well,I'm sorta late to conclude my 2010 - but it has been a blissful year for me so I'm still going to ramble about it.


o1. I spent 6 long months as someone's fiance and survived the whole cobaan-semasa-bertunang and the dreadful bridezilla phase. I remembered how I was mostly in my let's-get-it-over-it mode, penat saya dok meroyan selalu.

o2. Whilst going nuts over the wedding preparation, I was blessed with another handsome increment in the salary - which helped to ease the craziness for a bit.


03. I started a new life as a Mrs by Jun 25th, for the 1st few days, I was totally in daze. Like, God, I'm married? - but married life has been truly wonderful for me so far - except for one brief period when a psycho came knocking on our marriage just a few days after our reception(hoh, the drama), like yea, if you ask me, I'd kill to get rid of those pest for good(but of coz I didn't, kot tak I'd be in prison by now). Yea who would have thought it could be that dramatic? He he. I could ramble bout this for days, but let's not go there, the psycho can die a slow painful death for all I care.


o4. We got pregnant approximately 1 month after the wedding. It's sorta fast, I know - but I'm externally thankful for the rezeki. I mean, it's not like we're planning not to turn three within a few years or whatnot and it's good to know that we're normal enough to conceive - this bit has been bugging me for years, seriously( manusia yang tidak mengamalkan pemakanan dan gaya hidup yang sihat dengan bersenam memang suka paranoid. he he).

05. Went through my 1st Ramadhan and EID as a wife - which was sorta different in a way but wonderful all the same.


o6. I came to realize that juggling between work and marriage is sorta tough - like yea, programming codes and house chores just don't click together - so I'm determined to excel in both and am forever thankful for the ever-so-understanding other half.

o7. Received another great news from the boss in Dec - of another increment and a long awaited promotion in 2011. Alhamdulillah, the rezeki gonna come.

o8. Feel like I've lost a good friend for some kind of reason. Not something I'm proud of, but when a good friend couldn't find the guts to spill his/her dissatisfaction on your face after all those shared blood, sweat and tears , perhaps that's the end of it. I'd go a thousand miles for the sake of friendship, but I guess it's a bit too naive to expect for the same.

So that's about it, the sharable bits. I've been someone's fiance in the 1st half of 2010. C***'s wife and a mummy-to-be in the next half. It's one hell of a journey - be it career-wise or personally. Alhamdulillah.

This year,

I resolve to be a better wife, daughter, sister and muslimah.

I resolve to try not to whine too much.(Bolehkah?)

I resolve to learn more about programming - as much as my 26 years old brain can handles. (Ini adelah punca rezeki, haruslah terus maju kehadapan).

I resolve to get myself a new ride - which probably sometime in the 2nd half of the year as a gift to myself(tapi kalau C*** nak support boleh jugeeee.he he).

& I can't wait for us to turn three - having a mini us just a month before the 1st anniversary would be perfect. :)

So here's to another great year in 2011, InsyaAllah.

p/s: Will write about our 3rd checkup later. :P