| | |.of.haze.love.&.me.| | |

For some weird reasons,I just feel so LOVED today,thx to the err..haze?Within 3 hours or so,I actually received 8 phone calls.

Owh,the bad-and-it-makes-me-feel-like-faintin haze actually reminded them of me.How sweet is that?

Perhaps it should always be hazy.

*grins*

Maybe not.

Hmppp..

Love,much like haze(or life) - you just can't tell when its goin to end.

:P

| | |.of.(blank).&.me.| | |

Back in KEDAH!

Wohoo.. :P

Time to fatten up the already-blardy-fat-self.

Neway,the nite out with the teratorians(last Saturday) which filled with the sinfully good sate kajang - credit to Sis Neena - was a good one.

I actually realized that it has been quite sometime since our last meetin and sorry to the bro-on-the-15th-rank,saya seriously tak ingat siapa anda - but its nice meetin you.

Thx to Bro Kecik & Kewl for the ride.Merci.

Ghee..I had so much fun til my muscles ached. T_T

Owh,I need to get a hair-cut.Hafta remind myself bout that.

Get a hair-cut.Get a hair-cut.Get a hair-cut.*chants*

p/s: Happy August!!

| | |.of.weird.&.me.| | |

Mid term BREAK!!!!

Goin back home tomorrow,off to Kedah on the 1st flight out. :)

Miss my parents.Miss the homely-feeling and I surely miss bullyin my baby bro.

(mental note:Dont get too carried away over the temp. relief.I still have to study.Hafta study.Hafta study.Hafta study. *chants*)

Well,Ive been feelin a lil weird lately - a lil bit too weird than the usual.Comin to an extend where I actually went clueless and speechless though my extremely-talkactive-and-excited-over-nothin mode was turned on. Talkin like there's no tomorrow now and feelin all out-of-words the next min.Mon dieu,how did I manage that?

Sometimes I tried to think bout how I really feel and why,but of coz - I always stumbled into the dead end.No clear answers to satisfy the curiosity of my own feelin.So I might as well stop thinkin about it before I go haywire.

God,this is gettin weird.Im feelin weird over the fact that Im weird?How weird is that?

WARNING:Weirdo on the loose

Hmpp..

Darlings,thx for copin up with me aight?You surely have no idea bout how thankful I am now.

Terima kasih.Thank you.Mucho gracias.Merci.

p/s:How did I get so off-topic?Im supposed to talk bout the fun midterm break,dammit.

| | |.of.love.is.only.a.feelin.&.me.| | |

Love is only a feeling (Drifting away)
And we've got to stop ourselves believing (It's here to stay)
'Cos love is only a feeling
Anyway.

The Darkness - Love is only a feeling

A friend of mine just couldnt stop singin to that song everytime he called since a week back.

I used to wonder why,but not anymore.I finally got to know what happened - I pressed him for the details and apparently he just been cheated by his gf. They were together for 3 freakin years.Phew! 3 years gone down the drain.So being the friend that I am - I tried to tell him that he'll find someone better, he deserves someone better.

I tried, thats all that I could do anyway - since its not like my non-existant love life is any better than what he's goin through right now.

Well,at least Im not heart broken.

Hmmpp..

Love is surely just a feelin,a weird one.

Dont you think?

| | |.of.new.layout.&.me.| | |

NEW layout - at last!!

Ive been dying to change the layout since God-knows-when but I was BB-less before - so the urge hafta be blocked/delayed for a lil while.

Owh well,its finally done.Alhamdulillah.

Nothin fancy,nothin to shout about - coz Im runnin out of the creative juices and its not like Im that creative anyway.

Do gimme some feedback aight?

Hope that it wont sore up your eyes. ;)

| | |.of.life.&.me.| | |

Done with another I-feel-like-jumpin-from-the-5th floor week.

Lots of stuff happened since the last few days and I fairly hate all the headache that it had given me.

Well,I started off the week with a major disappointment.

My bf gave up on me though it has been fixed a month ago and I just hate the squeaky sounds that it makes everytime I steer the steering wheel.Grrrr!Hafta fix it up soon - but thx to Bro Shazuan :P for the help with the fuse thingy.Yea,bukan senang nak dpt mechanic delivary aight?hehe!Much appreciated.Mucho gracias.Merci.

Over and done with Maths 2,French and TRM test.

Went out to catch a movie with Bro Kecik on Thursday which made possible by skipping the French class,the Fantastic 4.Its quite okie I guess - since Im not really a big fan of heroes in costumes,Im childish but heroes in costumes are a lil bit too childish for me. =P

Well,right after the movie,met up with Muaz and Bro Shahar for dinner.Muaz bebeh,enjoy your summer break and keep on stuffin yourself aight?Owh yea,your cousin's surely a lil bit different than what Ive expected and isnt he a lil bit too old for the malu-malu kucing thingy?hihi!Cakap jer lebih kan?

Tons of assignments comin up and Im supposed to be all hectic and miserable but somehow,none of em really bothers me much.

Perhaps Ive turned into stone,emotionally.

Hmmmp..

Enough rambling,I hafta go and pay up the bills or we wont be havin any water supply later

Ive turned in a stone and I surely dont need to turn into a goat.

Tata.

| | |.of.wishes.&.me.| | |

I wish that the thought had never come to me.

I wish none of this had ever happened.

Mon dieu,help me.

| | |.of.promises.&.me.| | |

Everything burns
While everyone screams
Burning their lies
Burning my dreams
All of this faith
And all of this pain
I'll burn it all done
As my anger reigns

Dear,I appreciate your good will but always is too strong a word for you.So enough with all those promises aight?

I'll live,promise.

| | |.of.21.&.me.| | |

Well,happy birthday sweet 21 to Munie dearie.

Hope that everythin gonna be okie dokie for you darlin & thx for being such a great friend aight? Me luv you much. *hugs*

| | |.of.today.&.me.| | |

Tak perlu seribu bintang
Yang bertaburan dilangit sana
'Tuk malam-malam mu
Ku ada disini

Tak perlu seribu sahabat
Dengan senyum sapa dan hangat cinta
Cukup satu alasan indah
Ku ada disini

Saat semua lelahmu
Tak terbuangkan lagi
Usah kau simpan sendiri
Ku ada disini

Saat semua cintamu
Pergi dan tak kembali
Usah kau tangisi lagi
Ku ada disini

Rio Febrian - Ku ada disini

Simple and sweet,dont ya think? Neway,its just a part of the song,full lyric?Carik sendiri :P

Thx to the darlings for playin this song in an ended loop since few days back - now I just cant get it outta my head.Poor me.

Haih.. *sighs*

I crave for a major rainy-peaceful-curling-in-the-mid-of-the-bed day or I might as well be prepared for another nose-bleed-like-there's-no-tomorrow day to gimme a visit again soon.

Whats new?

Well,lots of stuff happened since few days back, 2nd thought - I have nothin to do with them,directly - but somehow, Im trapped within those massive circle of disasters which are pretty depressing.

I wanna break free,but I cant - or I wont?

Enough said bout all those depressing thought.

I had a tiring day today,feelin kinda gloomy and so were the darlings, so we had a super-heavy dinner - consist of three unknown-mispronounced-weird-lookin Iranian food.They're suprisingly good,sinfully good - with all those beef,creamy mayo and all.

Now Im feelin blary fat!

Hee..Im off to burn the xtra calories. =P

| | |.of.BB-LESS.&.me.| | |

A cute lil bird actually died on the mid of my parkin bay.Tsk..tsk..poor lil birdy and poor me coz its rottin away with the sickening smell.urgghhh

But Im still alive though.Miss me?Hee..guess not.

Im still BB-less,so do pray for me aight?

| | |.of.the.last.day.&.me.| | |

Goin back to Jurassic Park tomorrow,and SADLY - I wont be able to get online until further notice.

Why? Dont ask me why. *roll eyes*

*sighs*

So miss me not aight?I know you wont

Be good.

Wish me luck for the new sem okies?

Tata.

| | |.of.the.last.week.&.me.| | |

I had a loooong weekend and my week's pretty normal except for the added taste of nasi minyak.hehe! I actually went to my uncle's wedding (without my baju kurung.Gah gah).Not my uncle as in uncle uncle but due to some too-complicated-to-be-explained reasons,he can be considered as an uncle.The event was like a family gathering,close and extended relatives can be seen everywhere.
Spotted some of the familiar faces that I used to visit during EID but couldnt quite remember their names and some of the other guests looked vaguely familiar.Hmmpp..
How's the wedding?The weather was great,the food was okie (xcept for the fact that I couldnt eat that much due tu some unknown reasons),the groom-uncle looked quite
nervous and out of place while the bride-aunty looked yellow.I mean she looked wonderful in her yellow dress - with her fair complextion and all.Okie,I lied.She look pretty okie.I mean,sweet.Whatever.

Well,weddings.What about weddings eh?I always like weddings,the food the excitement,preparation and of coz the guests - especially the cute guys in baju melayu women that gonna look as if they are gettin married instead of the bride - but somehow since the past 2 years or so ago,attending the weddings
(especially when the bride or groom is one of the close relatives) could be rather scary - due to the endless stream of 'cepu emas' questions from the beloved aunties.Gah gah.
When are you gettin married?Dah ada boyfriend?Anak bila pulak?Dah nak bis study kan?Tak lama lagi sampai la turn tu.
Yada yada.Owh,wait a sec, its more like ask-a-question-and-answer-it-urself-ASAP session.They gonna literally shower the unfortunate victim with deadly questions and before you can even blink an eye they gonna blurt out all of their answers-cum-speculations.Hee..most of the time I'll just try to play safe - do nothin but keep on flashing the angelic smilee as long as possible while prayin hard with every fiber of my being - hopin that they gonna leave me alone in peace.

Talkin bout the match-makin thingy,it brought back memories, a hilarious one to be exact. An incident that happened almost 4 years ago.I was at my older couz wedding when a macik seriously asked my aunt bout me - for her nephew.Gah gah,it was flattering,weird, funny rolling into one and I felt like rolling on the floor myself .

How did I know?I was at a hearing distant but the macik couldnt spot me coz I was in my invisible mode.(Owh,thats when I discovered that I can switch between few modes.)Ghee..I was just 17. *roll eyes* Im still blardy childish nowadays and God knows how I was back then. No wonder nobody can bear me.

Okie.Forget bout me.All these stuff are surely not for me until I bumped into THE ONE - which is still nowhere to be seen or perhaps he's right in front of my
nose all along,waitin to be discovered.Either way its still too early to tell, unless there's an extremely drastic changes that may drag me toward these rather complicated stuff faster than I expected.

An arranged-force marriage perhaps? *shivers*

Okie,lets not get carried away.

Enough said bout me,now Im waiting for my older cousins to tie the knot - which is very very interestin to think of. *grins*
(note:Not because Im waitin for my turn mind you,its just that its fun to see someone - that used to jump around and play masak-masak with you when you were younger - finally gettin married and lookin all grown-up.Its a weird magical feelin I tell ya.)

Abg Jimmy,Kak Long,Abg Daus,Kak Lyn,Kak Na,Abg E,Abir,do me a favour will ya? Pleasseee..cepat la kawen! =P

Ghee..askin someone else to get married surely seems easy enough. hehe!

Time's up.Im off.

Tata.

p/s: Goin back to CJ this Sat.Uwaaaa.

| | |.of.nothin.&.me.| | |

| | |.of.weekend.&.me.| | |

WEEKEND!!

Okie,its not like Ive been workin my a$$ off all week long to deserve a weekend and it's not like the weekend gonna bring any different for someone who's still in the mid of the long-endless break.

But WEEKEND sounds like fun.Cmon ppl,lets say it together..

W E E K E N D!

Again.

W E E K E N D!!!!

Yes,thats more like it.

Isnt it fun?hehe!Im having fun already.huhu!Im goin mad,I know.Tell me somethin that I didnt know.

Well,Im bored over here.Humor me.Uh?That line sounds familiar?

Hmpp..

Well,my dad said that we should fly off somewhere - for a vacation since my mum and lil bro gonna be free for the next two weeks.Yea,easy for him to say - FREE in my family's dictionary doesnt mean that there-are-nothin-to-do-coz-we-r-free-from-work-or-school.It actually means we-dont-have-to-go-to-work-or-school-but-ur-brother-need-to-attend-his-tuition-and-there-are-some-other-undefined-things-to-think-of-and-to-be-settled-on-the-last-minutes.Right,the bottomline is - I'll just stay at home like usual.Fine with me,I wouldnt want it the other way either.

*roll eyes*

Okie,the whiny-me is tryin to break free.

So Im off.Tata.

| | |.of.tiring.weekend.&.me.| | |

I had a loong,fun but tiring weekend.

I had my share of being bullied by a bunch of kekanak ribena.

I had been forced to play BASKETBALL *roll eyes* by my 6 years old niece (note: she still couldnt stop calling me kakak after all those reminders from her mum "Itu aunty bukan kakak..".)Yes yes..keep on with the kakak thingy okie darlin?Im too young to be a macik. =p

Hmpp..

Gosh,I need someone to be bullied.

Off to find my victim.

Tata!

| | |.of.wishes.&.me.| | |

I wish that Im livin somewhere in North Uganda and from the Hima tribe,where nobody gonna bother if Im turnin into a blardy fat hippo coz thats just the way they like it there.They intentionally fatten up the brides and turn them into a walkin fat for the wedding - being there surely gonna shot dead every single fiber of guilt bout being fat but being so doesnt turn you into a pretty sight either.*shivers*

Owh 2nd thought,beauty is skin deep aight?

Well,whats new?

Hmm..

1 of my dearies is goin insane and it seems like there's nothin much that I can do bout it - obviously.

Be strong bro,it's all in your head.U've been through this once and it wont be that bad to run through it once again.Isnt it?Hang in there,you'll be okie.If you are readin this,gimme a call aight?Someone is worry sick bout you and Im not your PA you see?Puhhhleeeeseeee,spare me some peace of mind will ya? Im gettin sick in the head over here too.

Owh I know you love this,you always do aight? :P

You were there for summer dreaming
And you are a friend indeed
And I know you'll find your freedom

Eventually

For eternity...


p/s:I cant promise I'll heal you,but if you want to I will try - like always.Call me ASAP or else.(This is a blackmail for sure.) :P

| | |.of.someone.&.me.| | |

At this very minute~~

someone is thinking of you
someone cares about you.
someone misses you
someone wants to hold your hand.
someone wants you to be happy.
someone wants to hug you.
someone will do anything for you.
someone needs to know your love isunconditional.
someone wants to tell you how much theycare.
someone wants to stay up watching movies w/ you.
someone wants to hold you in their arms.
someone wants to see you.
someone wants to be your lover.
someone loves you for who you are.
someone loves the way you make them feel.
someone wants to be with you.
someone wants you to know they are there for you.
someone is glad that you're their friend.
someone is wishing you would notice them.
someone wants to get to know you better.
someone loves you

and

someone wants you to get the hell outta here coz you bore him/her to death.

Right,Im outta here. :P

p/s::An update - at last.Im not that malas after all you see?

| | |.of.boredom.&.me.| | |

Im GLAD.

Im thankful.

But bored.

Haih..

*sighs*

Now where are my lalings when I need em?

Lalings ooo..lalings..where are you? :(

Owh,another of this questionaire thingy - seems to act as a drivin force for me to write.

So here it goes.

1. what do your friends call you?
Dd,Dihah,Nur,Madihah,Darling,Di,Ice Queen,Martian,Monster,Iris and the latest hafta be Dit dit.

2. is your bestfriend a girl?
1 of em?Yeah.

3. do you wear make-up?
Yea,to improve the already-horrible features.

4. do you wear shoes with high heels?
I'll sprain my ankle just by thinkin of it.

5. do you like wearing dresses?
Used too.haha!Now Im too blardy fat for dresses.

6. do you have short or long hair?
Why bother?Im bald :P

7. one length or layered?
*roll eyes*

8. how long does it take you to fix yourself up?
Depends,it can be 10 mins or forever. :P

9. do you have a "makeup" kit?
Urgh?Sorta - nothin grand.Im not a moving makeup artist like my lalings.

10. if yes, what's inside?
Eyeliner & of coz the it-doesnt-make-much-different gloss.huhu!

11. how long do you take a bath?
Owh,I forgot to turn on the timer.Remind me bout it later.

12. do you use conditioner?
Only when I feel like usin one.

13. how do you dry your hair?
Uh?I'll take it off and hang it at the balcony.Shhhessh.

14. what's your usual hairstyle?
Im a freestyler hun.

15. do you panic if you have a pimple?
Panic?Are you kiddin?I fainted at the very 1st glimpse of it.hahahaha!

16. do you often go to the salon?
What salon?

17. when was the last time you went to the salon?
Uh?

18. what did you do in the salon?
Err?

19. have you ever colored your hair?
Nope.I like it black.

20. relax? rebond? have you tried those?
What?

21. do you paint your nails?
Yea - out of boredom - for fun.Gah gah.

22. what's your usual get up?
*yawns*

23. rubber shoes or sandals?
Sandals plz.Make it unique.

24. how many piercings do you have?
2

26. what brand do you use?
Cap Kaki Tiga & not to forget the beloved Kipas Udang.hahaha!

27. do you have "rituals" before sleeping?
Yea.

28. do you put cucumber on your eyes?
No,coz all em always ended up with thousand islands instead.

29. do you fix yourself anywhere?
Im not that vain - yet.haha!

31. do you have lots of crushes and share them with friends?
Lots of crushes?Yea.Share em with friends?Ambik,ambik semua.NOT!Urgh..dont mess with my crushes aight?They are all miiineeee.Thx you. =P

32. do you blush whenever you see that special person?
Special person who?

33. what do you like in a guy?
Good brain?Humor?Talkactive?

34. is it fun being a girl?
Yea,except for the fact that - there r so many stuff to cope with includin the fact that its hard to find the right stuff to wear when everythin in store nowadays looks like they are tailored for kids and partly done and the list of probs can go on and on.

35. what do you feel answering this?
*yawns* Now where's my blankie?

| | |.of.result.&.me.| | |

My result gonna come out tomorrow.*SCREAMS in terror*

I feel like dying.

Save me.

Owh,Im bored.So here goes nothin.

1) brand of ur hand phone?
SE

2) wat'll u do if u see your gf/bf hugging a girl/boy?
*waves* Walk over to them and say hi. =P

3) hav a gf/bf?
The last sec I checked - nope.

4) have ur own room?
Yea,I have my own dungeon too.Wanna see?

5) fav pet ?
Cats.

6) One thing u cant live without?
Air?haha!

7) where do u live?
In a torture chamber.Gah gah..

8) wat wud u do if sumone tells u he/she likes u?
Faint? :P

9) how are you feelin now?
Blardy scared.

10)where do you hangout?
Wherever hangable(such word?)

11) what are you good at?
Crapping

12) what is it bout a person you cant stand?
Lemme think..

13) what do you want?
Endless happiness

14) a word that describes you?
Unique? =P

15) what is ur dream?
Its P&C

16) day/nite?
Both?

17) sunset/sunrise?
Sunset

18) like a romantic bf/gf?
Why not? - not too sappy plz

19) what is it about a girl/boy thats attracts u
Dazzling-sweet-like-chocs smile?haha!

20) are you an independent person?
Positive

21) do you like school?
Yea,guess so.

22) are you stubborn?
Yea?

23) believe in God?
Absolutely

24)ur favourite sport?
None?haha!Err..skipping?Does it count?

25) believe in fate?
Yea.

26) get pissed off easily?
Depends.

27) like ur parents?
No,I LOVE my parents.

28) r u a materialistic person?
Yes and no. =P

29) believe in love?
Perhaps.

30) will u get a tattoo?
Never.

31)smoke?
Nope - I still plan to live for another 100 years.Thx u.

32) club / pub?
Neither?

33) wil u forgive ur gf/bf if he/she cheats on u?
We'll see bout that hun.

35) were u on a trip recently?
Yea.

36) fave country?
Malaysia?haha!

37) r u impatient?
Depends

38) r u horny?
No.

39) do u organise parties often?
No.

40)do u hav good friends?
Hell ya.

41) do u think u r good-looking?
Maybe not.

42) do u care about your looks?
Perhaps.

43) do you think that you're a good gf/bf?
Haha!I'll think of that later.

45) do you quarrel with people easily?
Well,I like to argue with ppl for fun.Gah gah..

46) are you forgiving?
Sort of.

47) do you get hurt easily?
Depends.

48) do you prefer girls wit long/short hair?
Err..

49) do u prefer guys wid long/short hair?
Either.

50) is ur hair colored?
Uu..aa..its green. =:P

51) are you a romantic?
At times.Eww.. =P

52) do you wear a watch?
Sure.I feel naked without it.

53) what color clothes do you like?
Black?

54) will you chose love or money?
Both?

55) do u prefer eat or sleep?
Me luv eatin.

56) white or black?
Black plz.

57) pink or red?
Red.

58) fav flower?
No idea.Roses?

59) brand of ur watch?
Swatch

60) brand of ur car?
Perodua - bloodsuckin kembara.Haha!

Done.
Im off.

P/s:Wish me luck will ya?