You guessed it right, I'm still juggling between my geeky & bridezilla modes, hence the lack of update.

Reckon that I'll stay this way until the very last week before the big day.

Work is crashing in, like tidal waves, calm one minute and tsunami during the other. Owh sungguh serabut but I can't complaint, I love being a java programmer, no? I love the mind-blowing struggles, no? I love my flexi job, no? I love being a computer slave with a good paycheque for my impulsive shopping spree, no?

He he. So yea, hafta refrain myself from whining for a bit.

Anyway, a farewell cum birthday party is going to be held for a cousin this weekend & I'm invited but I'm yet to RSVP, kerana...C***'s is planning to drag me back to Malacca to work on the big day stuff as we need to work on it ASAP(kerana time is running out) & juga kerana future MIL adelah agak senggang to help on the related stuff this weekend(yea, C*** is one lucky fella I tell you, his mum handles everything,sungguh relax.he he)

So how now brown cow?

Tsk..well nevermind. Lets think about it over a wonderful bowl of cubed mangoes.

Okay lah, saya nak balik makan mangga( thx love, nanti balik Malacca saya nak banyak2 lagi).

Tata.

WARNING: Another bridezilla entry ahead.

I'm tired. My head is juggling between work and what on earth am I suppose to have for door gifts.

It's exhausting.

Perhaps I'm just fussy and complicated as C*** on the other hand is worry-free, I bet he's hanging out with his bff whilst sipping on coconut shake now since he's still on leave. *pouts*

If you ask me, I would paper-wrap an apple(an apple a day keeps the doc away,no?),then kasi sorang satu. Senang. Hassle free, tapi kalau rasa macam nak menerima pandangan keji - tapi bukan by my loving parents mind you,but the kepochii mekciks - sila la buat. Well, I don't really bother bout the pandangan keji part, tapii......well, nevermind.

Talking bout the door gifts, I'm going to get myself a personalized rubber stamp, with one of those fancy swirls(thx a bunch for the much needed help bro) and all. I hafta start working on it asap.

On a lighter note, I've booked the photog for my 2 days events in Kedah(which I hope gonna be awesome and hassle free) and we're done with our wedding invitation cards,well, almost. :D

We decided to go for something simple and the cards are going to come in 2 batches of different colors. Sparkling dark brown and light gold. Ini adelah kerana saya we couldn't make up our minds so we decided to do both(yea, surprise surprise, it doesn't come in white or pink or peach,kan saya dah cakap theme color tu sangat impulsive). he he.

I'm the most disorganized bridezilla ever. Tsk tsk.

So don't ask me what you should wear to the reception, anything will do(except for those cousins and bff yang awal2 dah tanya nak pakai color ape,sila lah pilih color creame or peach or pale pink or a mix of everything.haha),I'm having a rainbow-themed wedding or maybe not. :P

Well,I'll be spending the weekend with the cousins, it has beeen ages since the last time so yea, have a great weekend. I'll be enjoying mine.

Tata.

I'm back from a week of blissful break and I'm glad to say that I've managed to strike off some of the major items in my to-do list.Such a relief. Haih.

Owh, how I love the productive break, let me count the ways,

1. We are a step closer to the wedding attires, but since we couldn't find anything that we(or should I say, I) like (dan memusnahkan harapan untuk menjadi cheapskate dengan sewa baju yang murah) so we went ahead and booked for a new custom-made wedding dress in off-white(wish literally gonna look like a dress) with pastel peachy-pink beading and a matching attire for C***.
   
   Yea, no baju melayu hang tuah for him tho he still gets to wear the songket and all.he he.
   


2. I am very impulsive, hence the fact that I got myself a garden themed dais. I saw it at one of the bridal boutiques and I'm hooked, padahal saya bukan nak garden wedding pon.Apekah?
   
   Owh well, it's lovely and it's just for cam-whoring sake(yer saya tak bersanding in Kedah, but we gonna have it in full blast in Malacca, the tukar baju like 8 kali and all that), so nevermind.
   


3. Bought a set of lovely fabrics for the bilik pengantin's curtains but yet to think of how to decorate the 4 post bed. Hmpp..drapes kah?


4. Found someone to decorate the staircase with white drapes and white & pale pink roses.


5. Yea, if you're wondering, I'll be having a white, peaches and pink wedding. :P Tetiba dah dapat theme color, I'm spontaneous just like that.

So that about it.

Owh, on a lighter note, we got the wedding ring, mine that is, as C***'s is still out there, somewhere. :P

Let me remind you again on how excruciating it is to ring-hunt for guys as I got mine whilst we were having our weekend stroll in the mall,sungguh mudah sekali dan sangat impulsive, I blame the abg kedai for saying that it looks nice on moi finger,

but fret not, as we got 2 shortlisted jewelers in mind and hope to get a decent one for C*** - kerana ring for guys could be too expensive(yang mungkin mampu beli 10 thn lagi) or too murah sampai rasa macam keji kalau nak beli for wedding, like C*** might gimme the "saya kasi awak ring mahal,ni jer yang awk kasi saya?" he he, but lemme get it straight, C*** wouldn't mind a bit, tak pakai ring lagi dia suka kot? :P

Well,rings aside, we already got our hands on the matching watches at a good bargain, another tick to mark off the hantaran list.

Owh, work is kinda slow today as most of everyone I'm working with is still on cny break,so I'm off for my half day leave, something urgent came up.

So later.

Hellllooww stalkers!

Sorry for the lack of updates, I've been busy with the UAT and it's sucky.

I hate it when it-works-on-my-local-server-but-not-in-uat-server problem happened. The debugging is such a grueling process, especially when there's no blardy error message. Like, kenape takde error tapi tak jalan? Kenapeeee?

Tsk tsk. & the fact that we can't debug the UAT ourselves just worsen the pain. Debug, send to QA team, they would deploy, then you hafta check then if it's still not working, kindly repeat those steps above sampai mati. Thankyouverymuch.

The price you hafta pay for working in a big company, procedure this,procedure that.Bende 2 minit jadi 2 jam. Haih.

Anywaaayy,

job aside, I still haven't ramble bout my productive weekend and I have no mood for that as it deserves a proper post and I ain't got time for that, yet.

Well, I'm off back home today.A week off from work baby! & C*** is heading up north next week to work on the big day stuff.

So yea, have a great CNY break and be safe.

Ciou!

The story I'm about to share is not meant to harm anybody.

I just have the need to express my stand on this, nothing more nothing less.

& since I rarely write about the whole relationship thingy,so this is rather absurd.

So yes, a friend of mine, whom I met sometime during the undergrad years got married last year, to his high school sweethearts(regardless the fact that he's a bad ass player and cheated on her a couple of times ). A few days back, out of the middle of nowhere, he asked

"Babe, you know my story, so whaddaya think on why she's willing to be married to me? Would you do the same if you're in her shoes?"

Like,errr..why are you asking me this kinda question again? he he.(Seriously what were you thinking? I'm no love doctor ya know?)

Since I was busy with my codes and whatnot, I told him that I'll get back to him later as I need to sleep on it, ya know, kena pikir dengan mendalam. :P

So yea, it got me thinking.

Well, if you ask me. I would surely say that she loves him and she's very forgiving(& somehow believe that he'll change for the better).

As I won't do the same. Ape? Kau tipuuu? Kawen? No thank you.

Nasib baek on your car and not your head.he he

If marriage is a gamble, I would at least get into it with someone I love and trust and knowing those stuff that he did, the trust is as good as gone. Nada. Kaput.

& I am not willing to spend my entire life being paranoid over the stuff that the other half did or might do. Like, owh naper dia tetiba kena keja masa weekend? Tapi call tak dapat? Adekah dia pegi berdating? Pegi gua tempurung ke? Maybe I should put a gprs tracking device on his car.

Love without trust just won't work in my book.24/7 asyik risau jer, nanti boleh mati cepat. :P

& I'm an all or nothing at all type of person *control freak alert*.

I want all of loved one or nothing at all as I'm not big on sharing(yer, I know someone who doesn't mind sharing as long as dia tidak diabaikan), but not me, humans are not good in being fair, as much as we would like to think that we are good in equalities, I beg to differ - as human can't run from favoritism.

We bought a new bag, we'll somehow neglect the old one, beli kasut baru,then pakai kasut baru ulang2, kasut lama buat-buat tak nampak, okay that's material, but ya got the drift.

So yea, sharing is not my virtue. Saya memang tamak(when it comes to love and affections) just like that. Sila cari orang lain untuk dikongsi, thankyouverymuch.

That's about it.

Will write about my productive weekend later.

Have a great week.

Ciou.

I noticed the same stalkers(since they would come everyday but never leave a comment/trace except for those ips, yer I stalk the stalkers, I'm a geek just like that) coming in a bunch of time everyday, probably expecting to see a new post(ha ha), excusez moi, I'm just caught up in one of my rarest modes.

I have tonnes to ramble about but I'm just tired.

My body is not, but my mind is.

Maybe I think too much, perhaps I need to pop some chill pills. I dunno.

It's disheartening when you're all warmed up over something and someone would go "what's the fuss?" macam when you're serious about something and tetiba ade orang cakap "hoh, yang kalut2 ni kenapa?".

What the fuss you asked? Wait till I stop to give a blardy rat's ass about everything and you would be sorry.

If I wanna fuss over something, let me be.

That's how my system works, that's how I operate.

I fuss over something to get it over with - as when I'm not, you should be worried.

I'm absurd just like that.

Okayy, rant's over.

Well, I'll be taking a long break during CNY, need to work on some big day stuff back at home. We're yet to confirm on the wedding dress, dais, door gift and whatnot, but since C***'s heading up North sometime during the break, I hope we could sort things out.

Penat ah dok pikiaq hari-hari tapi takkkk settle jugak. Tsk tsk.

On a lighter note, we've found someone who could work on the wedding invitations. Nothing fancy(less if more,no?), none of those hardcover stuff,kerawang2 sampai 4-5 muka surat as we won't splurge on the cards(membazir itu amalan syaitan as nobody would bothers to keep the card anyway,I would rather use the money for another bag),

I would simply buy a 40cents cards if I could, tapi obviously lah tak boleh. :P *cue macik-macik memberi pandangan yang keji*

Owh well, that's about it, I'm off for another series of shopping sprees this weekend with C*** (as someone deserves a serious session of hectoring). Woot!

I'm off now. Have a great weekend.

Ciou.

You hafta listen to this(tetiba jer paksa), I think it's just so freaking cool and comel that it somehow managed to ring again and again in my head like there's an imaginary cd stuck on replay.Betul.

The 1st 20 secs of the song reminded me of candy land with marshmallow trees, chocolate fountains and the sort, ya know, those stuff in Charlie and the chocolate factory, only better. The rest of the song gives me this weird I'm jumping from cloud to cloud feeling which tickles.Well, at least that's how I feel, ya know, somewhat dreamy, or maybe it's just me. :P

Leave my door open just a crack.
Cause I feel like such an insomniac.
Why do I tire of counting sheep?
When I'm far too tired to fall asleep

Well, the weekend was great.

We had fattening food(at a crowded eating-place with our baju kurung and sharply ironed shirt,hah,sungguh out of place) and the kursus was okie, fun and informative tho some of the speakers were sorta hmpp..well, boring, specifically those who laugh at their own jokes,not my favorite.

Sunday was tough as someone was having a hard time to stay awake(it wasn't me :P) so once we're done with everything, I dragged him for a caffeine-fix at the st*buck next door as he still hafta drive me home, so might as well give him some caffeine-boost no? Sleepiness & driving never make good friends.

That's about it, I'm having my Tuesday-blues now.

Owh have a great week.

p/s:I'm yearning for a special dinner, C*** jom! (Darling,anywhere fabulous with squid please :x )