♥of.broke.&.me.♥

I'm broke but I'm happy
I'm poor but I'm kind
I'm short but I'm healthy, yeah
I'm high but I'm grounded
I'm sane but I'm overwhelmed
I'm lost but I'm hopeful baby

- Alanis Morissette - Hand In My Pocket

Broke?

Yea,I'm this close *showing fingers that are being put closely together* to be broke. No thanks to my inefficiency to manage my hard earned money(I'm a total contradiction of myself sometimes) and her.

Seriously, my financial stability started to go haywire from here. There are like loads of stuff to be replaced,yes the bag was my treasure chest. Someone was even surprised about the amount of treasure that I kept in it. Things that are crucial and a must have, for me - to an extend that I almost(almost je la) sure that I could survive on an isolated island for days(yes,I'm very optimistic) with nothing but that particular bag.

C*** warned me bout the replacing rules - one at a time, just one at a time.

"Rome was not built in a day, so is your abundant treasure chest - it looked like a lifetime collection to me,sikit-sikit la beli balik dear" but of course,the ignorance in me simply gave it a clueless,blank stare.What rule? Owh well, the price to pay for not heeding the words of the elder-ly(:P), but at least I know that he'll always be there for me.(Owkay,the line is getting a wee bit corny here,so what? I like corny.Owh perhaps not much of corny,I like corn actually, the food - the buttered corn specifically.Oh nyum!)

Lets rejoice in that too good to be true fact. * Natasha Bedingfield - Love like this, playing in the background *

So yea,I'm (almost)broke but I'm happy. (^_^)

♥of.hectic.&.me.

Life's hectic. Tres hectic and it seems like I've been reduced to an update/week - tho it's not as hectic, I fret that my current workload is not too interesting to write about either. What could be so interesting about doing the routine system maintenance and brain splattering programming? Sometimes I feel like a robot that needs to be reprogrammed once in while myself - ya know, to re-defined the algo, undefined index, variables in life and whatnot.

Occay,workload aside - lets not be depressed on Monday shall we?

Now,on the brighter side. I had a good 1/2 weekend(read:Fun Saturday and fairly boring Sunday since C*** had to work & me being dateless again.).

So,we spent the entire Saturday in Kajang for C***'s i-entrepreneur thingy. While he was busy hunting down the prospects, I was busy hunting for a new pair of sandal - coz my expensive pretty peep toe wedge was killing me, I almost ended up with a new batch of blisters. Sangat miserable, you simply can't look and feel pretty,wonderful and whatnot when your feet are burning. So yea, I managed to get my hands on a pretty decent sandal and C*** was amazed at how efficient I am when it comes to shopping,as always. :P

Besides shopping & bullying C***,weekend wouldn't be as fun without the fattening food, and being in Kajang, the we are famous for our satay therefore you hafta have it before leaving town, my mind was totally wiped clean from any other food crave of the weekend thought.

C***:"What's for dinner dear?Ape best kat Kajang ni?"
Me:"Err..satay kajang?"

After a few pounds heavier & dangerously higher in calories. We got back home,stuffed and happy.Perhaps not too happy for C*** since he hafta sacrifice his precious weekend and got himself back to Rawang to entertain his workload on the next day, while I stayed at home doing nothing,until I was utterly bored and decided to go for another spring cleaning(again). Well,yea it helps. You just need to have all the cleaning tools and a bunch of imagination. Imagination? What for you might ask.Well, you could simply imagine that you are scrubbing the _____(the name of the hateful person here)'s face instead of your toilet,sink or something. The power of imagination you see?

Thank God for imagination, at least I'm not feeling miserable but quite content and happy. :P

♥of.blardy.weekend.&.me.♥

3 words for the weekend. SUCKS BIG TIME.

Even the crappy weekend during the good old days in Jurassic Park seems to be load of fun.

*sighs*

This is what happened when you ended up staying at home through the entire blardy weekend with nobody to go out with ( owh,going out with the darlings is not an option if you don't plan a week ahead - this is mandatory ever since they got themselves involved) & the only person who was kind enough to ask you out is like the person that you could never say yes to, no matter how dreadful, sad, lonely, pathetic, bored you are - due to unavoidable reasons (read:How is it possible to go out with someone who clearly keen of being more than friends - regardless of your current attachment - and God knows what the frustration, loneliness and anger feeling might lead you to,I could already see a HUGE red warning sign with 'NO,DON'T GET YOURSELF INTO IT' written on it - so yea no backup plan for me. Tempting, but I just can't.Kebodohan apekah ini?)

Pathetic.Utterly pathetic.

Perhaps I should start looking for a new bunch of single & you can count on me for a last minute date friends.

Benefits:

o1: So I won't be budged to have the ultimate urge to strangle the other half when he got things to do and somehow didn't show up when he said he would - but later didn't cause he 'kindly' asked me whether he should come or not when I was at the brink of my patience and couldn't be bothered about being nice anymore - but dare to casually ask me about my tormented wonderful weekend and told me that he's sorry. Are you really?

o2:So I won't be suffering from the massive headache of confusion and boredom.

o3:So I won't be feeling stupid for waiting and angry for not having other things to do. Bodoh piang. Tersangat. Even worst than the feeling that I felt when I stared blankly and failed to solve my com graphic calculation question crap during the midterm test light years ago.

I don't know whether it's me being overly-sensitive or him being unthoughtful, but the strike is on.

p/s: Sometimes it's best not to care too much.

♥of.26.&.me.♥

Tuesday blues.

My week off ended today,so yeah I'm feeling pretty blue & green - with envy.

2 of my friends just got engaged. 1 of them used to be the lelaki idaman malaya,the I do nothing but crush gurls' hearts into pieces kinda guy and the other is a sis that I used hang out with during my undergrad years. I'm happy for them,really - tho,the news came to me like a huge tidal wave. Dragging me to a weird realization that someday,somehow I'll be there too,tied up in the exact situation - regardless of how inscrutable, weird, funny, ganas, lorat, horrifying I am.

Surely someone was created with me in mind right? At least C*** seems to fit the mold,so far. :P

Owh,few days back.While I was busy stuffing myself up while having my daily dose of cartoons.Mum came over, sat next to me and we started talking and somehow, the I don't wanna say much about it aka marriage topic, got into the conversation and mum casually added "Anak,tell that bf of yours that you hafta get married before you turn 26".

& being the don't argue with your mum else akan menjadi si Tanggang and I am too busy getting fat while enjoying my cartoons me, I simply replied,"Owh,okie." - (5 minutes later,it's like, what was I thinking? Pbbtt!)

Well Mummy,I already told him that,yesterday. He said "26?Owh boleh boleh" - while nodding his head and flashing his signature smirk.

Sangat menyakinkan bukan?

Yea right,before 26 it is. :P

♥of.padi.&.me.♥

Someone just found her padi, it has been one hell of a journey eh darling? I'm glad everything turned out to be fine for you. Wishing you a lifetime of happiness.

Yea,perhaps we should celebrate - but not until I sort things out with my padi, you know how I hate being like this. It's like being happy and sad,fluctuating between love and hate. A mixed feeling and it's miserable. I loath the thought of feeling clingy and miserable, at least not when I should be feeling out of the world for you,but somehow you'll ended up listening to my pathetic stories instead. Sangat menyedihkan.

Well,no matter how pathetic I'm feeling right now,just so ya know.I'm very happy for you darling.Seriously.

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I'm going back to KL tomorrow.

p/s:I hate feeling like this,no thx to you.

♥of.holiday.&.me.♥

Brief update.

I'm going back home tomorrow,will need to apply for a half day leave - so I'll be able to blast off to KLIA in time to catch my flight at 5.10 p.m.

A week off from work & KL! I can't wait!

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Owh yea, managed to get a replacement sim card for my Maxis - which is an utter bliss - & thx to C*** for being the saya sangat sabar orangnye walaupon anda banyak songeh darling. What would I do without you,again. :P The ultimate mon cher cum loan shark ever. Teehee...

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I need to drop by the Silk Street for a quest later after work - not for myself but for my mum since I've promised her that I'll help her to buy a suit or two.

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My baby brother's flight to Europe is within few hours. Saya sangat la sedih kerana tidak dapat ikot.Sob sob. The price to pay for having a job.
So, lepas ni bila seseorang tu dah kaya,boleh ke saya tanak keja? :P

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Back to work.

Need to fill up the application for leave form ASAP.

Owh, HAPPY CNY. Do mail/bank-in/money transfer my ang pau. Contact me for details. :P

Tata.