♥.of.1st.day.&.me.♥

1st day at work = utter boredom.

Sob.sob.

Nothin much to do during the 1st day but entertaining the customers - coz I'm stucked in the Business & Sales Department.I'm gettin sick with the smilin from ear to ear coz I'm damn angelic thingy. All the muscles on my face are starting to ache.
I need something else to keep me busy - a bunch of my field related works,an amusement or something.

*sighs*

Well...

I'm off to do nothing.

p/s:Perhaps I could humor myself by giving everyone a call,"Feel free to use the net and the phone,it's FREE" - Manager. Ehem,me likey! >:)

♥.of.freedom.&.me.♥

And I never thought I'd feel this way
And as far as I'm concerned
I'm glad I got the chance to say
That I do believe I love you

And if I should ever go away
Well then close your eyes and try
To feel the way we do today
And then if you can remember

Keep smilin'
Keep shinin'
Knowing you can always count on me for sure
That's what friends are for
For good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more

That's what friends are for

Well you came and opened me
And now there's so much more I see
A so by the way I thank you

And then for the times when we're apart
Well then close your eyes and know
These words are coming from my heart
And then if you can remember.

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I A M F R E E!

Alhamdulillah, I still can't believe that the most awaited day is finally here.

It feels like heaven wonderful.

Darlings, give yourself a pat on the shoulder aight? We made it.

Thanks, terima kasih daun keladi, merci, gracias for everything ya.

Me love you, Te quiero, Je te kiffe.You're my rock.

Do gimme a visit sometimes. I'll wait. ;)

♥.of.Final.&.me.♥

I never knew
I never knew that everything was falling through
That everyone I knew was waiting on a cue
To turn and run when all I needed was the truth
But that's how it's got to be
It's coming down to nothing more than apathy
I'd rather run the other way than stay and see
The smoke and who's still standing when it clears and

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind

Let's rearrange
I wish you were a stranger I could disengage
Just say that we agree and then never change
Soften a bit until we all just get along
But that's disregard
You find another friend and you discard
As you lose the argument in a cable car
Hanging above as the canyon comes between and

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head

And suddenly I become a part of your past
I'm becoming the part that don't last
I'm losing you and its effortless
Without a sound we lose sight of the ground
In the throw around
Never thought that you wanted to bring it down
I won't let it go down till we torch it ourselves

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind

Everyone knows
She's on your mind

Everone knows I'm in
Over my head
I'm in over my head
I'm over my

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head

The Fray - Over My Head

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My 1st paper will be on May 23rd,gonna be over and done with my FINAL final xms on 25th.Then I'm so outta here.

The day that I've been waiting for since God knows when is just around the corner.How wonderful is that?hihi.

Break a leg for the final xm darlings.Bonne Chance.

Mon Dieu,aidez moi.

p/s:Awak ade rase tak ape yg orang rase? ;))

♥.of.relief.&.me.♥

ONE word.

A L H A M D U L I L L A H.

Mon Dieu,MERCI.

♥.of.all.at.sea.&.me.♥

Silence is empty, filled with breaths from mouths
that never move no more

she talked some more, she talks now

and all the lights went out in empty rooms
and now the empty hall

I talk alone, i talk now

And all I wanted was a Chance to see you anyway

hold me, fold me up in your arms
faster, my love, sinking and gone

I was aware the time, I was a son before i met you dear

I talk alone, i talk now

and all the lights go out in empty rooms
and now the dirty hall

I talked alone, I talk now
And all I wanted was a Chance to see you anyway

Hold me, fold me up in your arms
Faster, my love, shrinking and gone

Hold me, my love
Telling me don't be afraid
Wouldn't you want me to swim
Wouldn't you want me to stay?

Hold me my love
Telling me won't be afraid
Wouldn't you want me to swim
Wouldn't you want me to stay

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It has been quite sometime since I actually got addicted to a song,but today - I found a new addiction.Wowee..

I absolutely love All at Sea. o_O

I fell in love with this song the very first time I heard it in CSI Miami 421 and it has been killing me to find the mp3 - since the singer tu tak popular langsung is rather ehem..mysterious. :P

Owh well,another song in an endless loop coming up.Yey me.

p/s:I'm still not free for movies,so don't call,pray for me instead.

♥.of.dead.tired.&.me.♥

I've never been so TIRED in my life.Super penat. Sob.

I wish that everything gonna be over and done ASAP.

Owh,someone called me up just to sing this again

Whatever Didi wants, she's gonna get it
Whatever Didi wants, she's gonna get it
Whatever Didi wants, she's gonna get it
Whatever Didi wants, she's gonna get it
Whatever Didi wants, she's gonna get it
Whatever Didi wants, she's gonna get it
Whatever Didi wants, she's gonna get it
Whatever Didi wants, she's gonna get it

I wouldn't walk 500 miles, when I could fly coach
But almost anything
I wouldn't swim, across the nile
When I could get a amoebic disentary

I would do almost anything for you
Cause if there's anything you want
I'll probably get it
Just tell me what you need
I'll try not to forget it
You need someone to blame
I'll say I said it
Whatever Didi wants, she's gonna get it

I wouldn't climb the highest mountain
Could get a blister, but almost anything
I wouldn't throw coins in a fountain
I may be needing to make a phone call

I'd call you collect whenever I could
Cause if there's anything you want
I'll probably get it
Just tell me what you need
I'll try not to forget it
You need someone to blame
I'll say I said it
Whatever Didi wants she's gonna get it

You are so beautiful
You are so beautiful to me
We're gonna try an' get it right

It doesn't seem, like you're a million
Miles away, no. But maybe one or two
That doesn't mean, I never loved you
I love you long time, when you're on top of me

I love you as much as anyone could
Cause if there's anything you want
I'll probably get it
Just tell me what you need
I'll try not to forget it
You need someone to blame
I'll say I said it
Whatever Didi wants, she's gonna get it

Whatever Didi wants, she's gonna get it
Whatever Didi wants, she's gonna get it
Whatever Didi wants, she's gonna get it

How..err....sweet? No,that's not the word.Owh yea,how amusing coz you sounded a lil bit like the little frog that we used to catch when we were in school. :P

Well, I do need someone to be blamed and yell at.Do you mind?

♥.of. .&.me.♥

Throughout my blogging years, sometimes I find it hard to put the right title for some particular posting,BUT this is surely not the case for everybody(obviously).

So wonder why I decided to stick with of. .&.me. thingy? Mystery solved! :P

By the way,have you ever been in a situation when you're dead curious to find out bout the title of a catchy song that you heard on the way to school/work?

Well,the fastest solution, simply type any part of the lyric that was religiously repeated throughout the song,(e.g. type move along lyric for All American Reject - Move Along, the move along was repeated for 100 thousand times) then wallaaa!! Mystery solved again.

BUT(note:another BIG butt but again),what if, it is this song(yes,kindly click there - when no one is watching & make sure that you're 18 & above).Please note that the song title is Sunrise.

So,did you notice any sunrise being mentioned in the lyric? (do exclude the backup singer echo-ing thingy)

Yes?

No?

Once? Or twice?

That gonna be a tough one to catch eh? :P

p/s:Guys,I'm not asking you to watch the sexy video with intense concentration okie? Happy listening.

♥.of.40.&.me.♥

o1. What is it about you that people don't really notice?
I'm not good with words & sometimes I tend to be deadly sensitive over silly lil stuff which is rather weird.

o2. What do people commonly mistake you for?
Being a Chinese instead of a Malay when I was little & being school kid instead of a 21++ yrs old monster that I am.

o3. Are you insecure?
Nope,not really.Am feelin fairly safe. :P

o4. Do you think you deserve better?
Yes & no.

o5. Do you find it easy to trust people?
Not really.My trust is somethin hard to gain.

o6. Do you have a really big secret?
No, I guess.

o7. If yes, how many people have you told about it?
:P

o8. How are you when you get mad?
How?God knows.I rarely get mad at people but it won't be pretty if I do.I usually fade into the background until I'm feelin normal again.

o9. What do you do when you're bored?
Owh it depends,you might find me listening to my fav music or looking for someone to be bullied.Ehem.

10. Do you smoke?
Am sticking with my plan to live longer.

11.Do you mind smokers in your company?
Not really,as long as they don't smoke right in front of my face.

12. Do you think watching the sunset or the stars is fun?
Perhaps.Me luv star gazing tho.

13. Do you like the rain?
Like them? Are you kidding? I LOVE them.

14. What can you say about poetry?
A nice thing to do when you're feeling all flowery and mushy inside. :P

15. Are you a phone person?
Perhaps.

16. Do you believe in fate and destiny?
Surely do.

17. What song best describes how you feel now?
Lionel Richie - Easy

18. What impossible thing do you want to do right now?
Finish up the FYP by tomorrow? :P

19. What is missing in your life right this moment?
Err..a pet?

20. Are you happy with the way things are going in your lovelife?
Lovelife? Do I even have one?

21. What do you have to say about your previous lovelife?
Nada.I'm just lame and kiddish so I don't really have any. :P

22. Where were you today?
The owh so wonderful campus.

23. What did you do today?
Went to class. *yawns*

24. Who were you with today?
Munie.

25. What are you planning to do now?
Keep of searching for the evil ISO certified companies for my TRQ assignment.

26. Star sign?
Virgo

27. Last night out? Where?
Nowhere.

28. Song playing now?
Alter Bridge - Open your eyes.

29. Before this song?
Brian Mcknight - Moody's mood for love

30. What were you doing before this?
Whined.

31. Now?
Still whining while filling these educational thingy.

32. Last movie watched?
Sleepy hollow.(yes,another rerun.)

33. Trusted someone whom you shouldn't have?
I've been real careful but did I?

34. Next big event?
Gettin out of school forever!

35. Best game ever played?
Err..hasee bounce on neopet. :P

36. Languages you can understand?
Malay,English & some French.

37. First thing you wanna do after your exams?
Retail theraphy.

38. The things you did there?
Err..shopping?

39. Best story ever read?
Sidney Sheldon - Master of the game.

40. What are you gonna do after this?
Whine some more.ha!

♥.of.shine.&.me.♥

Am singing to Shannon Noll - Shine though it's rainin cats and dogs over here. A song with a splash of we're goin to graduate soon aura in it.I just can't wait to finish school, but the idea of growing up is rather scary.

Owh,we (moi & Mun) had a good talk with Kayla and her sis yesterday during our shopping spree - which got me feelin all excited,anticipated and somehow creepy inside.

All those thoughts left me feelin jaded, dead tired - mentally.

On another note.I miss my parents,miserably.

This sem feels like the longest 4 months ever.Well,as much as I miss them, I'm not afraid to be far from them (I guess).I wanna go far,perhaps I could make it to places if God willing.Someday,I plan to see the world (but right now, I'd settle for writing about it). :P

I wish I could have a looooonger weekend, for me to kick back and do nothing(though there are piles of stuff to be done).

Am so not ready for Monday.

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Get up, get out, get out, get out and lift your head
Come on, come on, get up out of bed
Today's the day you hold the world with your song
Go now, go now, go now, help escalate
Angels come down, help with this parade
To hear your voice ring out
Come on and shout it
Let your song be heard

This is the time
This is the day that we've been waiting for
All the world will stop to watch you shine

Hey now, hey now, hey now, hey now sing your hymn
This is the new national anthem
We will all stand on guard to let you be heard
Let go, let go, let go all the cannons
How beautiful this world has become
Now everyone will see what I believe
That these words should be sung

This is the time
This is the day that we've been waiting for
All the world will stop to watch you shine
This is the time
This is the day that we've been waiting for
All the world believes that you will shine

♥.of.prayer.&.me.♥

Somehow today feels like Dionne Warwick - I'll say a lil prayer day.Yeah, the oldies.

Oldies + studying for Expert System just don't click together,but then again,

w h o c a r e s? :P


The moment I wake up
Before I put on my makeup
I say a little pray for you
While combing my hair now,
And wondering what dress to wear now,
I say a little prayer for you

Forever, and ever, you'll stay in my heart
and I will love you
Forever, and ever, we never will part
Oh, how I love you
Together, forever, that's how it must be
To live without you
Would only mean heartbreak for me.

I run for the bus, dear,
While riding I think of us, dear,
I say a little prayer for you.
At work I just take time
And all through my coffee break-time,
I say a little prayer for you.

Forever, and ever, you'll stay in my heart
and I will love you
Forever, and ever we never will part
Oh, how I'll love you
Together, forever, that's how it must be
To live without you
Would only mean heartbreak for me.


The notes are calling,Im off. :P

♥.of.today.&.me.♥



I woke up this morn feelin sleepy,dead sleepy.Pegi ke skolah dgn mata minda yang separa sedar.Feelin more or less the same until I got this one,particular text msg during the 5 mins break which amused me to the bones.Huha..the power of technology but its rather useless if you're being barred by the telco or once you ran out of credits/air time.

Well, I don't feel like writing,but thanks to a darl - for consistently reminding me of who I am - a crappy blogger.So this posting is for you. :P

So okie, I just finished watching Pet Sematary yesterday.I watched the 1st half of it ages ago and I seriously felt like I won't be watching the rest of it - I actually hate the movie because it's just plain creepy.Imagine,the once owh so adorable lil boy was brought back to life (he was dead,ran over by a HUGE truck) and turned into a pure evil.Keji betul tukar budak comel jadi jahat.Grrrr...Okie, it's an OLD movie & obviously not the 'in' thing anymore,but I have the right to crap bout anything that I (and not you) want,remember? :P

Owh yea,went to the Women's Week opening ceremony right after class earlier this morn.The opening was okie,just okie.Nothing more nothing less.If I'm not one of the comtt, there's no way that I'll drop by just to look at one of those Sendayu Tinggi,Nutrimetic(?) booths or listen to one of those typical talks.Boring.+ve. plus THE QUEEN of all despisedness is there. O_o

*sniff*

I smell hatred.Lets just not go there.

Aha,something to brighten your my day.

E S O K C U T I !

Tak payah gi skolah.Wee..

Lets say it together people.

E S O K C U T I!

p/s :Tapi tidak cuti kepade seorang budak mengade/ bonnie that lies over the sea itu.Jangan jeles. :P

♥.of.sept.&.me.♥

What my birth month say bout me? =P

Lets check it out,shall we?

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SEPTEMBER

Active and dynamic.

Decisive and haste but tends to regret.Sometimes,perhaps.

Attractive and affectionate to oneself.

Strong mentality.Owh,merci.

Loves attention.Who doesn't?

Diplomatic. :P

Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems.I hope

Brave and fearless.err..really?

Adventurous.Owh,very

Loving and caring.Especially if they are cute and can be bullied

Suave and generous.Hee.. :P

Usually you have many friends. Thx God.

Emotional.Heee?Am I?

Stubborn.Hurahh!!

Hasty.Tralalala..hasty me

Good memory.With some occasional amnesia.

Moving, motivates oneself and others.Motivate me please

Loves to travel and explore.Owh yes,soon

Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can understand.Me?Sexy?haha!

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Well okie,you got me.I'm bored.Maybe not that bored.I'm stressed out.Very.

So help me God.

♥.of.uneasy.&.me.♥

I've been feeling quite uneasy lately,burdened by the thought of the works that seems to be endless. The more I work on them, the more they grow. Simply tiring, suffocating.

Tons of stuff to done within the next 3 weeks and while I feel like dying just by thinking of those stuff to be done, some people are just having the time of their life - living a campus life as if they are in pre-school. Careless. Happy. Free.

What's wrong with them? Or what's wrong with me?

Perhaps I should loosen up a bit and do some stuff that they do.Say,go out for supper at 10pm and come back home at 4am. Sleep the day away and wake up saying "God,I missed the 8am class".

That sounds like fun? No?

Well, I just need(yes,it is a NEED.) to work my a$$ off for the next 3 weeks.Finish up the assignments, FYP(gulp!),presentations, reports and finally, the exam. Then, InsyaAllah - I'll be over and done with all those brain-numbing stuff.Mon Dieu,aidez moi.

Owh,to whom it may concern - there's a very high possibility that I won't be going for another degree as intended, but being the fickle-minded me - I might still go for it after all.

Lets just wait and see, shall we?

p/s:I need a haircut.Pronto.
p/s 2: Don't get me wrong,I still love the stuff that I do - but somehow I just need to whine a bit. =P

♥.of.reminder.&.me.♥

I seriously need to be constantly reminded that I still have a working blog.

I just can't find the urge to update anymore,IT(read:the urge) was sucked outta me, locked and kept away in a dungeon - somewhere.

But, I've been tagged so here goes nothin.

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THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
o1. Anak
o2. Didie
o3. Dihah

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE:
o1. iris
o2. di_die
o3. silver_iris

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
o1. Am fairly inscrutable
o2. I'm a great whiner n listener all at the same time.
o3. I'm straight (1 less gay ppl in the world :P)

THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
o1. I tend to worry excessively.
o2. Am a big bully.
o3. Am not good in expressing feeling.It's just absurd.

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
o1. Am not sure bout this,really. :P
o2. -
o3. -

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU (or mostly creep you out):
o1. Cockroaches.Urgh! I just hate insects,well most of them.
o2. Shattered dreams/hopes.(especially when it costed me tons of effort)
o3. Crashed hdd.Isn't it a nitemare?

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
o1. My I can't live without you lappie.
o2. Celly.
o3. My bloodsuckin bf

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
o1. Red shirt.
o2. Black skirt.
o3. Glass rings.

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS (or artists at the moment):
o1. Incubus
o2. Nickelback
o3. My Chemical Romance.

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
o1. Nickelback - Far away.
o2. Will.I.Am & Fergie - True
o3. Kimberly Locke -The 8th World Wonder.

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
o1. Get a job :P
o2. Getaway - somewhere in Europe.
o3. Worry bout nothing.(yes,really)

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP (love included in the package)
o1. Again,H O N E S T Y.
o2. Cordial.
o3. Endless,happiness.Possible?No?

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE:
o1. I need to be inspired.
o2. I am dead HOMESICK.
o3. Am feeling blardy fat and I won't be eating for the next 2 months.haha!

THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW OR DIE PAINFULLY:
o1. Mun (My constant mind-reader.hihi!)
o2. Mr.Yusran.(You have promises to keep pacik :P)
o3. Pacik Kulat (you hafta do this or am dead sure that u're gay!haha!)

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Fin.

♥.of.this.much.&.me.♥



I know this much is true.

♥.of.need.&.me.♥

"When you need me,but do not want me - then I must stay;
but when you want me,but no longer need me then I have to go."

♥.of.wishlist.&.me.♥

Feel like writing a wish list.

I want to

o1.Own a 4wd car factory.
o2.Have normal sleep hours.
o3.Travel all around the world.Especially Europe.Ehem!
o4.Sky diving (huha!)
o5.Be a Linux-sifu
o6.Lose 50 pounds(yea rite!)
o7.Take a owh we are so vain shots with Wentworth Miller or whoever my next crush might be
o8.Stop worrying so much.Getting there..weee
o9.Dance in the rain.Anyone?
1o.Take more pics.Owh pleasee..I need a new digicam
11.Tell people I love them.
12.Be nicer to people who annoy me.(sarcasm!)
13.Have a mini zoo.(yes,really)
14.Start swimming again.
15.Stop being a lazy-bum when there's so much to do.
16.Hang around with my couz more.but she's off to Dublin.sob.
17.Be up to my parents' expectations.
18.Feel what it's like to punch someone in the face. (kidding :P)
19.Minimize my crappy-ness.
20.Own more skirts.(ha ha!)& shoes & bags!
21.Work out more.
22.Do something nice for my parents.
23.Stop bullying people.(Ehem!)
24.Make everyone - who ever put me down eat their words.
25.Cherish my friends.getting there too.
26.Be richer. :P
27.Count my blessings and be thankful.working on it
28.Be a better programmer.yea,working on this too.
29.Give a speech in front of thousands ppl & get a standing ovation.
30.Cook people will beg me for the recipe foods.
31.Go to Mars.
32.Swim with sharks.
33.Learn to write my name in all languages.
34.Find the one who loves me unconditionally with every fiber of his being.(ha ha!Possible? No?)
35.Feel like I don't owe the world an explanation for stuff that I do.
36.Write a story bout my life.
37.Be a good Muslim.
38.Play piano well enough for someone to listen to.
39.Speak at least four languages.
40.Not to be taken for granted.Owh misery
41.Be happily married to someone that I can talk to bout everything under the sun.
42.See all of the world's wonders.
43.Be more expressive of my own feelings.(Aha!)

More comin up. =P

Updated:Nov 27th 2007

♥.of.good.&.me.♥


That I would be good even if I did nothing
That I would be good even if I got the thumbs down
That I would be good if I got and stayed sick
That I would be good even if I gained ten pounds

That I would be fine even if I went bankrupt
That I would be good if I lost my hair and my youth
That I would be great if I was no longer queen
That I would be grand if I was not all knowing

That I would be loved even when I numb myself
That I would be good even when I am overwhelmed
That I would be loved even when I was fuming
That I would be good even if I was clingy

That I would be good even if I lost sanity
That I would be good
whether with or without you

I'm good.Tres bien.

♥.of.mummy.&.me.♥

When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

Happy birthday ma.Me love you much.Promise.

♥.of.friday.&.me.♥

I don't care if Monday's blue
Tuesday's grey and Wednesday too
Thursday I don't care about you
It's Friday, I'm in love

Monday you can fall apart
Tuesday, Wednesday break my heart
Thursday doesn't even start
It's Friday I'm in love

Saturday, wait
And Sunday always comes too late
But Friday, never hesitate...

I don't care if Mondays black
Tuesday, Wednesday - heart attack
Thursday, never looking back
It's Friday, I'm in love

Monday, you can hold your head
Tuesday, Wednesday stay in bed
Or Thursday - watch the walls instead
It's Friday, I'm in love

Saturday, wait
And Sunday always comes too late
But Friday, never hesitate...


Tonite's meetin is scarin the daylite outta me.This is the right time to PANIC.SCREAM.RUN.HIDE.

Mon Dieu,aidez moi.

p/s:In love?In love with my postgreSQL that is.