| | |.of.eppy.&.me.| | |

It was rainin cats and dogs earlier today.Alhamdulillah.What a bliss. :D

Well,went out with my darlings yesterday for our desperately-needed dose of retail therapy.Managed to spend some of the hard-earned cash while heedin my Dad's magical words in mind - which magically made me feel less quilty.

A new thing or two wouldnt hurt right Dad?But I got myself..err..2..or maybe 3 or..4 new stuff? Ampun.

Roxy bag.
I-dont-know-why-I-bought-it-but-it-looks-kinda-cute bracelets.
Bunch of cds.
A shirt.

Plus..

Fattylicious lunch at Dave's Deli and sushi for dinner.

Now Im feelin better.Infact,much much more better.(Even though someone forgot to wish me well for ages.Gah gah gah.Saye dah xkisah lagi) :D

Hee..though Im feelin berbunga-bunga and all rainbow-ish inside,some of the people that I know happened to be feelin all whiny and miserable today - my whiny virus dah berpindah rumah nampaknye.

"Me demam :("
"Sis,Im bored.Humor me"
"Uwaa...akak..yada yada"
"Dear,Im fcukin sick x-)"

Err..Sabar yer semua. Everythin gonna be okie dokie soon.Sooner or later.

Take a chill pill.

Tenyum cikit. :D

Jom titun. T_T

Nite.

| | |.of.under.the.weather.&.me.| | |

Feelin a lil bit under the weather today,so was everybody.It must have been the misty murky-I-feel-like-faintin air.I was desperately waitin for a miracle,a sudden downfall.Tapi xde pon :(

Erm..today hafta be the be-good-and-duduk-rumah-dediam day kerana saya telah duduk rumah dengan mithalinye hari ini,lunch & dinner pon ade org yang belikan.Baik kan saya?

Heee..apart of my being the mithali one today,I actually think that my trichotillomania is gettin worse,I hafta do somethin about it before I ended up with a bald-shiny-mirror-like head.Owh well,2nd thought - whats the fuss?My tudung is always there to the rescue.So who knows aight?Shhhh... :P

Woooo..so whuts next?

Owh..

Well,Fada called for no particular reason like always.*suprise suprise* Told me that Im the second best thing on the list after Gie.haha!How flatterin bro.Im glad that Im the runner up,coz its gonna be really fishy if Im the first(jeng je jeng :P) - heedin the fact that she's ur gf and Im pet sis AND yea,I miss you too - though I surely dont feel like tellin you that as much as I do to Gie.It surely sounds so blardy a lil bit weird and I actually suprised myself by sayin that.(Note:that hafta be my super-frank evil twin).hehe!If being frank only gives you a heart attack,I'll never ever repeat that again.Promise.

Ey..wait a sec,talkin about that frankly thingy - why does it sounds so normal when it comes to you,Gie and everybody?Why does it hafta be all weird and wrong when it comes to me? :
Utterly weird.

*shrugs*

Ermm..just a thought.

Perhaps from this moment on,I should be more self-centered since too much of considerin,toleratin,missin,thinkin bout someone else rather than myself doesnt really bring me any good,be it for now or the near future.

Dont you think?

that i would be grand, even if i'm not all-knowing
that i would be loved, even when i'm not myself
that i would be good, even when i'm overwhelmed

| | |.of.more.than.words.&.me.| | |

Sayin I love you..
Its not the words I want to hear from you
Its not that I want you
Not to say,but if you only knew how easy
It would be to show me how you feel..
(Translation:Sangat senang,contoh yang terbaik -siapkan those blardy wonderful assignments for me.)

More than words
Is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
'Cause I'd already know
(Translation:Assigments dah siap?Sayang me?Dah agak dah.I knew it!)

Sheesh...

Suke betul menghilang when Im feelin so blardy crappy.Owh,sukenye dier kat saya. T_T

*sob sob*

Im touched.Terharu.

Rase sangat disayangi. o_O

p/s:Its the maniac Monday.Have fun my love.

| | |.of.memories.&.me.| | |

All of my memories keep you near.
In silent moments imagine you here.
All of my memories keep you near.
Your silent whispers, silent tears.


Its almost 5am,and Im still wide awake.

All these endless assignments are takin its toll on me.

Sleepless nite.
Panda's eyes.
Massive headache.
Unexpected mood swing.

You name it,I got it.

Earlier today,Tila told me that Im being selfish,Tedd told me that Im insensitive.

Well dearies,its a bit frustratin to hear that from both of you,though I bet you know why I do these things that I do.

Im hurt,rather than annoyed.Suprised,really.

Anyway,thx for telling.

What's better than a bunch of honest dearies aight?

p/s:Dear,thx for being insensitive too.

| | |.of.new.week.&.me.| | |

Back from my fattenin weekend - thx to my beloved couz - to the ever-so-wonderful-hectic week in JP.

Gonna sit for Com Audit test tomorrow,and TKM test on the next day.Almost 13 chaps to be covered for both of the subjects and Im done with none.hoho!

That hafta be the ultimate sign of a good student.No doubt. o_O

Owh,the acceptance test for software engin thingy is comin this week too and the best part of it - we are not even near to finish.Tralalala..

Erm..

My dad is somewhere in KL right now,attendin his tourism thingy.Kinda miss him regardless the fact that he call me up almost everyday and hopefully he gonna come over and drop me some extra bucks for shopping me to survive in JP coz my cash is runnin low and I hate goin to the ATM.I hate the long queue and lookin at the balance of $$$ in the account only trigger the thought of gettin a partner for a bank-robbery.

T_T

Sape wanna be my partner in crime?Angkat tangan.

Well Im off..

Hafta get ready for my 4 hours class.

Hafta get ready to face another interestin week.

Hafta get ready to be all mad and bothered.

Later!

p/s:You sing to me and its harmony.

| | |.of.GodKnowsWhut.2.&.me.| | |

Mintak nyawa!

Argh..life is soo..dead,lifeless.

Im feelin more or less like a computerized thingy since there's no space for all those crazy spontaneous stuff anymore.

*shivers*

Where's the fun of it when you can actually list out all the stuff that gonna happen daily? - hour by hour,minute by minute.

*shrugs*

I am...

so glued,

so busy of being sick of all these wonderful-endless stream of assignments.The more I work on it,the more they grow.

My antidote to this lifeless life is still missin.

My you-are-not-supposed-to-be-cavalier-coz-I-need-you-to-understand dearie surely doesnt make things better for me.

Someone think that I need a good fix in the head.

Gosh..

Owh,Did I tell you that I went out to catch a movie with my darlings 2 days back?Its the Lemony Snicket thingy.I SKIPPED a class for that.hoho!

Well..hows the movie?

Its cute,heart-warming.It tickles me to the bones.

It inspires me...

Inspires me to burn up the campus that is.

T_T

The madness tsunami is comin.

*runs*

| | |.of.GodKnowsWhut.&.me.| | |

Ive tried to be good.

Ive tried to knock some sense into that super-smart head of yours.

Ive tried to show you that I actually care.

Ive tried to be forgiving.

But..thx for stayin under that I-couldnt-careless-blankie of yours.

Thx for telling me that Ive been wasting my time for nothin,much appreciated.

Ive tried and Im done.

Well dear,we just can't win em all,can we?

| | |.of.today.&.me.| | |

Im tired..

The final xm is comin within a month but I still have 3 test and 5 assignments to be submitted.

*cries*

When on earth am I goin to start studyin for my blardy final xm?

*shrugs*

Well...

Still couldnt figure out bout how to make all those unlogical prolog program thingy to work.

Still havent finish studyin for the DSS quiz.

Hee..and this stupid ulcer is killin me.

Went out with Mr.Boolat(bukan name sebenar) earlier today for the ultimate adventure of finding the purrrfect jeans - but ended up with nothin since Mr.Boolat is too boolat for those jeans.Opss...Psst..pstt..I had a great time bullying you and owh..jgn lupe,banyak lagi mende dlm things-to-eat list yg lum di mamam :P

Tonite,supposed to go out with my fellow u-r-my-sunshine,to celebrate Kayla's birthday - but we ended up sittin in the room,chattin while kutuk-ing each other since we most of us were too tired.Jaded.

How bout esok? :P

Okies?Alritey.Keje berlonggok2 pun ade ati nak kuar lagi.tsk tsk.

Hee..Im off.Need to be all refreshed for those boring exicitin classes tomorrow.*

*Provided that I could find the right way to drag myself out of the bed - after not gettin a decent sleep for few days in a row. O_o

| | |.of.hatred.&.me.| | |

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
And my weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassion's in my nature
Tonight is our last stand

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shoulda' never come around
Why don't you just go home?
'Cause you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand

Go fix yourself

I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

Papa Roach - Scars

I hate you for doin this to me.

x_X

| | |.of.beloved.mummy.&.me.| | |

Happy birthday Mummy.

Though there's no cheesy poem,

no heart-meltin pink card,

no eyes-blindin-glitterin brooch to add up to your huge collection like always.

Me still love you much.

Promise.

| | |.of.March.&.me.| | |

March!

Mum's birthday is comin within 3 days,but I still couldnt find the right time to get her a card or somethin.Tsk tsk..

All those assignments,reports and endless test are killin me and my antidote to this sickenin JP's life is missin. *cries*

Ehem..enough of the pathetic-ness.

Er...

Owh,I actually think that Ive been spendin too much time on YM.All those emoticons are hauntin me.

Look,its even on my food.

T_T I prefer the tongue smiley but I wasnt artistic enough,so a smiley will do.

And thx to Kayla,we got to spend sometime to play a barbie or two..or..err..4? :P
















Urgh..another CF meetin tonite,Im off!

P/s:Antidote WANTED,call me ASAP.*sob sob*

| | |.of.hoho.&.me.| | |

Woke up this morn to the blastin sound of the celly,uwarghh..

Isn't it Sunday?
Isn't it weekend?

Eee..me love my sleep.

So I ignored the 1st call since it was an unknown number but few mins later the same number was flashin on the celly screen once again.Blargh!

Owh well,its 1 of my groupmates for SE.Just tryin to fill me in with some updates.

1.She just got her com fixed.
2.She was about to install the DB2 thingy when she actually realized that the cd was not there.
3.She called her other friend to ask for it.
4.The other friend(A) actually LOST the cd.
5.The cd is NOT hers but it's her other friend's(B) cd.
6.That blardy cd is ORIGINAL.

*knocks head*

Owh,another incident - which happened few hours ago.

1.Hungry
2.Tryin to fix somethin to eat - spaghetti.
3.Onions,check.
4.Capsicum,check.
5.Tomato,check.
6.Pasta,check.
7.Spaghetti sos,check.
8.Can opener,check.

Chopped all the coppable(such word?) stuff, and it's time to put all of em together.

The moment of truth.

Me:"Mun,mane can opener?"
Mun:"Err..alamak."
Me:"Apsal?"
Mun:"Patah lah"
Me:*knocks head*

Darn you broken can opener!

Haih,finally ended up with some creamy chicken and mushroom express pasta instead of the healtier-non-creamy-yummylicious spaghetti.

*sighs*

Im feelin fat already. o_O

p/s:Check this out.Addictively cute but ehem,buzz off if you are under 18.Ngahahaha. :P

| | |.of.sanity.&.me.| | |

"'You've gotta be crazy.What do you take me for, some kind of easy mark?
You got wits, you got looks, you got passion,
But I swear that you've got me all wrong, all wrong."

Dashboard Confessional - As Lovers Go

Hoho!:P That hafta be someone's fav song of the moment.Isnt it dear?

Well,just to let you know that Im still alive and kickin though this week is a total mess - utter disaster.

I surely need somethin to help me in preservin my sanity.

Owh,I might as well cut down my get-online-bug-ppl-blog-crappin thingy since there's somethin wrong with my poor lappy.The screen is literally dancin whenever I turn it on.Too much heat or somethin,I guess.

Need to fix it ASAP,all those screen dancin is makin me sick. O_o

*sighs*

I need a life savior.

p/s:I'll be true,I'll be useful,I'll be cavalier. T_T

| | |.of.madness.&.me.| | |

There's no more listenin-to-Tentang-seseorang-by-Anda-while-sippin-on-the-hot-choc-or-dancin-to-SugarSugar-TheArchies moment for now.

It's more like workin-my-ass-off-on-the-assignments-with-Show-Me-How-To-Live-Audioslave-or-Unwell-Matchbox20-playin-at-the-background right now.

*sighs*

I hate assignments.

I hate datelines.

I hate presentation.

I hate weekly report.

I hope that all of it gonna DIE!

Die assignment die!

(Note:Monster's talkin.)

Im off.

Till then,wish me well.

Will ya?

p/s:When butterflies in ur tummy are not enough,I always have lots of bees in stock for you.Hee.. *roll eyes*

| | |.of.only.hope.&.me.| | |

There's a song that's inside of my soul
It's the one that I've tried to write
Over and over again
I'm awake in the infinite cold
But you sing to me over and over and over again

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours I pray
To be only yours I know now
You're my only hope

Sing to me of the song of the stars
Of your galaxy dancing and laughing
and laughing again
When you feel like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans
That you have for me over again

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours I pray
To be only yours I know now
You're my only hope

I give you my destiny
I'm giving you all of me
I want your symphony
Singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs
I'm giving it back


Switchfoot - Only hope


The best version of Only Hope.

Casually delivered but meaningful indeed.Got me feelin all mellowish inside. o_O

Ehem..lets not get into that.

Well,how could you stop yourself from smiling when all you want to do is laugh out loud and cry?

Guess that my brain is havin some trouble in directing my body to react accordin to the current mode that Im in.

Its tiring really,sickening.

Hee..Im off - before someone come up to me with another "how are we suppose to maintain our hatred towards someone?" thingy.

p/s:Am I that MEAN?

Came back from Kedah with a cell phone which's loaded with heaps of my niece and baby cousins pic.

They are sooooooooooooo deadly chumil. o_O

I wonder how I managed to refrain myself from bitin their cute heads off.

Shasha showin off her teeth.


Main macak2 with Anesya.Nyum2.


Aj's Im-so-angelic smile & my fav lil baby couz - Anesya


Anesya :"Laparnye"


My 2nd niece - saya-suke-jual-mahal Farah.


Anesya :"Nak minum yuyu(read:susu) pon kacau"



This week gonna be so blardy hectic - tons of stuff to be done and Im feelin all whiny inside.

So dont ask me bout what I hafta do unless you can cast a spell to make it all better or somethin.

Okie?

Till then,wish me well.

| | |.of.me.&.me.(Im so self-centered).| |
|

Well,just finished my I-want-it-that-way session with my mum.The topic?Nothin important really,it's just the fact that Im almost 21 but my mum kinda think that she's the one that hafta decide bout my bedroom's interior design.

Sound silly?Yeah,go ahead and laugh.

Go on,LAUGH.

Done?

Okie,whats up with the room thingy?

I wanted a blue painted room but I already ended up with a yellow-brown-cream paint plastered on the wall - thx to my mum.

"You can always get a new coat of paint later"

Yeah,sure.No big deal.

And not the be mentioned that there are some stuff in my room that gonna look EXACTLY the same like what my mum gonna have in her room.

There goes my individuality.

Hoho!Simply wonderful.

Okie,fine.All those stuff can be altered later,but one thing for SURE - Im still goin after that four post bed,no matter what.

Owh yeah,a matching closet and 5 feet tall mirror too.Please.

Hee..Ive told you that Im movin right?

Sooon...can't wait - its almost as excitin as the feelin that I got when my Cyrus was handed over to me a year ago - my biggest token of trust ever. *beams*

Okie,you got me.I dont know what to write.I just ran out of useful thing to write about (note:though it's not like my writing is always useful or anything but this one is extra crappy and a total junk.)

Forgive my crappy-ness.

*bows*

p/s:Im off to grandparents' place tomorrow.Woweeee...

| | |.of.nothin.&.me.| | |

:P

Im alive,isnt it WONDERFUL?

You surely hope that I wont start crappin bout the same old stuff that I do durin my break,dont you?

Im being nice over here,so I wont.

Are you happy now?

(Note:Even if you are NOT,Im surely as happy as a monkey over here.)

:P

Suffer no more,Im outta here!

Mucho love.

p/s:Credit to my beloved roomie for the similies.

| | |.of.sms.&.me.| | |

Have you ever excitedly send someone an sms - stuffed with all those lovey dovey words - only to realize that you sent it to the wrong person?

*glup*

Wrong person,as in our own dad?

*screams in terror*

Creepy isnt it?

But Im not talkin bout myself though,coz if it's me.I'll be half dead by now - tortured by all those killing questions that is.

So for those ppl who just cant wait to see me suffer,perhaps some other time eh?Not as long as I like to double check the name of my sms recipient and not as long as I couldnt find anybody to send all those hopelessly romantic stuff to.

Pathetic.o_O

Haha!

Neway,the story of sending-lovey-dovey-stuff-to-the-wrong-person is not about me.

Its just that I got an sms from 1 of my lil couz last nite which is quite suprising coz she RARELY send me any sms except for those cute sms - where you have all those teddy bear,flowers,i-miss-you stuff in it.

So okie,last nite I thought that its goin to be the same old stuff - forwarded to me over and over again - and the thought of it actually managed to cut off my urge to actually read it.

This morn,right after I got up.

I was being hit by the wtf waves once again.

"s*****,good nite.see you esok s*****."

Aaa??

Well,forgive me for actin like an old macik,but I still dont think that they are NOT old enough for all those stuff.

Heee..at least they are still using the s***** - a sign of their dier-malu-lah thingy.

Tau pulak malu... T_T

I need them to define their malu later.

Huhu!

So much of being a conservative lad durin these days.

Im off!

| | |.of.note.&.me.| | |

short note to:
Miss-sunshine-after-the-rain & Mr.Knight-in-slightly-rusty-armour :P

Sis,
thx for everythin.Sorry coz I really couldnt find the right time to squeeze into your outing thingy.Im deadly bz. x-)

I'll make it up to your later eh?Now lose that sulky face. :-x

Bro,
Thx for the invitation ya?But the idea of goin out for a..ehem,your so called 'dinner' is err..weird.hehe! :P frankly,I wouldnt be able to make it - not in a million years

Smile always precious, for I'd always smile for you aight? I'll bear that in mind.:P

Take good care of your Miss-sunshine-after-the-rain for me okie? B good.

End of the short note

Well,goin back SOON.How soon?Very soon. *beams*

Its the only fact that I need to heed in mind in order to make this week feels more bearable.

Like a light at the end of the tunnel - the point where you are almost quite sure that you gonna be able to break free.

Free from all those notes,assignments & sickenin ppl.

Hoho!

Temporary free that is - though somewhere at the back of my mind I surely hope that its gonna be FOREVER. ;)

"Nak forever,balik duduk rumah" - Makcu

Err..lemme rephrase that,

I surely hope that its goin to be LONGER,a week is not enough :(

Well,Im off.

Need to cure my beloved roomie from her mysterious sickness,she couldnt stop pinchin me.Grr...Geget tangan tu kang! :P

Err..later!