| | |.of.escapism.&.me.| | |

Not feelin well since 2 days back.Feelin all hot and bothered - now Im surely gonna be deadly happier when it rains.

Owh someone just warned me not to go out dancin in the rain,coz I dissolves in water. Gah gah..how flatterin is that? *roll eyes*

Well,I kinda lost the urge to write since I got back home,perhaps its true that writing is my ultimate escapism from depression. :)

Im off.Tata.

| | |.of.speechless.&.me.| | |

I couldnt think of anythin good to write - though somewhere at the back of my mind there are tons of stuff to be poured.

Believe me,I tried.

Well,fear not my dearies.The crappy-me will be back.

Later.

| | |.of.brief.update&.me.| | |

Owh,just a brief update.

Im DONE with the xm!

Im HOME!!! =p

Later!

p/s:Miss me not okie =P

| | |.of.whiny.&.me.| | |

One more kiss could be the best thing
Or one more lie could be the worst
And all these thoughts are never resting
And you're not something I deserve

In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
And this seems real to me
And you love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you don't know who I am
So let me go, let me go

I dream ahead to what I hope for
And I turn my back on loving you
How can this love be a good thing
Not know what I'm going through

And no matter how hard I try
I can't escape these things inside
I know, I know
When all the pieces fall apart
You will be the only one who knows, who knows

You love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you don't know who I am
So let me go, just let me go

3 Doors Down - Let Me Go
(note:Call me sappy but I just love this song to bits.Ive been listenin to it for 100 thousands times since last nite. o_O)

Had a big lunch at Secret Recipe with Mun.

Now Im sinfully bloated,another sight of any sort of food will make go "bweeek" for real.hehe!

Well,the 6th paper's great except for the fact that I was sniffin and miserably refrainin myself from blowin my nose off for 2 hours - as much as I hate to have someone with a blardy runny nose sittin next to me durin the wonderful final xm - Im sure there's someone whose been cursin me for being sick and sittin next to them.Forgive me.If only I could take my nose off like MJ,I'll never ever drag it along with me into the xm hall.Serious.

4 days more to go then I'll be back home,a magical thought that will magically make me feelin less pathetic. :P

Ghee..I hate being sick when Im not at home.The only thing that I can do to ease my pain's to whine as much as possible.(note:when Im physically sick,my mental health will somehow plummet too).No wonder Ive been actin like a BIG whiny baby since the past few days eh?.Hee..bear with me aight?I'll be okie dokie soon.InsyaAllah. or else you hafta find a way to cope with the big-whiny-baby-me for the rest of your life!Hows that for a change?hehehe!

Okie Im off.

The big whiny baby me hafta get ready for the next stuff in my things-to-do-for-an-express-relief agenda.

Til then,wish me luck coz I still need em badly,infact desperately.

| | |.of.darlings.&.me.| | |

Just a quick update.

Darlings,

Me luv youuuu!!!!!!

A LOT!!

*hugs*

Abis xm kite gi jalan2 sambil mencomelkan diri okie dearies?

5 down,2 more to go!

BERUSAHALAH!

| | |.of.9.layers.&.me.| | |

Went out with my darlings last nite - for another fattenin dinner.Got back home around 10pm and my head was spinnin,couldnt find any panadol or ape2 yang sewaktu dengannyer though I know I have it in stock somewhere - so I just decided to hit the sack.

Woke up this mornin feelin more or less the same except that my throat hurts - badly.

:(

Jangan la demam sekarang. *cries*

p/s:Btw,I got this 9 layers thingy from Jun.He's been askin me to fill it up since God-knows-when.Here you go buddy.Now stop buggin me.Sheesh.

LAYER ONE

Name: Nur Madihah
Birthdate: Sept 16th 1984
Birthplace: Kedah,Malaysia
Current Location: Jurassic Park,Malaysia
Eye Color: Black
Hair Color: Jet black
Righty or Lefty: Righty!
Sun Sign: Virgo!
Innie or Outtie: A lil bit of both!

LAYER TWO

Your heritage: 100% Malay - I guess.
The shoes you wore today: None.Saya suke berkaki ayam.Thx you. :P
Your hair: Black-ghost-like
Your eyes: Black
Your weakness: Chocolates, cute lil stuff.
Your fears: Losing my mind.
One thing you'd like to achieve: Endless happiness. :)

LAYER THREE

Your most overused phrase on IM: hihihi
Your first waking thoughts:"I hafta be good today", I have it plastered on the ceiling.Muahah!
The first feature you notice in the opposite sex: Eyes or is it the smile?
Your best physical feature: Sadly none. o_O
Your bedtime: Depends,Im nocturnal.
Your greatest accomplishment: Err...lemme recall.
Your most missed memory: Foam party with my cousins.haha!

LAYER FOUR

Pepsi or Coke:Coke - vanilla plz.
McDonald's or Burger King: McD
Single or group dates: Depends.*roll eyes*
Adidas or Nike: Nike.
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Nestea
Chocolate or vanilla: Both?
Cappuccino or coffee: Cappuccino.

LAYER FIVE

Smoke: Nope.(Well,I plan to live til 150.Thx you)
Curse: Wtfish.Opss..
Sing: Me love singin to myself (note:Me love rainy days)
Take a shower everyday: Sure.
Have a crush(es): Yea.
Who are they: Brandon boyd,Flippy from HTF.haha! :P
Do you think you've been in love: Lemme recall bout that too.
Like high school:Surely do.
Want to get married: Sure?
Believe in yourself: +ve.
Think you're attractive: Im annoyinly attractive.haha!
Think you're a health freak: Not as long as I can remember.
Get along with your parents: Absolutely,Im a good kid.
Play an instrument:Sadly no.

LAYER SIX: In the past month, did you...

Drink alcohol: Nope.
Smoke: Nope.
Do a drug: Nope.
Go on a date: Well, it depends on what you mean by "date".Ehem.
Eat an entire box of Oreos: Nope.Too much of em make me sick!
Eat sushi: Yea.
Been on stage: Nope.
Been dumped: Nope.
Gone skating: I dont how to skate.Sheeesh.
Made homemade cookies: Nope.
Been in love: God knows.
Gone skinny dipping:Nope.
Dyed your hair: Nope.
Stolen anything: Err..Ive stolen someone's sanity,does it count?

LAYER SEVEN: Have you ever...

Played a game that required removal of clothing: No,never.
Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: Nope.
Been caught "doing something":Define "doing somethin"
Been called a tease: Not really.
Gotten beaten up: Nobody messes with me.Im a MONSTER.
Shoplifted: Nope.
If so, did you get caught: Nope.
Changed who you were to fit in: Nope. What you see is what you get darlin.

LAYER EIGHT

Age you hope to be married: Sure.
Numbers and Names of Children:Urgh..isnt it too early for this?
Describe your Dream Wedding: Errr..romantic?(corny!)
What do you want to be when you grow up: I dont wanna grow up :(
What country would you most like to visit: Err..lemme think.France?

LAYER NINE

Number of guys I have kissed: Err..?
Number of boyfriends you've had: Owh la la..?
Number of drugs taken illegally: None.
Number of people I could trust with my life: Around 11. I am blessed.
Number of CDs that I own: Lemme start counting.
Number of piercings: 2.
Number of tattoos: None.
Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper:Once?
Number of scars on my body: I dont count.
Number of things in my past that I regret: None or tryin not to.

| | |.of.peminat.&.me.| | |

At last,4 days of freedom!Ahh..bliss.

So now where's my wonderful date?haha!

Erm..

Gie's birthday is comin tomorrow,but I already sent her a-day-early-coz-I-thought-its-already-April-10th birthday wish. *roll eyes*

Gie:"Ari ni 9th la dd.My bday is on d 10th."

*knocks head*

Better early than never aight dear?hee... (^_^)v

Well,a gurl msged me on my msn msger yesterday.Lookin at the fact that I was bored coz everybody was out-"beronggeng" or simply enjoyin their evenin nap - coz its rainin.Me actually decided to entertain her kiddish questions which range from the-color-that-I-like to what-I-wanna-be-when-I-grow-up.Duh~ (note:she's weirdly-16)

Later,she actually asked for my phone number and I was like,"dont waste ur money on phone calls,get urself some chocs instead dik"

and she was like "I hate chocs but I love you"

*glup*

Wooo..I got myself a PEMINAT,at last!

Blargh!

How wonderful.You made my day.

NOT! :P

Hee..Im off.

Later.

| | |.of.final.xm.&.me.| | |

Dear you,

STOP tickin me off.If you happened to come around and mess up with me again later.I swear that I'll handle it Bush's style - if someone happened to get into your way,mess around with your stuff - wait no more.Kill em!Muahaha!

Err.okie Monster's talkin.

Monster's thingy aside.

Im back!

Ive told ya that I'll be back.Miss me yet?

Well,my final xm for the last sem of Gamma gonna start next week.Aha,next week as in this comin Monday.JOY!

7 papers to go through.How interestin is that?Hafta sit for 5 papers in a row..woo..April 4th - 8th.Wonderful eh?Thats exactly what I need to add up to my I-already-feel-like-dying life.+ve.Owh..right after the 5 days of misery,there's gonna be a looooong GAP -6 days to be exact - which shall be spent wisely.Ehem!

Neway,thx for all the luck and wishes.Yea,hopefully I'll be able to get through everythin without faintin or turnin into a mad dog dinosaur or somethin.Gah gah.Keep it comin aight?

Erm..

Many thx and apologies to you-surely-know-who-you-are and if you dont,there's aint no way that Im goin to spell it out.As you know,I could be quite a pain in the a$$ and pretty annoyin sometimes.I just cant help it.Im really sorry.Honest - Ive been livin like this for the past 3 years.It's like a path without a turnin point.You can either stop and suffer or just move on.Uh..crap

What a gurl to do eh?

Hee..Im off!

Time to activate the nerd-mode.

Later!