♥of.kids.&.me.♥

If there's one thing in life that never fail to amaze me these days is the fact that my younger cousins and lil bro are waaaay ahead of me in the relationship department. It seems like they jumped into the high tech sophisticated love wagon while I hitched a ride on an old beat-up one. Yea, I just can't get over it.

Well, where do I start? Lets see, the lil cousins already went out and about on dates and whatnot whilst they are still in high school. The lil brother's promising of undying love to the girlfriend right about now. Like yea,how normal coz as far as I can remember, I was on the verge of confusion and still contemplating between my various array of ambitions when I was 16/17. Mostly out of the fear that I would not be up to the beloved parents' standard (tho I know that they love me anyhow), the inability to be on the same par as the successful cousins(how I detest the comparison,but this is something rather unavoidable) and most of all the ultimate fear that my dad gonna play the malas sangat study result teruk apa kata kawen je terus card on me - which of coz was irrelevant then and even now, he's not that type. It's just the paranoia talking. Typically me.

Moving on, as much as I would like to think that these kiddos are heavily influenced by the endless supply of wonderful, sappy, unconditional, unrealistic love stories thus triggered their curiosity to actually be in one. I just can't ignore the fact that it's also due to their freedom. Parents these days are rather mellowed,at least mine did compared to the time when I was younger.

Like yea, my lil brother was granted with the permission to go out on the various school trips and later on the first and official or at least the first one known to the parents date(which was happily sponsored by the beloved dad,so that the couple could have a proper meal at a chick restaurant instead of a mamak,ceh!) whilst me on the other hand was denied on most of the requests(school trips or not) especially if it has something to do with the ocean,recreational forest,seaside and the sorts. So no wonder I've never been out camping before. (note: Whoever my infinite other half gonna be.He automatically owes me a camping trip.Bonfire, tent and all. Okie? He better be feeling adventurous.Ehem.)

Hmpp..what else? My permission to date? Owh well, I never get any, at least not literally or officially.It's not like my dad gonna set me a date and hand over a letter with "From this date onward,you're allowed to date my dear.Enjoy!" written on it. :P

Well, I would like to think that I was granted with it when I graduated - at least I could get away from the jangan la nak bercinta-cinta masa study ni,study kasi habis dulu card - since it's no longer valid on me. Nowadays, my mum would casually ask whether I'm going out on a date during the weekend, when C*** is coming back and such, which I replied with my ecstatic and elongated details(on whichever possible), so I bet that she got the drift. Plus, my parents would be worried if I'm not. Like yea, the haunting Adekah anak ku seorang yang normal? or Was I too harsh on her? issues gonna exist, so I might as well spare them from the trouble and tell them that I'm actually seeing someone,kan? kan? he he.

Call me conservative. I'm a late bloomer in this particular department,so yea it scares the living daylight out of me seeing those lil kids not even old enough to shave going out on a date and holding hands.

Like, what they were thinking? Seluar dalam pon parents yang belikan, perasan dah besar. Cey.

Well I'm off. Terlebih ramble pulak harini.

Later.