♥.of.uneasy.&.me.♥

I've been feeling quite uneasy lately,burdened by the thought of the works that seems to be endless. The more I work on them, the more they grow. Simply tiring, suffocating.

Tons of stuff to done within the next 3 weeks and while I feel like dying just by thinking of those stuff to be done, some people are just having the time of their life - living a campus life as if they are in pre-school. Careless. Happy. Free.

What's wrong with them? Or what's wrong with me?

Perhaps I should loosen up a bit and do some stuff that they do.Say,go out for supper at 10pm and come back home at 4am. Sleep the day away and wake up saying "God,I missed the 8am class".

That sounds like fun? No?

Well, I just need(yes,it is a NEED.) to work my a$$ off for the next 3 weeks.Finish up the assignments, FYP(gulp!),presentations, reports and finally, the exam. Then, InsyaAllah - I'll be over and done with all those brain-numbing stuff.Mon Dieu,aidez moi.

Owh,to whom it may concern - there's a very high possibility that I won't be going for another degree as intended, but being the fickle-minded me - I might still go for it after all.

Lets just wait and see, shall we?

p/s:I need a haircut.Pronto.
p/s 2: Don't get me wrong,I still love the stuff that I do - but somehow I just need to whine a bit. =P

♥.of.reminder.&.me.♥

I seriously need to be constantly reminded that I still have a working blog.

I just can't find the urge to update anymore,IT(read:the urge) was sucked outta me, locked and kept away in a dungeon - somewhere.

But, I've been tagged so here goes nothin.

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THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
o1. Anak
o2. Didie
o3. Dihah

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE:
o1. iris
o2. di_die
o3. silver_iris

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
o1. Am fairly inscrutable
o2. I'm a great whiner n listener all at the same time.
o3. I'm straight (1 less gay ppl in the world :P)

THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
o1. I tend to worry excessively.
o2. Am a big bully.
o3. Am not good in expressing feeling.It's just absurd.

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
o1. Am not sure bout this,really. :P
o2. -
o3. -

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU (or mostly creep you out):
o1. Cockroaches.Urgh! I just hate insects,well most of them.
o2. Shattered dreams/hopes.(especially when it costed me tons of effort)
o3. Crashed hdd.Isn't it a nitemare?

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
o1. My I can't live without you lappie.
o2. Celly.
o3. My bloodsuckin bf

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
o1. Red shirt.
o2. Black skirt.
o3. Glass rings.

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS (or artists at the moment):
o1. Incubus
o2. Nickelback
o3. My Chemical Romance.

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
o1. Nickelback - Far away.
o2. Will.I.Am & Fergie - True
o3. Kimberly Locke -The 8th World Wonder.

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
o1. Get a job :P
o2. Getaway - somewhere in Europe.
o3. Worry bout nothing.(yes,really)

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP (love included in the package)
o1. Again,H O N E S T Y.
o2. Cordial.
o3. Endless,happiness.Possible?No?

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE:
o1. I need to be inspired.
o2. I am dead HOMESICK.
o3. Am feeling blardy fat and I won't be eating for the next 2 months.haha!

THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW OR DIE PAINFULLY:
o1. Mun (My constant mind-reader.hihi!)
o2. Mr.Yusran.(You have promises to keep pacik :P)
o3. Pacik Kulat (you hafta do this or am dead sure that u're gay!haha!)

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Fin.

♥.of.this.much.&.me.♥



I know this much is true.

♥.of.need.&.me.♥

"When you need me,but do not want me - then I must stay;
but when you want me,but no longer need me then I have to go."

♥.of.wishlist.&.me.♥

Feel like writing a wish list.

I want to

o1.Own a 4wd car factory.
o2.Have normal sleep hours.
o3.Travel all around the world.Especially Europe.Ehem!
o4.Sky diving (huha!)
o5.Be a Linux-sifu
o6.Lose 50 pounds(yea rite!)
o7.Take a owh we are so vain shots with Wentworth Miller or whoever my next crush might be
o8.Stop worrying so much.Getting there..weee
o9.Dance in the rain.Anyone?
1o.Take more pics.Owh pleasee..I need a new digicam
11.Tell people I love them.
12.Be nicer to people who annoy me.(sarcasm!)
13.Have a mini zoo.(yes,really)
14.Start swimming again.
15.Stop being a lazy-bum when there's so much to do.
16.Hang around with my couz more.but she's off to Dublin.sob.
17.Be up to my parents' expectations.
18.Feel what it's like to punch someone in the face. (kidding :P)
19.Minimize my crappy-ness.
20.Own more skirts.(ha ha!)& shoes & bags!
21.Work out more.
22.Do something nice for my parents.
23.Stop bullying people.(Ehem!)
24.Make everyone - who ever put me down eat their words.
25.Cherish my friends.getting there too.
26.Be richer. :P
27.Count my blessings and be thankful.working on it
28.Be a better programmer.yea,working on this too.
29.Give a speech in front of thousands ppl & get a standing ovation.
30.Cook people will beg me for the recipe foods.
31.Go to Mars.
32.Swim with sharks.
33.Learn to write my name in all languages.
34.Find the one who loves me unconditionally with every fiber of his being.(ha ha!Possible? No?)
35.Feel like I don't owe the world an explanation for stuff that I do.
36.Write a story bout my life.
37.Be a good Muslim.
38.Play piano well enough for someone to listen to.
39.Speak at least four languages.
40.Not to be taken for granted.Owh misery
41.Be happily married to someone that I can talk to bout everything under the sun.
42.See all of the world's wonders.
43.Be more expressive of my own feelings.(Aha!)

More comin up. =P

Updated:Nov 27th 2007

♥.of.good.&.me.♥


That I would be good even if I did nothing
That I would be good even if I got the thumbs down
That I would be good if I got and stayed sick
That I would be good even if I gained ten pounds

That I would be fine even if I went bankrupt
That I would be good if I lost my hair and my youth
That I would be great if I was no longer queen
That I would be grand if I was not all knowing

That I would be loved even when I numb myself
That I would be good even when I am overwhelmed
That I would be loved even when I was fuming
That I would be good even if I was clingy

That I would be good even if I lost sanity
That I would be good
whether with or without you

I'm good.Tres bien.

♥.of.mummy.&.me.♥

When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

Happy birthday ma.Me love you much.Promise.

♥.of.friday.&.me.♥

I don't care if Monday's blue
Tuesday's grey and Wednesday too
Thursday I don't care about you
It's Friday, I'm in love

Monday you can fall apart
Tuesday, Wednesday break my heart
Thursday doesn't even start
It's Friday I'm in love

Saturday, wait
And Sunday always comes too late
But Friday, never hesitate...

I don't care if Mondays black
Tuesday, Wednesday - heart attack
Thursday, never looking back
It's Friday, I'm in love

Monday, you can hold your head
Tuesday, Wednesday stay in bed
Or Thursday - watch the walls instead
It's Friday, I'm in love

Saturday, wait
And Sunday always comes too late
But Friday, never hesitate...


Tonite's meetin is scarin the daylite outta me.This is the right time to PANIC.SCREAM.RUN.HIDE.

Mon Dieu,aidez moi.

p/s:In love?In love with my postgreSQL that is.