Who would have thought that blogging could be such a challenge tho I'm pretty much jobless. he he.

Anyway, whilst I still feel like it, lets go down the memory lane.

Well, during our checkup on April 27th everything was dandy and the doc did the dreaded VE and I was already 1cm dilated but the doc wasn't alarmed. She told us we could go for weeks whilst being 1cm dilated - by then we still have 2 weeks before my EDD. So yea, nampaknya masih sempat pegi bershopping. :P

But that night turned out to be such an uncomfortable night. I had a hard time to sleep since I've been having the mild contractions every now and then and came Friday morning, I was greeted with a bloody show. Truthfully, takde lah freak out sangat since I didn't experience much pain (yet), but I still insisted C*** to stay home with me that day since I've been having the uneasy feeling in my guts. (Cey, tak takot konon, sebenarnye takot juge. ha ha)

I called the doc and she told me I shouldn't fret much unless the contractions are regular or my water broke. Regular what? Daripada pagi rasa macam ala-ala regular jer.he he.

By noon, the 'pain' was sorta regular but being the gagah perkasa me, we still went out for lunch. Jalan-jalan for a bit at the nearby mall - until at some point I had to stop walking due to the intense pain and C*** hafta drag me back home. he he.

During our ride home, I was miserable. Like "Ape ni, doc cakap we could still could go on for weeks, skrang dah semacam dah ni" and being C***, he drove me to see the doc instead of going back home.

We waited for a good half an hour before our turn to see the doc and the moment she saw us, she was like " Why dear? Anything wrong?", yes everything is wrong doc. Rasa semacam. he he.

I went thru another VE and the doc gave us the OMG-look. At that moment, ianya adelah menakotkan. We were told that I was already 4cm dilated and she told us to get back home for maghrib, feed ourselves with good food and check ourselves into the hospital for delivery.

We went back home, C*** made me half boiled eggs and hot choc as we're still quite full from the late lunch, waited for Maghrib, packed our stuff and off we went.

So yea, we reached the hospital around 9pm. I was wheeled into the labour suite with a smile on my face, dengan tersengih-sengih because seriously, the contractions were on the friendly side.Macam main-main pulak - so much so that one of the nurses voiced out that she thought that I looked too relaxed.

In the labour suite, I sat on the bed whilst the CTG was being strapped onto my tummy and after a while the nurse came to gimme the stuff to make me poop. Tapi I had nothing much inside anyway.

After an hour or so, I felt restless and having the CTG thing strapped onto your tummy is rather uncomfortable so dengan pandainye I took it off and walked around the room whilst inspecting all those rather scary looking equipment and stuff,talking and joking around with C***. We just didn't believe that I'll be in labour that soon, we're supposed to have another week or two, tapi nampaknye the little precious adelah tidak sabar.

By 2am, the pain was getting more and more unbearable. The nurse came in for another VE and I was 6cm dilated. Say what? Only 2cm after all those long hours? Tsk tsk. By 3am, the pain adelah sungguh tidak terkata,so much so that I actually succumbed to the laughing-gas temptation - tapi gas itu adelah tipu. It didn't help and by then I was already moaning in pain whilst C*** kept on rubbing my back which helped to ease the pain.

Well, whilst I was tossing and turning in bed, Darling C*** kept on asking me to squeeze his hand whenever the huge wave of contraction hit me (which I did & thank God he didn't lose his arm) and by 4am, I had the unbearable urge to push tapiiiii I had to wait for the doc since she's on the way. Do ya know how miserable and painful it is to hold ya self from pushing when every fiber of your being dah tak tertahan sangat dah nak push? I was trembling on the bed, mostly from the pain of holding back - which is probably the hardest part throughout the experience itself.

15 minutes later, the doc came in and after reciting a quick doa, she broke my waterbag( tetiba macam water tank pecah. Siap tersplash kena si C***) and told me to take a deep breath and push whenever I feel like it. It was pretty breezy as the pain was rather intense so there was a clear cut on when to push on and when not to.

To cut the story short, the lil precious was out after the 3rd or probably 4th push( honestly I was traumatized by the lady in labour next door, she pushed for like eternity and still tak keluar anak dia and that's when I decided to give my all) and the doc requested C*** to recite the azan before handing him the scissors to cut the umbilical cord(which C*** claimed to be chewy.he he).

The nurse showed her to me sambil bertanya "Baby apa dear?", and me dengan terketar (sebab the labour suite adelah sejuk gila and I'm tired) told her it's a girl and later seperti kena drug, I kept on saying "Baby, baby baby" in an endless loop and C*** had to calm me down by saying "Kejap yang, nurse tengah clean up the baby". ha ha. Perhaps I was high on the fact that I'm now a mum.

Anyway, once the baby was out adelah sungguh lega. It's like all those long hours of suffering tetiba hilang. Pain? What pain? Okay tipu, tho it's true that almost all the pain melted away, tapi I could still feel the dull pain apabila dijahit. It was only a small cut tapi adelah sakit juga.

I was totally exhausted(& thirsty that I actually drink the entire bottle of air selusuh,now that saya dah beranak, it didn't matter la air tu air ape pon kan?) by then and when the nurse came to help me to breastfeed the baby, I was only half awake and I could vaguely recall C*** kissing me on the forehead whilst mumbling something( which later baru lah tahu he was actually saying thank you,he he. Most welcome darling, kereta baru satu pliss :P )

Later, sometime after Subuh, we're pushed into our room and the rest is history.

Yes, I'm thankful for the smooth delivery.

I'm thankful that C*** was there to share those moments with me.

I'm thankful for our healthy baby.

Haih, for the 1st few days, every time I looked at her, adelah rasa macam nak nangis. Rasa macam sayang sangat-sangat. he he. I'm sentimental just like that.

Owh, the baby is asleep. Mummy pon mau tido juga.

Till then, be good.

It has been 27 days since the day I managed to squeeze a tiny human outta me and I still can recall everything rather vividly.

The pain (don't ever get me started on the pain), the unexplainable relief, the joy, the endless gratitude and whatnot - which I'll write more of later, kalau rajin. Okay, haruslah rajin so I could read about it later, to remind myself of my 1st labour when I'm all forgetful and wrinkly like a raisin. :P

Anyway, this long overdue post gonna be a thank-you note.

I'm forever thankful to be blessed with a mini-us and the smooth labour. Alhamdulillah.

Whilst I'm blessed with the gift to experience the labour, I hafta admit that it has been a humbling experience. Rasa sungguh insaf. Ya know, thinking of how sometime 26 years ago, my mum hafta go thru such pain to bring me to this world. Haih. It's true that you'd never really know how to appreciate a mother until you're one, for that, terima kasih mummy. I'd never be able to thank you enough. Sob sob. Sekarang tolong jaga pantang la pulak.

Moving on,

I'd like to thank my other half, the love of my life, C*** for being there for me. Tho his endless chanting of "sabar sayang, sabar, I'm here." did pretty much nothing to soothe the pain of my contractions whilst we were in the labour suite. he he. But he's been a great help during my confinement period - especially during those 1st week whilst we're still in KL. He'd rub my feet, made me hot chocs for breakfast and tea, helped me to put on the cute colorful socks etc. Am I thankful for such TLC? Owh yes. Thank you darling. Kiss kiss.

An endless appreciate also goes to my MIL for her care whilst I was in KL. Terima kasih mak. I could never ask for more. :D

Last but not least, I'm thankful for the prayers and well wishes.

Terima kasih banyak-banyak yer.

Owh, the mini-us is screaming for milk.

Later.