♥.of.need.&.me.♥

After 4 years,sleepless nights,a series of suprising good grades,mind-numbing projects and all the unexpected nerve wrecking cobaan that I've been through,why is it at the end of the road, I still need to earn a thumbs up approval from people?

For whutever reason,sometimes I just feel out of place and having to live with the facts that most of them (read:relatives,cousins,friends) live with a glorious achievement in life is simply very 'amusing'.

I've gained my own scores and strength throughout the years,so why then, do I still feel like a 10 years old that has to make her dad proud?

Pourquoi?Why am I doing this to myself? It's such a bad thinking,I know.

It's so blardy sickening.

I hafta snap myself out of this,vite.