.so.dead.

Life is rather lifeless right now.Whuts that suppose to mean?*shrugs*

God knows.

Well..2 weeks more to go before the final(read:thing that never fail to gimme an eerie feelin whenever I start to think bout it).Sooner or later,my 1st sem of Gamma gonna come to an end.How time flies.

*sigh*

FINAL xm is comin within 2 weeks,but
_/I still have 3 major assignments to submit.
_/2 more test to go through(the wonderful Prob&stat n Data Com)
_/another lab test

So ppl,am I lucky or whut?

Yeah..Im so damn lucky. :P but keep on wishin me luck neway.I still need em badly.

Well,went out yesteday - to cure my cravin for certain stuff.hehe!Thought that I'll be able to clean up my beloved bf,but it was rainin cats n dogs so it seems like "he" hafta be comot for another few days. :D

Came back,feelin dizzy.haha!You know how I always love hate headache.(mental note:never ever walk in the rain again).I cant afford to get sick right now.I couldnt bear the thought that I'll be helpless while there are tons of stuff to do - nitemare.

So lil time so much to do I rather spend my day with you.

Owh..got a few too-good-2-be-true stuff that happened since few days back.To whom to may concern,mucho gracias.Those are the stuff that someday,I shall recall back with a smirk on my face.hehe!

You made my day.

Hee..I wanna get myself some yummylicious-brain-freezin abc.Mind to join me?

.of.real.friend.and.saviour.

As a friend,Im not sure whether I can be considered as the good one or vice versa.Sometimes I guess that its the "job" that Im worst at.

Lookin back at certain friendship that I happened to be blessed with,I must be one of the coward who couldnt even tell em bout how I feel and surely Ive turned into a major coward to let the friendship passed me by without even fightin for it though I know it should stay and last for much more longer.

I not even sure whether being the one that ppl gonna run to everytime they are stuck in the mid of somethin is a good sign - a sign that I am a real friend.Well,maybe I am or perhaps,its just my ability of to give the good-for-nuthin advice that qualify me to be the 1st choice among the ppl-to-run-to-when-a-prob-occurs or it might as well turns out that Im the last resort after all.

A dear friend used to tell me that I should be glad when ppl come runnin to me whenever they are in the mid of somethin that cant be settled by themself - meaning, they actually trust in me and somehow believe that I can help them to sort things out.

Sure,Im the lifeline,comin to the rescue whenever they feel like their problems are so intense and thousands times bigger than others - as if their world gonna come to an end if Im not around.

Obviously, Im gonna be needed then.

But,what happen to me when they are out of trouble?

Lemme disappear in the thin air?

Leave me alone to RIP?

Ditch me and come back again whenever they think that I might be useful?

Well,maybe thats exactly whut Im good at.

And when the world is on its knees with me,its fine.
And when I come to the rescue I get nothing but left behind
Everybody seems to be getting what they need

but..

Where's mine?

p/s:Forgive my pathetic emo-ness.

.addicted.addicted.to.YOU.

You have an Internet addiction when . . .

You kiss your girlfriend's home page.

A VRML virtual walk through a park is your idea of a good date.

Your bookmark takes 15 minutes to scroll from top to bottom.

Your eyeglasses have a web site burned in on them.

All your daydreaming is preoccupied with getting a faster connection to the net: 28.8,ISDN,cable modem,T1,T3.

And even your night dreams are in HTML.

You turn off your modem and get this awful empty feeling, like you just pulled the plug on a loved one.

You refer to going to the bathroom as downloading.

You start introducing yourself as "Jim at I-I-Net dot net dot au

Your heart races faster and beats irregularly each time you see a new WWW site address in print or on TV, even though you've never had heart problems before.

You step out of your room and realize that your parents have moved and you don't have a clue when it happened.

You turn on your intercom when leaving the room so you can hear if new e-mail arrives.

Your wife drapes a blond wig over your monitor to remind you of what she looks like.

All of your friends have an @ in their names.

When looking at a pageful of someone else's links, you notice all of them are already highlighted in purple.

Your pet has its own home page.

Your pet's homepage is actually good.

You can't call your mother,she doesn't have a modem.

You check your mail. It says "no new messages." So you check it again.

Your phone bill comes to your doorstep in a box.

You code your homework in HTML and give your instructor the URL.

You don't know the sex of three of your closest friends, because they have neutral nicknames and you never bothered to ask.

Your husband tells you he's had the beard for 2 months.

You wake up at 3 a.m. to go to the bathroom and stop and check your e-mail on the way back to bed.

You tell the kids they can't use the computer because "Daddy's got work to do" and you don't even have a job.

You buy a Captain Kirk chair with a built-in keyboard and mouse.

Your wife makes a new rule: "The computer cannot come to bed."

You get a tatoo that says "This body best viewed with Netscape 2.01or higher."

You never have to deal with busy signals when calling your ISP,because you never log off.

The last girl you picked up was only a jpeg.

You ask a plumber how much it would cost to replace the chair in front of your computer with a toilet.

Your wife says communication is important in a marriage,so you buy another computer and install a second phone line so the two of you can chat.

As your car crashes through the guardrail on a mountain road, your first instinct is to search for the "back" button.

note:
Im runnin out of words to say,bet that there's somethin blockin my creative juices from flowin.

Until then,please bear with me.I'll be back.

.plz.DONT.stop.

So I was few mins late for my Data Com class,due to the unexpected extra time-consumin by the lecturer of the previous class.

The lecturer already started when I finally arrived at the lecture room.Took a glance at the ppl that were lookin at me like I was some sort of weirdo.Flash out another glance around the semi-crowded room for an empty seat and managed to find myself a place right next to a cute lookin guy thats currently being adored by mun familiar chinese guy. He moved aside to gimme some space so that I could squeeze in. Sat there for a good 2 mins before I managed to get myself into the flow.

10 mins...20 mins..30 mins..40 mins..time flies.

Suddenly, out of the mid of nowhere,I could hear the most irritatin sound ever.It sounded like there's huge mice chewin on somethin or so I thought.Tried to ignore it while hopin that its goin to fade away.But heck,its gettin worse.Now Im really really annoyed.

I turned left and its no other than the cute guy that was sittin next to me.

Ahh..so he's the source of the wonderful sound.*raise eyebrow*

Whut on earth was he doin?

Well.he was joyfully bitin on his nails as if its some sort of special flavoured choc .

Owh..How cute.How adorable.Plz DONT stop.

NOT!!!grrr..that hafta be the major turn off of the year.

Then whut happen?Did I give him a big fat WOOSH on his face?Did I cut his fingers off?

Nope,I just sat there and managed to spend the next 80 mins in "peace and harmony" while salvaging all the patience that I had left in order to refrain myself from biting the cute head off.

Im really glad that he managed to get out from the lecture room alive.

Phew..

.dizzy.up.the.gurl.

That must be 1 of the devilish thoughts of the coffee.

Im feelin so miserable heavenly.

Thx to the super duper rich and creamy white coffee.Maybe I should remind myself again and again that I hafta STAY AWAY from coffee.

Darn those temptin-aromatic-smellin coffee.

Hee..2nd thought.

Its rather weird that Im gettin sick bcoz of the coffee.It used to be part n parcel of my life since God-knows-when.Im the offical coffee-maker for my beloved dad.

Yeah,I actually know how to make coffee.If you happen to wonder bout that. *suprise suprise*(note: Im quite dapur-literated.haha!)*roll eyes*

Owh,a dapur-literate monster/martian.How wonderful.How could it be so?

Well..Being the only daughter and the fact that I spent 17 years (note:Im 19++ rite now) of my life at home (coz my dad wont let me blast off into any boardin skool - due to his "nanti mummy ngan ayah sunyi anak takde kat umah" reason,as if havin the lil bro of mine to jump around the house is not sickenin enough.)and mind you, we DONT have any maid since I was 12 and plus another useful fact - my mum dont want me to be too damn hopeless in the house-chores division.

So people,guess whuts in the list of my things-to-do-during-free-time??

Go figure! :P

p/s:
My intuition is tellin me to be EXTRA careful tomorrow.A huge PIANO gonna fall down from the sky.haha!Becareful or it might hits you - courtesy of Pacik Kulat.Owh,I always wanted a PIANO.Wonderful.

.heee.hoo.

Hee..Im happy,arent you?

Im happy when:
_/it rains
_/knowin that I still have few bucks left from the last weekend's retail theraphy.(yeah,gettin less boros)
_/gettin a call when Im bored to death.
_/my parents are happy.
_/Im losin weight, though Im stuffin myself up(which rarely happen-obviously)
_/my buddies call just to say "hi!"
_/Im scarin the livin daylite out of my friends.hehe!
_/knowin that someone is savin up to get me somethin.
_/the fridges are stuff with chocs whenever Im home.
_/breathin in the fresh smell of the newly cut grass *sniff sniff*
_/Im not forgotten
_/ppl laugh at my stupid jokes.
_/catchin a glimpse of a smart lookin guy walkin down the street wearin a baju melayu.
_/my hard works pay off.
_/Im singin to myself
_/finding the right tudung to go with my deadly-hard-to-match baju kurung.
_/buyin a bunch of cute lookin socks.
_/there's someone to listen to my crap when Im all stress out.
_/findin a cute dark shirt with 50% off.
_/talkin to cute pet and its noddin and lookin at me as if it knows whut I mean
_/my cute lil couz comes runnin to me everytime I drop by.
_/my compiler's not drivin me mad while Im doin my programmin assignment.
_/lyin on the bed while listenin to the rain.
_/finding a bunch of wonderful lookin glass rings.
_/buyin a sneakers with straps so that I dont have to keep on workin on the shoe laces
_/discoverin that spicy food wont make my tummy aches(which is yet to happen)
_/knowin that my lil bro's always there to finish up my food.
_/reading a good book
_/makin a weird lookin sand castle.
_/my fav songs are on air.
_/Im gettin taller(which is deadly impossible to occur nowadays)
_/the world's smillin back at me.
_/my "bf" is not in his comot mode.
_/Im baby-talkin with my cute lil couz.
_/some ppl think that Im younger than my age.haha!
_/Im going out with my family.
_/Im off for a looooong drive.

Eh..where are you goin?

I still have err..another 1001 things in my Im-happy-when list.

monster:ZzzZzZzzZzzZz (T_T)
martian:Im only happy when ur Im-happy-when list is over.

Aaaa? :( *sulks*

.medium.rare.or.well.done?.

Anybody cravin for some yummilicious finger-steak?Oh yeah,its medium rare.

haha!

The happiest seconds of my life today,must be the good few sec when I accidentally delightfully placed my hand on the hot steaming blardy wonderful iron.Owh JOY.

Boleh sekali lagi?

Neway,went out with Bro Kecik and spent some good few bucks on the very much fattenin healthy foods.Nyum~ Was sorta lucky coz I didnt have to duck down every now and then to tie up my shoe laces.*beams* hoho!yeah yeah,my next sneakers gonna be somethin with straps. :P

Last nite,someone was like

k:"Do u know how to play violin?I need ur help."
me:"I know how to kill people with violin.Do you need any help? :D"

haha..Do I actually look like someone who knows how to play violin?

NOT!

.have.u.ever?.

Have you ever wonder how to make people to start liking you(in the opposite-sex-kinda-way) in a jiffy??

Simple.

Just follow these 3, very very easy steps.

1st step
::Hunt Find urself a decent guy/gurl.

2nd step
::Start to like him/her with all ur might.

3rd step
::Sit back,relax and wait for the wonderful absolute result.

The hypothesis:
The very moment that you start to like someone.
Out of the mid of nowhere,his/her
::roomie
::friends
::neighbors
will amazingly start to be interested in you (though there's a HUGE chance that they never realize that you exist before).

So there you go,a whole bunch of people to like you for whutever-the-reason-is/are.
Just the way you like it.

Result:
_________________(Plz fill in the blank)

Conclusion:
_________________(Plz fill in the blank)

Submit your report to me within a month or so or your marks will be deducted..

End of our Have You Ever session.

p/s:
DO tell me bout the result.Yeah,you can thank me later. :P

.i.wanna.spend.my.lifetime.lovin.u.

Moon so bright,nite so fine.
Keep ur heart,here with mine.
Life's a dream,we are dreamin.
Race the moon,catch the wind.
Ride the nite,to the end.
Seize the day,stand up for the light.

I wanna spend my lifetime lovin you.
If that is all I ever do.*sigh*

Erk..eww.Whuts up with that?Hee..well.Im in love.Love is in the air.*sniff sniff* I can even smell it.Tralalala.haha!NOT!

Hee..Notice the MOON?Im dedicatin the song to 1 of my beloved friend cum housemate,MOON!(read:MUN)

Urgh,Im good in memorizin the lyric of songs,but I couldnt think of another song with the word moon in it at the moment,*blur* so I settled down with this zorro song.Well..Im quite deadly sure that she would be very glad if there's a guy dedicatin the song to her instead of me.(note:Its a terrible nitemare for gurls to receive this sort of sappy song from another gurl rather than a guy durin her birthday if she's straight).This song make me sound so les. :P

Erk..tapi saya ikhlas.*innocent smile*

Eh.Im gettin out of topic.Err..Im about to announce somethin..ermm..*thinkin*

Ting *idea*

Owh yeah..Tomorrow gonna be a BIG day for MUN.She's turnin 20 tomorrow!!*cheers* yey!*jumpin*

Happy besday to you,
eppy besday to youu..
eppy besday to MUN.
Eppy besdayyy to youuu...

Phew..Im out of breath.

hehe!Hope that everythin gonna be okie dokie for you dear.All the best.Keep up with ur cool attitude.Be cool aight?Im glad that we found each other. :P Me luv you much *hugs*

Okie..Im off.Bloated with MUN's yummy-and-owh-so-irresistible choc birthday cake there goes my 3 days diet.*knocks head*

Have a GREAT week people.Mucho Love!

.turnin.into.a.balloon.

(WARNING:Boring crap ahead.Plz run away to safety.)

burp..erk..excuse me.Alhamdullilah.

Im deadly full.Had a BIG dinner just now - went out with my friends for dinner.Stuffed myself up with Yong tau fo,sate and the lame-tak-jumpe air kelape.haha!Bloated.I cant sleep with a full tummy.Guess that I need to stay up for another hour or so,which is not a big deal since Im free for the next 3 days.Owh lucky me.

Hee..owh yeah.Sat for my programmin midterm test earlier today(Thursday).Hows it?Good good.Utterly good.Thx Allah for that.Its my lucky day, though someone forgot to wish me luck. *roll eyes* Thx for the ignorance.Pretty much appreciated.

Got back right after my Data Com tutorial class which lasted for less than 50 mins.huhu!My tutor's eagerly-waited-sentence of the day must be the "okie class,we'll continue last week..blah blah.Do you have any questions?".Like a powerful trigger,it provoked the students' ignore-whutever-the-tutor's-sayin-n-start-packin senses.hoho!Typical :P

At home,while I was lyin lazily on my bed while readin the..ehem "Chicken Soup for Romantic Soul"(note:The librarian - who was in charge gimme the haih-romantic-soul?-u-must-be-deadly-jiwang look along with a weird smile as if I've made his life miserable).Well..Its not like Im hopelessly romantic,I just happened to love the Chicken Soup books.Hehe!The book is surely nice,though somewhere at the end of my mind,those lovey dovey stories seem too sweet to be true - those must be one of the stuff that wont happen in my life.haha!

m:"wanna go out for a movie with me?"
f:"sure,whut you wanna see?"
m:"you"

hahaha!

Okie back to the story,when I almost drifted off to the la-la land.My cell rang.Looked at the screen,unknown numbers appeared.Pressed the talk button and hello!are you there?I can see you "hello?".The 1st word from the caller "adek?".Erk..sounds familiar.While I was still half confused and "mamai".The voice at the end of the line started to laugh.The the voice started to talk again "ey adek,remember me?".After a good few secs,I managed to match the voice with someone.haha!Bro B!It has been ages since we talked and I still can recall that the first few months of our friendship were a real disaster.Its real bad.haha!Shittin bout each other and he keeps on callin me "kerek" everynow and then.He used to tell me to shut up coz he thought that I talked wayy to much.Being someone older,he expected me to listen to everythin he has in mind,though some of it didnt make sense to me.Im not sure whether he said all those useless crap in purpose but He used to hate the idea of me denyin and rejectin his piece of mind and the idea of me being the snotty lil spoilt brat was surely somethin he had in mind.haha!The good old days? :P

Im not sure whether Im good in seducin people to like me,but I know that somehow Im good vice versa.I guess.

Hee..owh dear Insanity Test,plz tell me somethin that I didnt know. :P

Okie,enough said.Time to blast off.

Its time to..

Mencomelkan diri

Jom!

.falls.on.me.

Heehoo..back from my so called hiatus.

Helloo..hello?Are you there?I can see youuuuu.. :P yeah YOU!

Brr..its deadly cold.

Hujan.Hujan.Hujan.

No..no.Im NOT complainin.I LOVE rainy days.The fresh moist cool air.ahh..Heavenly.

Im only happy when it rains.Eh..lemme rephrase that,Im deadly happier when it rains.*wink*

Well..rainy days seem incomplete without froggie,earlier this eve;Ive been freaked out by a frog that almost jumped into my "bf" when I was gettin out of the car.Perhaps the froggie thought that I'll step on its tiny lil(read:huge) body or somethin coz it just sat there and gave me the what-were-u-thinkin-u-almost-step-on-me look.Hee..sorry lil froggie.eh?Are you my lost prince?err..Guess not,wrong froggie.

Owh yeah,Now Im happily sittin on my chair with my proper study table.At last.haha!After the bones-breaking-period of the unproperness.Credits to Bro Kecik.Thx for helpin me with the screws.Nasib baik you didnt catch any flu or somethin.haha!Plz do somethin with your hair dear.Messy. :P

Ahh..need to blast off to la-la land or I'll miss the 1st class.

Blastin off in
5
4
3
2
1
0.5
0.25

tata!

.maggots.in.my.head.

Ive been sufferin from this weird headache since morn.The best way to describe it - there's a group of huge fat juicy maggots dancin and jumping joyfully inside my pity brain.The headache comes and go.Maybe it's my body's way of telling me to stop goin to slumberland at God-knows-whut oclock.Sleep a few mins after subuh.Got few msges to alarm me bout that.Geeez..thx dearies.*hugs* Then slept the day away and woke up in time for the Malaysian Idol thingy. I didnt have the intention to wake up,but I was forced to coz my housemates happened to scream their lungs out as if Brandon Boys suddenly showed up in front of our front door.If thats the case,me pun nak tumpang sekali.haha!.I tried to drag myself out of my stop-seducin-me-to-sleep-again bed and managed to resist the temptation.Stayed in front of the tv for God-knows how long and realized that me lum mandi.haha!Im so twisted.So confused.So blurry.Guess that Ive lost my train of thoughts or somehow it moves faster than usual and left me behind.Maybe I need to see a Martian doc or somethin.Livin in this strange land is gettin me weirder.

Last nite,had a brief chat with this unknown fella on ym.Since I was like "me still study" and "nope me tak penah dgr pon bout that".Then the fella started to call me,ME.That fella actually thought that my name is ME though Ive already mentioned my name earlier.haha!wtf.Apekeh? *shrugs* Some ppl happened to be so ______(pls fill in the blank coz I cant think of any suitable word).I didnt correct that fella bout the name thingy.Maybe havin ME as a new nick is not that bad after all.Ehem..at least its more decent than the nick that the particular someone gave me :P *grins*

Well..Ive been wonderin why do I always have a softspot for someone that I wanna put aside.It always leave me feelin guilty and uneasy.The more I try to run away from it,the more it keeps on hauntin me like an invisible tail that you try to cut off.Unsuccessfully.

Haih..whutever.*roll eyes*

Hee..I have a HUGE urge to go and meet my dear couz.It has been quite sometime since the last time we hang out.I miss her over-pamperin-me attitude.She always make me feel like we are kids again.I still can recall how we turned her bathtub into a kiddie pool.Flooded with bubbles that we made up using half bottle of the shower creme.haha!After the our-version-of-foam-party,we ended up lookin like a 50 years old pickles.The good old days.Never fail to put up a silly smile on my scarry face.

Brr..its cold.

if(weather = cold)
return sleep;
else
return sleep-whenever-u-like;

its time to..sl..ee..ee.pp.

tata

.my.twisted.angel.

Urgh..my back hurts.My finger hurts like hell.Almost striped off my fingernail last nite.Stupid carelessness.Silly me.What a GOOD start for my eagerly-waited weekend.

Owh well,things happen.Its goin to get better sooner or later aight? Its not like Ive lost my finger or somethin.no biggie.

Hee..Decided to go out today.Went for a loooooong drive with Mun(How long?Okie,here's the clue.If I just drive straight up North.I'll be home by now.Yeah thats how long it was)*roll eyes*

Managed to send my beloved bf to the car wash for a nice washie2.Now he's all clean and cute once again.*grins*

hee..Im off to scare the livin daylite out of my friends.later!

.sleep.all.day.

Hee..I wish that I could sleep the day away.Im deadly tired. (T_T)

Well,Ive changed the layout.Its not supposed to be beautiful or awesome or ape2 jer yg sewaktu dgnnyer.I just want it to look..err..neat?if it can be considered as neat *shrugs*

Alhamdulillah,just finished with my programmin assignment.Thx to whoever that managed to cope with my u-whine-way-too-much attitude since 2 days back.hehe!Im so sorry.But sometimes things just tend to fall out of places.Scattered.It freaked me out.Mucho gracias for the patience. *winks* me luv you much.

Its already July,how time flies.2 more midterm papers to go and not to forget,tons of wonderful assignments.Hee..I feel like I need to give myself a treat this weekend.Movies?FatteningGood healthy food?Haa??..midterm test?assignments?Screw em! Err..lets just forget bout em for a day or two then I'll be back into my nerd-mode.Promise.*roll eyes*

Well.enough said.Time to do some err.."educational observation"?ehem :P

Later ppl.Happy July.