.the.day.I.lose.my.sanity.

Well,Im not sure whether Im suppose to laugh or cry. I have this weird feelin, it has been hauntin me since God-knows-when.

Its some the sort of feelin that keeps on naggin and screamin within you all day long though you never really know whut you did or might do.

haih,life is just like a box of chocs,you'll never know when you gonna be eaten by DD the monster.Another bittersweet moment.Erm..well,live it,face it...LOVE it.

Maybe I should do some self-searchin thingy.

Erm..few days more to go before the new sem(read:my time to mencomelkan diri is runnin out)

Alhamdulillah for everything.Things aint gettin pretty, but I'll live.

.cant.think.of.any.title.

*SIGH*(note that BIG sigh)

Now, at this very moment,I wish that I have a.. one way ticket to the moon.

note: a sign of a depressed student.

Well,spend my day browsin through the all stuff - cards,letters and those lil notes that my friends used to pass around durin class.Haih,I miss everythin bout em.I miss you all, even if you dont miss me.

Hee..the moment of truth,when?Soon..soon my dear.

THANKS for the luck.*hugs* me cayang korang.hehe! ya all love me to aight?haha!I know :P

.heee.hooo.

Alhamdulillah,actually Im tooo content and full.I cant sleep.haha!My dad came back from Langkawi earlier this eve.He bought another lovely box of Italian chocs for me.heee..A blue heart shaped box.Cute!When my dad took out the box from his bag.My mum was like "Beli la lagi chocs bebyk,ur daughter dah bertambah comel." and I was like "aaaa???Am I gettin fat??".haha!A question that doesnt really matter coz whutever the answer may be,I still gonna stuff myself up as long as Im home.hehe! :P~ heaven.

Then,my dad decided that we should go out for dinner.Hee..another HEAVY dinner.Black pepper steak,super creamy potato salad and shark fin soup.There goes my diet.Urgh..bet that I'll gain weight overnite.*roll eyes*

Yeah,I managed to get myself an army-like dark green skirt and a bunch of cds.heee..hooo...I LOVE being at home.tralalala..

Erk..my result gonna come out within...errm..3 days??*screams in terror*

Well..hope that everything gonna be okie dokie.*prayin hard*

Hope for the best and prepare for the worst!Wish me luck!*wink*

Mucho love!

.time.machine.

All that I really really NEED right now is a time machine. I just discovered somethin and now,I wish that there's somethin I could do to undo everything. I was quite thrilled and flattered at the same time by the so called discovery but as much as I was feelin excited to know bout the I-thought-its-interestin truth, I'll be more thankful if everythin that happened earlier gonna turn into dust bunnies and be blown away by the wind.I wish.

Well,drop the discovery thingy.

Im back from my so called hiatus. Im around,alive and kickin. Its not like Ive travelled to the middle earth, got lost in the mid of nowhere or somethin. Im still here,livin my mundane life and I have nuthin much to write about. Everythin seems so..normal,infact its wayyyyy too normal.*sob sob*

I NEED somethin UNIQUE,WEIRD,CRAZY or whutever that can be considered less-normal.someone save mee!!!help!!!SOS!!

To whom it may concern, yes Im CRUEL.We just gotta be cruel to be kind sometimes dear.Forgive me.

note:I still NEED a time machine.Contact me ASAP if you bump into one. I NEED it, desperately.I'll give you all the chocs.Plz plz plz...

.owh.la.la.

Saya sangat happy.

Happy happy Im happy. Takde keje lain selain mencomelkan diri,nanti jadi choc donut!Biarkan, biarkan lah.

Sangat windu nak bully org tu.Dimanakah dia?Dimanakah?haha! :P~

Sesuatu akan menjadi reality,bilakah??

Sabar lah dd,sabar lah...

.e.v.e.r.y.t.h.i.n.g.


I can be a nightmare of the grandest kind
I can withhold like it's going out of style
I have the bravest heart that you've ever seen
And you've never met anyone who's as positive as I am sometimes

You see everything, you see every part
You see all my light and you love my dark
You dig everything of which I'm ashamed
There's not anything to which you can't relate
And you're still here

I blame everyone else, not my own partaking
My passive-aggressiveness can be devastating
I'm the most gorgeous woman that you've ever known
And you've never met anyone who's as everything as I am sometimes

You see everything, you see every part
You see all my light and you love my dark
You dig everything of which I'm ashamed
There's not anything to which you can't relate
And you're still here

What I resist, persists, and speaks louder than I know
What I resist, you love, no matter how low or high I go

You see everything, you see every part
You see all my light and you love my dark
You dig everything of which I'm ashamed
There's not anything to which you can't relate
And you're still here

And you're still here
And you're still here...


Hehe!I like this song.Isnt it nice? Er..Just realized that it has the same title dgn my current theme song. hehe! EVERYTHING.Same title diff singer.

Well,got a call from Gie,she not goin to move to Jurassic Park next sem due to some personal reasons that are strictly P&C.Talked for a good an hour,its has been quite sometimes since we talked. Glad that I finally know why she 'dissapeared' since few weeks bacK.I tried to call her since God-knows-when and though I feel kinda bad for her after the long talk,it seems like theres nuthin much than I can do except for the good-for-nuthin so called advice.Hope that everythin gonna be okie dokie soon darlin,I'll say a lil pray for you :)

Hee..Im runnin out of credit.I hafta topup soon.hehe!Thx for all the sms dearies.haha!Yes..keep on msgin.

Wooweee..time for cartoon!!*wink*

.WoHoooOooO.

Good News
-/ Im still alive n kickin.Alhamdulillah.
-/ Im HOME!!!!!
-/ My Baby is doin okie dokie again!!*hugs*
-/ My lil baby bro is here to be bullied.
-/ The mengada2 season is here!!!!yey yey *jumpin*

Bad News
-/ Im always home alone with a fridge full of chocs.Mummy!!!Help!!The chocs r tryin to seduce me!!!Make em stop!!!
-/ I'll gain weight *screams in teror*OMG!The 'mencomelkan diri' season is here once again.
-/ I have to refrain myself from turnin into a giant choc pudding donut
-/ I have to burn off the extra calories!
-/ refer to the statement above
-/ refer to the statement above

hehe!Glad that Im home in one piece.Mentally and physically.I was utterly exhausted by the time my plane arrived in SAH Airport. My hand was achin,Ive been draggin my deadly heavy trolly bag,my beloved laptops and my backpack since morn. Well, thx and mucho luv to my dear couz for helpin me with my stuff and sorry for the troubles eh.

Errmm..durin my not-so-long journey back home,my dad kept on callin every now n then,maybe he just wanted to make sure that Im on the right track since Im obviously bad in takin those public transports.I was on Putra from Wangsa Maju to KL Central and I took KLIA Express to KLIA.haha!There was this aunt in the KLIA express train who couldnt stop lookin at me since I sat down in front of her. I felt like askin her "why????" but of coz I didnt.hehe! :P~

Well,Im off to bed.Bed?Erk..naah not yet,I have a bunch of books to read.haha!Nice!Miss me not! :P

.season.finale.

Sudah lama hamba berkelana di Jurassic Park ini.Purnama demi purnama datang dan pegi.Siang dan malam silih berganti.Akhirnya, ia akan berhenti disini.(read:Berakhirnya Beta, menjelangnya Gamma). Hamba akan kembali ke tanah tumpah darah yg tercinta. Meneruskan amalan yang mengade2 suci lagi murni dengan pemeringkatan 3 kali disamping keluarga tersayang, sambil menambahkan lagi kecomelkan diri. Kehilangan hamba jgn ditangisi buat membazir tissue sahaja.Hamba akan tetap kembali untuk membosankan diri meneruskan pertapaan ini , setelah percutian hamba selama 3 minggu berakhir nanti. Jika tuan-tuan hamba kurang bernasib baik,hamba akan tetap menulis warkah yang amat bosan bermakna lagi syahdu buat tuan-tuan hamba sekalian ketika dalam tempoh percutian hamba.Nantikan lah.

Akhir kata, kiranya ada salah dan silap serta kata-kata hamba yg berbekas di hati, hamba memohon ampun dan maaf dari hujung rambut ke hujung kaki hamba yang tidak lah begitu tinggi. Sepeninggalan hamba, jangan lah tuan-tuan hamba lupakan diri hamba disini. Jangan la tuan-tuan hamba malas atau segan dan malu-malu kucing untuk melayangkan satu atau dua atau tiga,empat,lima,enam,tujuh dan seterusnya pesanan ringkas atau bahasa modennya SMS untuk hamba.Hamba akan menantikannya di kala hamba sedang bersenang-lenang di kampung halaman nanti. Segala ingatan tulus dan ikhlas tuan-tuan hamba semua,amatlah hamba hargai.

Jika ada sumur di ladang,
Boleh la kita menumpang mandi,
Jika ada umor yang panjang,
Boleh lah hamba merepek lagi kite berjumpa lagi.

Moga-moga kita berjumpa lagi. Selamat tinggal *sob sob*

.the.end.

First thing first, Im FREE!!!!haha!Over and done with the final exam. Infact, the last paper earlier this eve marked the end of my Beta.Wohoooo!!Erk..opss.Alhamdulillah.*grins* Lots of stuff happened during this bittersweet academic year. Ive lost some of my good friends but somehow managed to fill up the empty holes that they left behind, though its rather clear to see that it just wont be the same,ever again.Errm..but whut the heck,life goes on and I dont wanna waste my precious time weepin over ppl that might simply destined to be my hi-bye friends. Im pretty much okie dokie with the current situation.There's nuthin more to lose, cause from now on, I just gonna stop holdin onto somethin that barely within my reach. If you love somethin,just let it go.Well hell yeah,Im lettin go.Go go..spread your wings and fly.... butterfly.Shooo..shooo.. :P

Hee..I hope that everything gonna be better next sem.New sem,new house but the same ol beloved Jurassic Park. I surely hope that I'll keep on movin on though things are gettin harder n harder each day.Hope that I'll live.*shrugs*Well,no prob no life eh Mun??*wink*.Its surely wont be that fun and excitin without all those nerve-wrackin-mind-blowin probs,somehow they seem to spice up our lives.Dont you think?

Now,I just hafta pack up my stuff, but errr..where do I start??*knocks head*

note: haha! To all my beloved friends,me luv you much! :D Thx and sorry for everythin yah?.See ya next sem!!

.my.sweet.lil.dearie.

16 years ago a lil baby boy was born and he happened to be my one and only baby bro. He came poppin right into my life after 4 years of everythin-is-just-for-me. Though I kinda thought that he managed to rip away some of the love and affection that used to be poured just for me. Though he's the reason why I hafta learn how to share and be the one to be blamed for some of the stuff I didnt even know or do.Though his existance keep on pushin me up to a stage where I hafta be flawless and perfect coz Im the so called 'role model' .Though he's the one that makes my world up side down everytime Im home.Though he luvs to turn my sweet dreams into nitemares whenever I overslept with his very own melodic self-composed songs.Though he'll keep on buggin me about takin his pics so that he can send it to his gurls penpals. Though he's blardy good in membodek and being all manja2 everytime Im mad.Though he's a deadly spoilt brat and a pain in the ass.Though..err..whut else eh?err...errr

haha! :P~ End of the list.

Well,regardless of every lil mean things that he did and every lil troubles that he had caused me for the past 16 years,it seems like I dont have any choice,I just hafta live with it.

Live with it, love it and thats the reason why I do love him to bits.haha!Hee..Happy Birthday sweet 16 to my not so lil baby bro.Hopefully he gonna be okie dokie in everything and sweeter when Im home later eh!it rhymes!.hehe!

4 down!!!1 more to go!!tralalalalal!

.time.to.wonder.

3 down, 2 more to go.

WARNING: Long and obviously deadly boring posting ahead.Run away to safety.

Im pretty much exhausted. I dont know why I feel like everythin seems to move so fast.Time flies and ppl seems to be runnin after somethin that I dont even know whut it is.If its the so called perfection in life,as humans aka the insatiable creatures, I dont even think we gonna come to an end unless its the end of the life itself.

It can be quite tiring to be surrounded by all those stuff, being puzzled by the endless list of things-to-do in life.Sometimes, somehow I wish that the world,the ppl,the time and everything thats movin gonna come to a stop for awhile. Just like those time freeze thingy that we sometimes come across in the movies, but Im almost sure that its not goin to happen.Well,at least not in this real world,perhaps its goin to happen in my dreams.Perhaps.

Nowadays,my life seems to pass me by in a jiffy and I do feel like a hamster thats runnin in my spinnin wheel.Runnin and runnin while trying to keep up with the pace so that I wont trip.Sometimes, I even wonder why people are such in a hurry.I know we hatfa be fast, we need to be alerted bout things thats goin on around us,we need to keep an eye on those chances that might change our lives the better but it doesnt mean that everything has to be so. There are certain things in life that need to be cherished, we need to live it slowly while savorin every lil part of it and might as well try to bottle it up so that it wont fade away or simply gone with the wind.

There's a point in life where I most likely feel like Ive overlooked few important stuff,either taking it for granted or even acted like it didnt even exist.Now,how I wish that I could turn back time.

*sigh*

Have you ever stop in the mid of our fast movin life and look back?

Do you even wonder why we are such in a rush??

.kiss.the.rain.

Alhamdulillah..its rainin.

Hee..Now Im really really runnin out of words.Someone!Plz get me a dictionary!err..how to spell BOSAN in english??

haha!Well..I still have tons of stuff to cover up,Programmin,ISD, and Maths.!People!Plz send all ur positive energy and mucho love to me.I need them to keep me out of the state of blurness and laziness, to keep me movin on for the next few days.Im beggin you.Plz plz plz....*cries*

note:Signs of a desperate student. (T_T)

:p~

Rather than usin all the creative juices in my head to keep on crappin,I guess I better save it for my programmin paper.Kan kan??

Err..owh yeah, just a friendly reminder to Isa,

Love is a drug,somehow the dose can be unmonitored.So be careful.

Haha!Whaddya know?*suprise suprise*Ive turned to be his very-much-appreciated Luv doc since God-knows-when and managed to cause a severe damage to his brain.Yes!I made it!!My biggest accomplishment ever!*sobsob* eh!Where's my pay cheque?? haha!You are one crazy guy or is it me?? *grins* Keep it cool bro.Im always here to make things worse for you.haha! :P~

I better keep on diggin into my beloved-super-duper-interestin notes.before it too late

Til then, wish me luck..wish me WELL.

extra note:To whom it concern, sorry for my cold-weird attitude yesterday. Somethin was cloggin my mind and I couldnt think straight. Sorry for my ignorant, my bad.

.make.me.sway.

Ive been listenin to all sort of oldies since last nite.Reminded me of my dad.Booohoo..*sob sob* homesick!Owh well, 9 days more to go.Then Im off to Mars!Home sweet home.Feelin quite numb since last nite.Slept at 4am.Downloaded a few series of Crayon Sinchan, its not really somethin I like to dig into but Im really BORED! Heh, now Im talkin like Ive never been in this state of boredom before or am I just trying to run from the fact that my life is BORING.hehe!How pathetic.Im feelin sorry for myself.haha!NOT! :P~

A.W.A.K.E.

Its 4.24am in the morn and Im still awake, starin blankly at the most interestin notes of the century.duh~ Feelin all refreshed though I know I hafta sleep. Terima kasih diucapkan kepade Mr.Saiful di atas segala petua2 utk xm anda :P~ minus the toyol dan juga wake up call anda kerana berjaya memgembalikan kenormalan saya walaupun hanye titun utk 2 jam sahaja.Jika anda balik Malaysia nanti, saya ingin mencekik anda.haha!

Owh yer, tidak syak lagi,"padan muka" sememangnyer lebih menarik utk diucapkan dibandingkan dengan "cian dia" dan anda amat la bagus sekali dgn perumpamaan2 anda yg menarik itu :P saya sekarang sememangnyer berase seperti "kodok di dlm kuali" adenya *rolleyes*

Saya harus kembali menstudykan diri.Doakan kejayaan saya.

note:Lain kali jgn lah anda lupe utk recordkan nyanyian lullaby ibu anda sebelum kembali ke Jepun itu, kerana anda amat memerlukannyer dan dapatkan seekor kucing untuk menepuk2 anda sehingga titun :P~

DD the monster melaporkan dari Jurassic Park.Sekian,Terima Kasih.