woowee...

im goin to my grandparents place this eve.

n this Monday, im off to jurassic park again..duh~

heh..last nite i was soo damn tired.i slept at 8pm!hahah..beshnyer titun.

well, eppy EID Adha ppl :)

im feelin dizzy..crazy..

it was drizzlin when i was on my way back home from my lil bro's so called tuition center.

n i was drivin carefully like mad!haha..i luv the adrenalin rush.i know dat im not suppose to do so,but i just cant help it.. :P~

yeah..the damn traffic light at the junction(in front of my housin area) is not workin again!duh~bandaraya aper nih???isk..i hate traffic jam.

aaaa...i want a flyin car!!or..err..flyin carpet?


I'm thinking of my soul's sovereignty,
and I know everything you hate in me.
Fill me up with over-pious badgerings,
to throw them up, oh, one of my favorite things.
Remember all the lessons fed to me?
Me the young sponge, so ready to agree.
Years have gone; I recognize the walking dead,
now aware that I'm alive and way ahead.
Too bad the things that make you mad
are my favorite things.
And I'm so happy.
I see you looking, I know that you're thinking
that I'll never go anywhere.
The things that I've done and the things
that I've seen, I don't really expect you to care.


hoho..my fav things!

wohooo...

woowee...new layout!!

hope takde saper yg sakit mata :P~

errr...urgh???

Since im home,ive been havin this I wanna blog.I know there r things in my head,things dat need to be expressed..but what is it?*rolleyes*

well..since few days back,im goin through the same ol boring daily routine..
-/wake up (n nobodys home..hihi :P)
-/working on the daily house chores
-/cook?? :P~ haha!
-/watch tv(including my daily dose of cartoons)
-/mencomelkan diri
-/pick up my lil bro from skool
-/helping my mum with her paperworks(strange-me aka secretary-me)
-/etc etc

nothing interesting really :P~ its just the fact dat im home!dats the only reason y its much much more better though it can be classified as boring stuff way back in Jurassic park.whut can i say..theres no place like home..haha!

erm..I never really want to admit that I really hate it when my midterm break,sem break.etc etc r not the same with other colleges or ipta.duh~i'll be at home when all my friends r still in campus and vice versa.*sigh*

On yeah as the result of the tak-serupa-org-holidays,it requires me to bertapa at home alone(well..most of the time) coz my parents gonna be off to work, my bro gonna b at skool.and friends??heh..dunt ask!huhu..how pathetic?naah..at least I have the chance to master the useless unique bertapa-n-mencomelkan-diri skill.isnt it wonderful??huhu

*the sound of MJ's song - u r not alone*
monster&martian: u r not alone..we r here with u..though ur far away..we r here to say..lalalala
dd: thx..*sobsob*

well..its time for then secretary-me mode again.need to keep on working on the paperworks, hafta make sure dat its there on my mum's table tomorrow morn.

my mum just gave me a big hug few mins ago.the perfect price for a tiny help from the anak yg mithali(perasan lebey).hahah..im not kiddin.its one big hug.sounds a lil bit childish eh?:P~ but thats whut I got.cayang my mummy.

My dad is still in kl.he's comin home within 2 days.erm..is there anymore surprise gift for me?hihi >:)

again n again...

took out the smsme button again.

the service is goin crazy again!maybe it just wanna save me from spammers!hihiih :P~

too many programs r bad for ur health :P~

Dear IT Support,

Last year I upgraded from Boyfriend 5.0 to Husband 1.0 and noticed a slow down in the overall performance, particularly in the flower and jewellery applications that had operated flawlessly under Boyfriend 5.0.

In addition, Husband 1.0 un-installed many other valuable programs, such as Romance 9.5 and Personal Attention 6.5, but installed undesirable programs such as EPL 5.0, NBA 3.0 and ESPN 2.0. And now. Conversation 8.0 no longer runs and House Cleaning 2.6 simply crashes the system. I've tried running Nagging 5.3 to fix these problems, but to no avail.

What can I do?

Signed,
Desperate

---------------------------------------------------------------------

Reply:

Dear Desperate,

First keep in mind; Boyfriend 5.0 is an entertainment package, while Husband 1.0 is an operating system. Try entering the command C: I THOUGHT YOU LOVED ME ! and download Tears 6.2 to install Guilt 3.0.

If all works as designed, Husband 1.0 should then automatically run the applications Jewellery 2.0 and Flowers 3.5.

But remember, overuse can cause Husband 1.0 to default to Grumpy Silence 2.5, Happy Hour 7.0 or Late Night Teh Tarik 6.1. Late Night 6.1 is a very bad program that will create SnoringLoudly.wav files.

Whatever you do, DO NOT install Mother-in-Law 1.0 or reinstall another Boyfriend program. These are not supported applications and will crash Husband 1.0.

In summary, Husband 1.0 is a great program, but it does have a limited memory and cannot learn new applications quickly. You might consider additional software to improve memory and performance. I personally recommend Hot Food 3.0 and Lingerie 6.9.

Good Luck,
IT Support

dd:hihiih..nice :P~

fakin it...

erk?naah..im not fakin bout anythin, at least not rite now..hehe*wink*

well.i came across this show on discovery channel a nice unique tv program, faking it!

Ever wonder what it would be like to have another profession? Well, you're certainly not alone. Our Faking It participants, for one reason or another, have decided to turn their worlds upside down. With much guidance from professional mentors, our fakers attempt to prove that they're the real deal. Can they fool the real pros? Or will they be called out as imposters? Watch the show to see if they can fake it and make it or flake out and fail.

its a reality show where u have to go for an audition n then they gonna give u a month of a complete trainin so that u'll be able to do somethin extremely diff than ur current job n ur life.nice~

it gonna be quite interestin to join this kinda stuff.dont u think??*grins*

heh..at least its much more interestin than watchin the akademi fantasia
thingy.duh~ some of those ppl r more suitable kalau amik berlakon utk drama minggu ini.huhu... its not like im denyin the fact that they might be a bunch of talented ppl but sometimes they r just plain ....err??(figure it our urself) :P~

to the AF die hard fans,no offence eh? its not like im not supportin the local programs.but some of em can be really annoyin n stoopid..oh yeah..some r vice versa.2 thumbs up! :D

back to the topic.faking it reminded me of another tv series,the pretender.its so damn nice if u r such a genius n then its gonna be an ease for u to get into other ppl's shoes n be just as good as them in doin things that they do..wah..beshnyer.duh~in ur dreams :P~

monster: y r u so into this kinda stuff dd?
martian:maybe its a sign that ur a daydreamer or somethin dd??
dd:erm...*eyerollin*naah..dunt think so.*geleng2*

i rather take it as a sign that that im fully aware of how life is full of possibilities.(ayat skema)things happen rite?expect the unexpected eh? ;)

well..its time to..err.cook? :P~

its workin now!!

its almost 1pm.i need to go n pick up my bro soon.

n yeah..ive added the button for smsme again.

that thingy was a lil bit giler b4, but i guess that its okie dokie rite now.hehe :P~

well..well...

well <---- one of my fav words.

erm..okie..im tryin not to write that word.

well..err opss...err..i went out with my lil bro today. im was tryin to find a good printer for my mum.somethin wrong with the old printer,dah expired kot asyik2 wat hal jer.rase cam nak buang dalam sungai kasi ikan mamam jer printer tuh.but since all the shops still tutup..no printer!sakan betul diorg beraya.*geleng2*ey..bukak ler kedai tu cepat!!

erm.. my bro got himself somethin.whuts it?Xbox.yes..he finally bought that thingy to replace his beloved ps and i asked him to get me some nice games so that i can tumpang sekaki.heee... :D

at the age of 16, i dunt know how much money he had spent on those kinda stuff plus he's brand conscious.duh~though i think that i am so too but.. he's extremely worse.aiyee...ape la nak jadi ngan bebudak sekarang nih.hahah :P~

oh yeah... i got myself a new lip gloss.hihi..its not like i like to wear those stuff but they surely look nice n temptin.hihih :P~ im collectin it rather than usin it.ish2..whut a waste, but i just cant help it. hee...whut a nice hobby.

tomorrow gonna be a hectic day,

- pegi post office

- gettin a new printer for my mum(if i can find any)

- another visit to the bank

- meetin up with an old friend. :P~

- send my mum's car for a nice washy2..hihi

err...im off for a trip to slumberland!wowee...nite2

heee....

stalker..stalk or be stalked..hihihi ;)

eh..erk?no no...naah im not talkin bout myself.heh..eyein on someone is quite normal..err.its normal rite?*wink*but the idea of turnin urself into a stalker is just way tooo much for me.its a good idea for desperados.n im not 1 of em.thats 1 thing for sure*grins*

woke up quite early this morn. 8am!!(if u can call dat early).hihi..my mum was in the kitchen.dia cakap nak drag me along to the pasar.but since i was still in the state of mamai-ness. i went straight back to my room n doze off again.haha :P~

(note:i slept at 2am coz i was helpin my mum with her paperworks..its seems like a good reason to skip the 'tour de pasar' rite??)*wink*

went out with my makcu, n the guys in black(my couz n beloved lil bro).almost got hit by a car.duh~alhamdulillah panjang umor.

n since im home.rase malas nak bloggin.y eh???

oh la la

hee...tired :P.just got back from my couz's place.

right after i got back home.i was dragged to the star parade.huhu..shoppin :P~ bought some stuff.cari2 barang.penat~

the next day,went back to my grandparents house.they r no longer in Malaysia rite now.they took the flight to Jeddah yesterday.pegi haji lagi for God-knows-how-many-times.and rite now mesti dah sampai Mekah.

hee...yesterday was tiring but fun.went to sleep at 1am after helpin my grandma with her packin.helped her to choose the clothes n stuff.then woke up at 4am.though its still damn early the house was full of ppl.geez..at 5.30am. off to Penang.my family,macik pacik sume,the relatives.waited at the airport for quite sometime b4 they boarded the flight.i really hate the let-just-kiss-n-say-goodbye part.however,i do hope that diorg akan okie dokie.selamat pegi n selamat balik :) im goin to miss my cool grandparents. cuti 2 weeks tak boleh nak gi kacau2 diorg.hee...

then got back to my grandparents place.few hours after that, off to my aunt place.tadi baru balik rumah.my makcu n my couz pun itut sekali.haha :P

well...since my makcu is here at my place.maybe we gonna go out n do our stuff tomorrow.its cool to have a makcu thats just 6 years older.*wink*im waitin for her to tie the knot.hahaha :P~

hee... since 2 days back, ive been stuffin myself like mad.haha..balas dendam habis-habisan.im goin to turn into a super duper horrible monster within 2 weeks.wait n see

and yeah..theres a big possibility that i'll get a new laptop..a result of a good long debate.(huhu...im such a good debater)hee*grins* and err.."dad, may i have a new cell phone too??*wink*

duh~sleepy..theres a lot of stuff to tell.but im tired.

ku bahagia!!!

well!!whutdaya know?im home!!!!!finally,back to somewhere dat i belong.heavenly~

no more whinin for now.too content.hahah.. :P~

later ppl..miss me not..hahaha

well well....

u've been eyein on someone for quite sometime.its not like u fell heed over heels for her/him.but u just like to catch a glimpse of that person every now n then. n out of the middle of nowhere, someone introduced u to her/him.haha..whut a coincidence :P~ n u reacted as if u dunt even realise that the particular person exist before.

u were like....
"owh,we r in the same class for IS dev?really?me tak perasan pulak?weird isnt it?

well..thats whut i did*sigh*,spontaneously!erk?naah..lemme get it straight,im NOT fallin head over heels for someone or somethin.no NO. its just that unique people are kinda temptin to look at.n that particular person is sorta unique.haha... big eyes?long sharp teeth??firebreathin?furry?hehe..naah,he doesnt look like 1 of those unique monsters in Monster Inc.hee..of coz not.if he does, that gonna be more interestin,dont u think?yeah..perhaps!plus my best class is Care of Magical Creatures remember??

well..enough of those unique ppl thingy.

rite now, im still workin on my reports.duh~endless reports. and i need to pack up my stuff tonite.yes..i must gather up everythin tonite.hafta hafta!

ermm...well,lemme see...i still have 2 more classes tomorrow.machine arch n maths.right after im over n done with those classes,i'll be outta here!superb!i just cant wait to get myself out of this place.n i dunt even want to have another glance at that annoyin homosapien.at least not for another 2 weeks..pheww~ i had enough.

aha..went to meet the associate dean of FIT.asked him to verify a form for me.suprisingly, he's super duper friendly. a mid age chinese guy.well...he looks like 1 of those friendly old chinese neighbours that i used to have before.its such an ease to asked for his signature.no hassle at all.thx God.

erm..need to sleep soon, n within few hours..im goin home.Mummy,wait for me...

its rainin..weee

well.came across this stuff..i think its quite funny..haha :P~

If you were born on the 7th, 16th, 25th of any month then you are number 7.

Number 7

You have got the attraction to anyone out there. You are realistic, confident, happy, a talented individual in your Education, Music, Arts, Singing, and most importantly Acting(inscrutable???). You have real problems with bad temper!! (really???). If you are girl, you are popular with the subjects listed above, you give up things for your parents, I mean you value your family status a lot.(sure do). You will be in the top rank when you reach a certain age! If you are a guy, you are popular with Girls. You are a very talented too!

Most of the number 7s faces lots of problems with their marriage life. Only a very few are happy!! (i'll be 1 of them :P~). It's probably the Lord give you all sort of humans talents and you are about to suffer in family life(im not goin to suffer) , so you need to get ready looking for a partner rather than waiting. (heh???). If you don't, then you might end-up single!(hahaha *wink*). You are wonderful, Friendly, Artistic, Happy person. You are born to contribute lot to this world!!!(i hope!!).

psycho??

got this quiz from munira's blog


you are the cute but psycho happy bunny. You
adorable, but a little out there. It's alright,
you might not have it all, but there are worse


which happy bunny are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

not sure bout the cute thingy.but im surely a lil bit crazy sometimes.haha :P~

weird eh?

few days back,i blurted somethin out to a friend of mine.it seems like she was rather shocked to hear bout those stuff.she told me that i made everythin seems so easy.sure do sis, i only reflected out the best part of everythin for u to see.

its not like im fakin.at the 1st place.those stuff were just tiny lil things that i dunt even bother to think about, but since i tend to bottle it up instead of gettin rid of it.well...seems like im givin it a chance to pile up n grow.

its just like bacteria.bad bacteria..when u discovered it and realized that its deadly.u r supposed to get rid of it ASAP.but then again,u decided to keep it in a bottle.n after sometime..accidentally,u broke the bottle n the bacteria joyfully dancin all around u while spreadin the deadly disease.and at the end of the road,u r the one that gonna suffer as a consequence of ur very own decision.

there goes another senseless, aimless rambling of mine*sigh*

the one with the visitors :D

it has been 3 months since their last visit.haha :P~ thx for visitin me kat jurassic park.
cakap 40 mins..tapi berjam2 tunggu baru sampai.ape lah pacik2 nih.tak patut betul.

:P~ boria!pacik yus n pacik dani hehe.dah lose weight?bagus2 :D keep it up.
n no mane der me mengecil.its just another optical illusion.no doubt.

2 days more to go.*grin*then i'll be back home.boleh ngade2 with my mum.heee..n bully the 1 n only bro of mine.how wonderful.aha..not to forget!bodek my dad.(im his official coffee maker!)heheh :P~ the best part of being the only daughter is i never really have to learn how to share.but still...we need to be able to share sometimes.caring is sharin eh?but , i surely dunt need to share my most of my stuff with my bro.maybe i need to do so if only i have a sis instead of a bro.hee... :D

well..need to keep on workin on my reports and tomorrow gonna be a hectic day.besides the classes, i need to attend another replacement class at 8pm.maths!!!

monster:dd!cmon..finish up ur reports!!
martian:go dd go..cepat!tues day nak balik!!

10 things i hate bout u

1.mengada
2.still nak lambat2 though u know im waitin
3.sometimes u act like i dunt even exist.
4.u got excited over silly lil things
5.selalu nak besar2 cerita
6.too proud of urself..1 sick proudness
7.act as if u know everythin bout me
8.dont know how to tolerate
9.pretendin to be my best friend in front of other ppl..when ur absolutely not!
10.u r a deadly disease

y am i holdin back things i wanna say?

monster&martian:we gotta be cruel to be kind dd...

still lovin u..

got this swf from bro kame..

check it out!!

lemme rest in pieces..

urgh..massive headache.feelin like my head gonna explode within few mins.*sigh*

could u find it in ur heart...
to make this go away...
and lemme rest in pieces

erm...im drownin in the ocean of boredom along with my terrible headache.

weekend sux.i wanna go home!

my cuties..

presentin...my cuties!!bluey&woody*clap2*


heh..it seems like they like each other..dont they?i bet woody mesti happy coz he got himself a friend kan kan? :P~

everythin is wonderful now..weee

"When a friend hurts us, we should write it down in the sand, where the winds of forgiveness get in charge of erasing it away, and when something great happens, we should engrave it in the stone of the memory of the heart, where no wind can erase it"

nice quote eh?but it surely wont be that easy to write it down in the sand each time we got hurted.forgive n forget?it seems like im always surrounded by the wind of forgiveness.but sometimes its just not strong enough to erase everythin.its more like forgive but hard to forget.it takes time to heal.

well..im wonderin why on earth that particular someone actin like im some sort of threat to her life??what did i do?

if its just another result of her insecurity,why should i be blamed?its her own problem if she just dunt have the guts to get out there n be proud of herself.heh..y do u always try to be someone that u r not?it seems like u r not gettin tired of being phony just to impress ppl eh?

and that particular someone is just too eager to be a part of my life,to get to know everybody that i happened to know,to be informed bout everythin that i do, to interfere in every single thing in my life that might be advantageous but at the same time tryin to keep me away from her friends n stuff.whut the heck is dat suppose to mean?maybe she thinks that im a just like a hurricane that gonna swipe it all away from her or somethin?cmon gurl,get a life.be real! i have better things to do rather than that. u r soo unbelievable.org macam nih pun ade?duh~

well..enough of the ripleys believe it or not for tonite. erm..im feelin good.the test was superb.hopefully that the marks gonna be wonderful too.

n yeah...its friday!the startin point of?heh..lets not talk about it.aha..i already got my ticket!yey..im goin home on tuesday!weee...

but tell u whut..in order to get the ticket that gonna make it possible for me to board the plane n off back home.i need to queue for almost 40 mins at the ticket counter.duh~n the service was so damn slow.gosh..there were tons of ppl waitin to get their tickets n MAS just opened 2 counters?

after gettin my precious, me n my roomies..headed to the mcd!heh..had a dose of vanilla coke!nyum..n yeah the hot prosperity burger.duh..quite pedas for me though i think its just the extra pepper that generated the hot taste.i had to glup down the vanilla coke to ease my runny nose.hehe :P~

im bad in handlin spicy food.im just not as good as my dad n bro.they luv spicy foods.i might even faint just by lookin at their way of eatin the foods with all those sambal n stuff.hahah.when i was i little.i used to cry just bcoz the food was too spicy. :P n then my dad kena order somethin else for me*wink*

oh yeah..i bought a lil teddy bear at mcd.it's blue!!comel2..i'll take a pic of it nanti.finally my beanie baby,woody got himself a lil blue friend.*grin*
erm..i'll call this lil fella,bluey.hihi

aiyok..im feelin hungry!sabar..sabar..few days more to go b4 i can stuff myself with my mum's cookin!wah..cant wait!

kiss the rain..

whoaa...its rainin cats n dogs!!

30 mins more to go b4 my IS dev test!

wish me luck!!*wink*

You excel at Care of Magical Creatures. You must
have a thing for those cute furry things...or
big scaley things...or scary firebreathing many
teethed things...


Which Class at Hogwarts Would You Excel at?
brought to you by Quizilla

monster&martian:no doubt!*wink*
dd:*grin*heee......

finally...

ohoo...heh..booked a ticket last nite.wuhuu...im goin back on 20th. 1.45pm.weee....by 2.45 i'll be at home.home sweet home.mummy!!!wait for me!! :P~

goin to get my ticket tomorrow.wee..bestnyer.

well...over n done with the IS report for this week.phew~ n tomorrow nite, IS dev 1st test!whoaa...me lum bis study...aiseh.im infected by the worst virus of all!its no other than "virus Malas". (note that it has a BIG M)heee..how deadly.ish ish...*geleng2*

martian&monster:wheres the doc?we need to cure this gurl!

bro kecik:cepat2 banjer.semlm kan dah tolong :P~

me sleepy.. (- . -)

unintended...

You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You could be the one I'll always love
You could be the one who listens
To my deepest inquisitions
You could be the one I'll always love

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken
Pieces of the life I had before

First there was the one who challenged
All my dreams and all my balance
She could never be as good as you
You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You could be the one I'll always love

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken
Pieces of the life I had before

before you....

Muse- Unintended

yes..new theme song again.it might sounds a lil bit creepy but i luv it!haha :P~

sealed with a kiss...

I don't wanna say goodbye for the summer
Knowing the love we'll miss
Oh let us make a pledge to meet in september
And seal it with a kiss
Guess it's gonna be a cold lonely summer
But I'll fill the emptiness
I'll send you all my love every day in a letter
Sealed with a kiss

1 of the oldies that im quite familiar with.growin up while being surrounded with my dad's oldies collections n now,
i kinda like to listen to all those stuff too.oldies r not just for old folks okies.

whuts up with the sealed with a kiss??well...i came across this news kat msn.com

8,890 Chileans seal world record with a kiss
Smoochers easily top previous mark set in Canada

Men and women, most of them in their 20s, poured onto a cordoned-off street in central Santiago, Chile’s capital, to smooch for at least 10 seconds in a bid to set a world record for the largest number of people kissing simultaneously

haha...whut a 'great' world record.geezz.. :P~ they ran out of things to do n decided to break another stupid record.
no offence. i just cant see whuts is the use of those kinda world record.y cant it be somethin useful n meaningful?

well..few hours more to go b4 the 1st test of the sem.n its gonna be a maths tech 2 test!wohooo...nice~

wish me luck.

martian&monster: go go dd!!

theres a whole lot of things u can do..n do without me

oh la la...over n done with all the classes for today.pheww~*grin*

it seems like its gonna rain sooner or later.wooowee...let it rains..let it rains!

wah wah...bestnyer mlm nih.windy~woo...did u hear that??ape??heee...its the wind of change! :P~

tadi, durin the programmin replacement class.i was quite amazed dgn my lecturer's attitude.heh...dia masih bleh maintain his colgate smile n sabar though 1 of the international students tu tak paham2 gak ape yg dia explain.sian dia.asyik nak kena repeat again n again. memacam method dia guna.at last baru la that guy got the idea.the international guy is no other than the guy with the trojan hairdo.i think he should change his hairstyle.it looks heavy.maybe patut nipiskan sikit rambut tu,kasi ringan sikit kepale tu.:P~

it seems like i got the perfect lecturer for programmin this sem. :D woowee...hopefully result pun purrrfect!*wink*

aha..eppy besdey sweet 20 to my dearie muna!!
dah 20 eh?wah wah...belas dah takde.hihiih...may Allah bless u always dear.n nanti kite cuti.meh la umah.
duh~ dah terpisah antara state.she's still in Malacca n me(,monster&martian) kat jurassic park.heee.. :P

and yeah..im gettin ready with the wish list!heee....im goin home soooon.i surely need a wish list.ehem~*wink* mithalinyer me nih.

monster&martian:yer yer no doubt!mithali sgt!
dd:psstt..nak ape ek??*garu2kepale*

ermm...tommorow!!

- 1st class at 8am!

- need to book a ticket utk balik.plz plz..jgn la takde kosong

- study study study

- maths tech 2 midterm test

- IS dev report for Wed.

bro polt: mane pulak i hate the way u love me.its i love the way u hate me! tu baru betul :P~
teddy:wah2 akak kite nih..kesatria ek?

time to mencomelkan diri..ZzZZzZzzZZzZ~

there's a million things i can do..n do alone

most of everythin in the world comes in a whole.

eg.peaches

yes..it comes in an ovul-like shape(read:whutever shape u wanna call it). and we, being the homosapiens with superb creativities turned it into halves,cubes n all those stuff that we desire.(duh~whut a good eg. hahah)

i wish that i could do that to human too.but ppl comes in a complete package that consist of the dark n the bright side.n in order to be able to accept her/him.we just have to bear with the dark side as much as we like the other side of her/him.

conclusion:we just have to accept ppl as a whole. :P~

so..the goes another crap from dd the queen of crap*clap2* hahah...

(note:forgive my crappy-ness)

i can be a mystery...
cover up my heart....
Never show my emotion always keep you in the dark...
i could find funny line impress you for a while....
Hide the way that I'm feeling behind the smile....

guy sebastian - just as i am

well..feelin hungry and partly tired.i have another class tonite.replacement class to be exact.n my throat hurts.it feels like theres somethin stucked in the mid of my throat.urgh~

to whom it may concern..this song is for u :P~

I haven't felt the way I feel today
In so long it's hard for me to specify.
I'm beginning to notice how much this
feels like a waking limb... pins and needles,
nice to know you,
Good-bye, Nice to Know You
To know..You

(incubus - nice to know u)

owh la la..time to mamam!care to join me mencomelkan diri?

smileeeee...heeee :D

the hectic sunday of mine finally over!!yey...i think i need to get a face massage.hahah..ive been smilin n talkin almost non-stop durin the campus tour.penat dah nak senyum.i think that theres gonna be another deformation of my face muscles after nih...ish ish..

well..woke up this morn.got ready semua.5 mins b4 8.30am.off to campus tour waitin area.amik our food coupons n lepak.yes..we have to wait for the visitors to come.kot tak nak free campus tour kat saper right?at 10am.org dah mule ramai.hee...my 1st duty.just tunjukkan this uncle n his kids to the seminar.then followed by my 1st campus tour.haa....it took about 40 mins kot.then..on the way back to the waitin area,when i was about to finish the campus tour with my 1st group of visitors.bro kecik called.haha..dtg jugak this budak kecik.went to meet him.dragged him to the MPH.lepak2 for awhile then curik tulang!pegi lunch punye la lamer :P~

neway...bro kecik didnt stay that long.dia nak balik umah.so tak sempat la banjer ice cream ek?hihi..some other time eh bro?at least dpt ler door gift yg comel tu right?hahah..esok dpt lagi!thx to u :P~yey...

then ade la few rounds of campus tour lagi.n ade this trip,we took about an hour n 15 mins kot.duh~macik n pacik tu mmg nak investigate habis2an lah.way to go to my beloved database system lecturer Mr.CCHO for the superb explaination.*clap2*he was waitin at 1 of the software animation n game design labs when kitaorg gi visit the FIT building.hee..nice2, i always like him.he knows how to make the explanation sounds interestin.well..at least interestin enough to attract the visitors.

well..we r supposed to be off duty at 2pm since i was in the mornin group.but then again,sebab the last group punye la excited sgt nak tau serba serbi.i went off duty at 3.20pm.uhuks..i was all tired of walkin n smilin.dah le kena investigate habis2an dek macik pacik tu..tinggal mane,duduk mane,umor baper.ishish..macam pegi interview lak..ey!im the tour guide remember?im not a criminal or somethin!!nooooooooo....

got some new friends..seniors.heee..nice2.then pegi round2 kejap.n lepak tgk students performance.got another new friend.he used to be studyin in utm.another international student.n mase ade dikir barat.he asked me ape diorg tgh nyanyi tu.erk?dikir barat n their unique songs.how should i know?me pon tak paham la... :P~ then borak2 for awhile then off to the hostel.

doze off for an hour.woke up..mandi2 semua.then gi tapau for dinner.n now..crappin like usual :P~

well..a whole new week is comin.i surely hope that it gonna be a great week.i pledge myself not to mess up with anybody this week n hopefully nobody gonna come n mess up with me either.no more gaduh2,majuk2 or whutsoever.no more so called pms.hahaha :P

hope that the test gonna be okie dokie.me still lum habis study for the test.n i need to get myself a ticket!im goin home on 20th if i manage to get the ticket.maybe flight tgh hari ke..ptg ke..depends.hee..okies.

time to rest!!!

oh la la....

When you refuse me
You confuse me
What makes you think I'll let you in again
Think again my friend
Go on misuse me and abuse me
I'll come out stronger in the end

And does it make you sad
To find yourself alone
And does it make you mad
To find that I have grown
I'll bet it hurts so bad
To see the strength that I have shown

When you answer the door, pick up the phone
You wont find me cause I'm not coming home

You do not know how much this hurts me
To say these things that I don't want to say
But have to say them anyway
I would do anything to end your suffering
But you would rather walk away

not comin home - maroon5

well...its 1.32am.duh~ i have to sleeepp...esok need to report at the campus tour area b4 8.30am.

hope dat i'll be on duty durin the morn session.i cant bear to walk 'pi mai pi mai' tetengah ari..uwaaaa

okie..off to slumberland!weee....i need my beauty sleep(read:ugly sleep)ZzzZzZZzZZ

want a free campus tour?gimme a call :P

nak mummyy!!!

sometimes i like to be a lil bit annoyin, i dunt know y..its not like im doin it on purpose but it just happened naturally. things happen aight?ppl tend to get annoyed by me once in a while n im really sorry...not!!hahaha...naahh,im really am sorry..hee..

went to the briefin for the MMU's open day. it seems like im gonna be 1 of the tourist guide tak bergaji.hee..charity work eh, once in a while we have to be a lil bit angelic kan?*wink*the briefin was okie dokie but the result of walkin in the mid of the day under the hot blazin sun,dapat la headache for free..im fine with it,infact im still feelin a lil bit dizzy but i just cant get myself to sleep.*sigh*

n today..its the startin point of jurassic-park-all-alone-weekend,no..im not feelin sorry for myself. it has been part n parcel of my life since i moved to jurassic park 9 months ago.im so used to it by now n yes..im gonna try to stop whinin and plz stop sayin "sian dia" to me.i actually startin to hate that phrase.

well...this weekend, i guess that it wont be that bad since im gonna be bz with the open day thingy this comin Sunday.hope that i wont be that pancit and tak larat nak study later.my 1st mid term paper gonna be on tues nite.maybe i need to start studyin today.yes..study study.

bro kecik:break a leg or two eh :P~
bro role-model-yg-sedikit-malas:tetiba je called.tension pasal paper tadi keh?nanti jgn silap tgk jam tu :P
break a leg for ur papers next week.n meh le jurassic park's open day.me kasi free tour.
munira:mane awak???balik ke???uwaaa...

(note:im turnin into a serial killer. ive killed 4 ekor nyamok!kacau je..ishh)

kangaaa????

Take the 100 Acre Personality Quiz!

everythin so blurry..

im gettin weird...n weirder everyday.i dunt know whut has got into me but ive been feelin a lil bit awful for the past 2 days.rejectin calls,ignoring msges and maybe a lil bit more inscrutable than b4.and to whom it may concern.im so sorry.

n no..im not having a fight with my bf or ade the so called "masalah rumah tangga"..hell no,i dunt even have a bf..haha..maybe its the time of the month?nope..its not that either. its just than once in a while i feel like im not being myself.and maybe i should thx the particular person for ruinin my good mood 2 days back.

ive been wonderin...y on earth everytime u r not feelin good or tend to be a lil moody,ppl will start to assume that u r havin a fight with someone n to be a lil specific, ur bf/gf???.as if there's no other reason?.heee..get a life.y cant it be kucin mati ke?my pet hamster mati ke?

but then again,when im out there,i tend to smile though i dunt feel like smilin.it just dunt feel right to frown.n i dunt want my muscles to work twice harder just bcoz i need to frown.infact..it doesnt hurt to smile though im feelin horrible.
*sigh*inscrutable me.

tiela:thx for the call.somehow u always pop up whenever i feel like talkin to someone.gracias me amiga :D

haha..im quite picky eh??hihih...

well...mane boleh selalu randomly choose rite?sometimes we have to be a lil bit picky for the sake of ourself ..heee :P

hee...its 4.25pm!another class at 6pm..duh~

n its goin to rain sooooonn...yey!*grin*

beautiful day??

ignorance is bliss

well..i always try to keep that in mind whenever someone just popped out from the mid of nowhere and pissed me off.
how i wish that i could just look at that particular person with a blank stare n walk away.*sigh*

sometimes ppl just ran out of things to do and decided to kacau hidup org lain.wonderful~heh..n to that particular person..u made my day.heh..

erm..im not feelin good..my mood just turned from good to worst and my head is spinnin like a gasing??heh..it feels as if theres a bunch of maggots dancin around in my head.if theres any choice,i prefer to suffer from a mouth ulcer instead of the teribble headache.just macam my friend cakap dulu"once u got a mouth ulcer,u gonna have a superb diet program automatically"duh~right..of coz.

tomorrow gonna be another hectic day.infact its the most hectic day of the week. 6 hours of lecture sessions in a row, 2 hours gap and another class sampai pukul7.and next week gonna be so damn hectic.lots of stuff to be done n ade midterm xm for IS Dev n Maths Tech II.duh~ i just cant bear to be sick now.

okie..better titun.hope dat my headache gonna be gone with the wind by tomorrow.wish me luck...

if i just breath..i know everythin gonna be alrite

theres somethin about the look in ur eyes...

well..slept at 2am last nite, i was about to go to sleep when fada pm me through ym.geez...it has been ages since our last chat.but u know whut buddy? u r still damn good with ur words. :P~ n no...im not flattered...
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u wont turn into a monster... ur angelic enough...probably u'll turn into a snow queen

it takes takes quite a while to know u, a few seems to understand u... but it takes forever before i forget u..

almost every nite...where we could meet up together..the three of us... im still wishing that ur just a walking distance away
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haha..snow queen eh?sure sure... the cold hearted me..rite rite.

*sigh*well...how i wish that we r still a walkin distance away,so that we can hang out together...buat our 'mesyuarat pagar',pegi lunch sesame.heh...the good old days. maybe we can meet up soon n for now...plz keep ourself updated bout each other okies?

and yeah..fada reminded me of 1 of my fav seniors,kak sue..i wonder how she's doin right now.dah lamer tak dgr any news from her. well,hope dat she's doin okie dokie with her life in Sarawak.

erm...another report.duh~need to be finished br 6!then..another presentation n tonite,another group meeting...heee...isk..im sleepy n hungry...

well..need to start workin on the report.

p/s:i changed the theme song again!!now u can just stop the background music if u cant stand it coz ive put the player :P uhuhu..go go brandon!!

duh~cute...



cutenyehhh...if only me boleh ade pet elephant yg kecik camtu...isnt it adorable??

well...went to the replacement class at8 and came back 90 mins after that.pheww~ glad that im over n done with the classes for today...

wednesday gonne be another hectic day...heee....and im feelin a lil bit bitter..n i wonder y...pms?naahh... :P

n im tired..need to titun rite now... ZzZZzZz

so happy together...



yeah..its brandon boyd madness again!

well...suddenly today,teringat dekat my lil cousins.kinda miss them.it has been quite sometime since the last time i saw their cute faces..hee...i surely miss AJ alot,cute!!and the handsome boy Akmal Arif.. if only im 18 years younger...ahaha..crazy thought :P

martian:akmal arif who??
monster: ala..that lil boy.goreng pon sodap..nyum2 >:)
dd:err...

neway...lets look at the cute happy faces durin eid...shall we?


heh..too bad i dont have any pic of the cute Akmal Arif rite now..he has this come-n-pinch-me-on-the-cheek look...

err..i skipped the mornin class..heh..tetiba malas,plus sejam je class tu..heee..1st time for this sem. n yeah hopefully i wont do it again.. >:) *wink* n another replacement class for IS dev tonite!!heee..how nice.

tomorrow : another presentation..lovely!
thursday : 6 hours in a row of lecture sessions..superb(read:i feel like faintin)

its cloudy!!!yey...plz plz plz let it rains!

pacik ultraman: plz jgn makan sambil mengire nasi lagi okies :P...

erk??...



heee...its a cold mornin(as a result of the downfalls last nite) and soon-to-be-sunny day....hope that today gonna be great*wink*

i still have to finish up the new report..heee :P

and now another person dah comment bout the cursor effect..hahah...sorry bout that,but i just cant help myself from being a lil bit annoyin sometimes..eh..errr...
i mean..the cursor can be a lil bit annoyin sometimes...heeee :D

bro polt : its such a nice cursor effect..isnt it? :P hahaha

(note:thats the pic of brandon boyd..not the MMU's security guard :P)

song of the day

I'm only happy when it rains
I'm only happy when it's complicated
And though I know you can't appreciate it
I'm only happy when it rains
You know I love it when the news is bad
And why it feels so good to feel so sad
I'm only happy when it rains

Pour your misery down, pour your misery down on me
Pour your misery down, pour your misery down on me

I'm only happy when it rains
I feel good when things are going wrong
I only listen to the sad sad songs
I'm only happy when it rains

I only smile in the dark
My only comfort is the night gone black
I didn't accidentally tell you that
I'm only happy when it rains
You'll get the message by the time I'm through
When I complain about me and you
I'm only happy when it rains

garbage-only happy when it rains

note:1 of my fav songs :P~

wheres the rain??

it has been quite sometimes since the last downfalls..urgh...its so damn hot over here....*sigh*God!pls let it rains....

im startin to get this weird headache like i always do whenever the weather makes me feel like im livin in a desert..duh~ nak demam tak demam...nak pengsan tak pengsan...monster tak patut duduk kat desert rite?its suppose to be somewhere peaceful with wonderful breath-takin waterfalls,crystal clear water streamin down the rivers n last but not least...cold! haha.. :P

current wheather in jurassic park : hot...but windy n crazy! :P
but then again,the wind is kinda dry.its not soothin like its suppose to..ish ish..so it doesnt make any different whether its windy or not coz its still damn hot!

and 2 days back....cloudy...it seemed like its goin to rain cats n dogs,the wind started to blow like its goin to drag everythin that was on its way..but the next sec...mr.sunshine managed to conquer the day once again*sigh*.

n now...i can hear the thunder roaring...duh~ hope that its not another false alarm.

well..my parents called yesterday,asked bout the usual stuff like usual..just to make me feel like they r near*grin*it seems like everyone at home is catchin up with the technology. semua dah ade their own com.heh...my parents got their own laptops n pdas while my bro inherited a desktop from me :P n yeah im gettin myself a new desktop!heh...ive been livin with this laptop for almost 2 years..n i think i have to get a desktop just to keep me updated *wink*

guess whut???its rainin!!!!yey...kiss the rain!!muakss...alhamdulillah*grin*

me nak mamam!care to join me for tea?? :P

behind blue eyes..

No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind blue eyes

And no one knows what it's like
To be hated
To be fated
To telling only lies

But my dreams
They aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be
I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free

No one knows what it's like
To feel these feelin's
Like I do
And I blame you!

No one bites back as hard
On their anger
None of my pain woe
Can show through

No one knows what it's like
To be mistreated
To be defeated
Behind blue eyes

And no one knows how to say
That they're sorry
And don't worry
I'm not telling lies

:P
behind blue eyes,matchin dengan pic of the blue eye that adorns my blog.*wink*

wooweee....

hehhe..im soooo damnnn bored!!duh~

need to finish up another report..aiiyee

now nak titun.. sleepy..*yawn* nak titun..nite2

red??????


You are red. You are impure, but noble. You are precious and true to yourself and others. When you love, you love entirely, and will do anything to make your love happy. You are sure of your identity, therefore, you cannot change others or be changed. You are a true prince, you may be forgotten, but without you, none of us could go on.

What inner color are you?

hahah...red... :P

love is in the air??



heh..it seems like everybody dah stucked in the lovey dovey world!hahah...few weeks back,1 of my friends came to me and mereport bout his deadly disease(read:penyakit angau) sorry buddy,cant help :P

and last nite,1 of the lil bros lak..hee..dah besor bro kecik kite ek??heee...ape2 pon bro,take it slowwww...u dont want that gurl to freak out..aight??just be urself okies.

munirah:if awak baca nih..me wanna wish u tons of luck with ur blog*wink*

another experiment!..

heee...another result of my boring-ness :P

Everytime I think we're alright
Why you gotta go and change your mind, baby
Everything I do is for you
You're unpredictable but I still love you, baby

Keisha Chante - Unpredictable

new song..n me dah get rid of those players..hahaha..im not being fair this time!but who cares?its my blog aight? :P

erk??....

well...2nd day of the new year!!

hohohoh...talked to 1 of my friends from Sarawak earlier this eve...heee...he's sendin me a new year gift!!yey...*grin* send my love to ur cute parit(ade ke pet name parit juz bcoz jumpe kat parit?)*geleng2*

1 of my old buddies from skool called earlier,he's in kl..ajak me kuar,he wanna meet up with all of us yg ade dedekat sini and 1 of my friends supposed to pick me up but tetiba tak jadi lak..heee...sib baik me tak ready ape2 lagi.kot tak..me jumpe nanti..geget tinger tu sampai putus kot :P so...tak jadi lah nak jumpe reramai..yeah,some other time okie buddies?

today my lil bro called..tetiba je budak tu,agaknye winduu nak kena bully dgn me kot..hee..sabar dik!i'm comin home sooooonnn!!!tungguuuuu...hiihhi...he's such a darlin,tanye me wat ape,dah mamam lum..hiihi.semacam je budak nih..nak bodek ape2 la tu..tah2 dah abiskan my chocs la tu..ish2 dak nih,mamam byk2 pun tak gumuk2!me gak makin comel..hahahah!!tgk muke ku..cam donut kan??hahahha :P

n after lunch tadi,got an email from my dad...ulang suara..my dad!!hee...i think its his 3rd email...but its the 1st one yg managed to get through to me...its hillarious,kinda funny to read an email from ur dad...cam lawak.he just called earlier in the morn then few hours after that send email lak..heee..

babe, ayah baru saja lunch. anak dah makan ke belum?

heee..the 1st sentence of my dad's email.see...tanye me dah mamam or not.takot sgt me tak cukup mamam.hahah..me dah terlebih mamam dah ni..dunt worry dad!*grin* n yes..its babe..haha..weird isnt it?but thats whut my dad calls me since kecik,so nuthin weird bout that(at least for me).dulu..when we were in my grandparents house, my dad pernah terjerit2 panggil me.n my nenek tetiba tanye my dad,

nenek:dok panggey sapa?
dad:dok panggey baby besaq!

(note:ehem..bahasa kedah okie :P)

hahaha....i happened to show up mase tu..n sempat terdengar diorg cakap..woowee..baby besor!takpe laa..baby jugak,young at heart.. :P and when i was in skool,everytime my friend call me up, n if my dad yg pick up the phone..the next day mmg kena perli abis2an la..huhu..ape taknyeh,my dad was like "baby!!ade call nih.."
tu siap panggil dgn penuh perasaan dgn voice yg serasenya jiran2 kat sebelah umah pon leh dgr tu..uhuks :P
n as for my mummy...she prefer to call me anak..ihihi..anakku!!

some of my older cousins pun panggil me anak. i wonder where/how on earth me boleh dapat that nick.how mysterious!.*garu2kepale*

okie..now time to watch another cartoon!!woowee...rugrats in paris.cute!!

monster&martian:not again...*faint*

duh~boringg...

1 word for the very 1st day of 2004....boring!!

went to bed at 4.21am last nite..its not like i came back late from celebratin the new year or somethin...as far as i can remember..me tak pernah celebrate the new year and yeah..for the past 4 years..i spent my new year depan com...haha.. me n my beloved com...hee..it might sounds pathetic but its not!really..

well...last nite..a year ago, pegi star gazin with my buddies...yeah..wonderful~3 of us..starin at the Orion's Belt,how romantic..the good old days...how i miss the place...the ppl!

some of my friends asked me out to celebrate the new year...but guess that im too tired for those celebration thingies...my last class finished at 7pm yesterday..my head was too numb to feel any excitement of the new year,ape2 pun..thx for askin, maybe some other time eh :)

durin every new year eve...since 2 years back, my dad gonna call me up without fail.maybe he just wanna check out whether anak dia yg sorang nih pegi meronggeng mase new year eve or not...dunt worry dad,im not goin anywhere..kalau pegi memane pun..i'll heed ur words n u'll be updated..as usual.

thx to everyone yang called me up to wish eppy new year..n yeah..thx for the msges n thx for wishin me well... *grin*

woke up late!slept through half of the day..heee... :P ngantuk~ its the 1st day of new year,i pledge myself to make today worthwhile and i managed to get up...but my brain fails me...i didnt manage to think of somethin interestin to do except diggin into the mags,watch tv,get online n yea..mamam!2nd thought...its not my brain.its just the place that im stayin right now, Jurassic Park...it feels like livin in a desert or somewhere horrible,now..rase nyesal tak balik,at least dekat rumah..i'll be able to go out with my bro,bully my bro,stuff myself with my mum's cookin,visit my grandparents,hang out at my aunt's place or
somethin,hee..its a million times better than stayin in jurassic park durin the long weekend...demmit!

3 days more to go...long weekend, 3 days of boredom~ sabar dd...sabar...this is nuthin..u've been through somethin worse than this..right?*sigh*

i miss my mummy~*sobsob*